aah ai saudaa-e-khaam-e-aarzu — Akbar Haideri Kashmiri

"kis chaman ki khaak mein phulon kaa mustaqbil nahin durbin nazron mein rang-o-bu hain aab-o-gil nahin shokhiyaan hain jis ki har jumbish mein laakhon be-naqaab kyuun vo duzdida-nigaahi haq-shanaas-e-dil nahin jabr sahtaa huun magar kab tak sahun insaan huun sabr kartaa huun magar dil sabr ke qaabil nahin ai havaadis-aashnaa izaa-talab dil muzda-baad jaa rahaa huun us taraf ab main jidhar manzil nahin kyaa huaa kyuun chhu ke tum ghunche ko pichhe haT gae ye gul-e-nau-khez hai meraa shikasta-dil nahin ai nigaah-e-naaz teri bazm mein laayaa huun main aaj us dil ko jo barq-e-tur kaa qaail nahin bazm-e-husn-o-ishq mein 'akbar' ki afsurda-dili daad ke laaeq nahin be-daad ke qaabil nahin"

"yuun sang-dil hayaat se ahd-o-vafaa kiyaa divaar darmiyaan thi magar khud ko vaa kiyaa miTTi kaa rang-o-nur se rishta qadim thaa har baar zindagi ne nayaa tajraba kiyaa the dastaras mein yuun to sab asraar-e-kaaenaat is umr-e-bevafaa ne magar naa-rasaa kiyaa har ajnabi maqaam se tanhaa guzar gae apnaa hi naqsh-e-paa thaa jise rahnumaa kiyaa chamkaa diyaa lahu ne dil-e-tira-jism ko ik sail-e-nur thaa ki ragon mein bahaa kiyaa daanista luT gayaa ye saman-zaar dekhnaa phulon ne nikhaton ko sipurd-e-sabaa kiyaa ye raat raushni ki tamannaa mein bujh gai dil ko ye kis shikast ne be-muddaaa kiyaa yuun to jahaan tamaam hai tufaan-e-rang-o-nur kis aabshaar ne hamein rangin-navaa kiyaa"

"ik jal-thal thi kal tak ye zamin ye dasht bhi kal tak dariyaa the ye shor thaa kal ik sannaaTaa ye shahar bhi kal tak sahraa the aaghaaz apnaa vahshat basri anjaam apnaa shorida-sari ham aaj bhi hain badnaam bahut ham kal bhi nihaayat rusvaa the tanhaai-e-zaat kaa saaya hai tanhaai apnaa virsa hai ham aaj bhi hain tanhaa tanhaa ham kal bhi tanhaa tanhaa the maazi ke kharaabon mein bhi kahin lau detaa rahaa suraj apnaa maazi ke kharaabon mein bhi ham ik khvaab-e-jahaan-fardaa the apnaa hi to hai shahkaar-e-amal tahzib kaa ye zindaan 'akbar' ham aaj hain shahron ke qaidi kal tak aavaara-e-sahraa the"

"maut us bekas ki ghaayat hi sahi umr bhar jis ne musibat hi sahi husn kaa anjaam dekhein ahl-e-husn ishq meraa be-haqiqat hi sahi zindagi hai chashm-e-ibrat mein abhi kuchh nahin to aish-o-ishrat hi sahi dekh letaa huun tabassum husn kaa gham-parasti meri fitrat hi sahi parda-daar-e-saadgi hai har adaa ye tasanno be-zarurat hi sahi darpai-e-aazaar hai qismat to ho ab mujhe tum se mohabbat hi sahi hur-e-be-jaa ki talaafi kuchh to kar khair izhaar-e-nadaamat hi sahi ai ajal kuchh zindagi kaa haq bhi hai zindagi teri amaanat hi sahi kyaa karun 'akbar' dili jazbaat ko is taghazzul mein qadaamat hi sahi"

"paiham ik iztiraab 'ajab khushk-o-tar mein thaa main ghar mein aa rukaa thaa miraa ghar safar mein thaa kyaa raushni thi jis ko ye aankhein taras gaiin kyaa aag thi ki jis kaa dhuaan mere sar mein thaa bas ek dhund khvaabon ki fikr-o-khayaal mein bas ek lams dard kaa shaam-o-sahar mein thaa har 'ahd ko sameTe hue chal rahaa thaa main naadida saa'aton kaa ujaalaa nazar mein thaa har lamha thaa talaash ki sadiyaan liye hue meri baqaa kaa raaz hi 'ilm-o-khabar mein thaa"

"juzv-o-kul kaa ham is andaaz se rishta samjhe dekh kar qatre ko maahiyyat-e-dariyaa samjhe har adaa teri ham-aahang thi dil se itni har adaa ko tiri ham dil kaa taqaazaa samjhe ham vo khud-bin hain ki hangaama-e-dil ke aage saare hangaama-e-giti ko tamaashaa samjhe ham ko miTTi ke gharondon ki haqiqat maalum jism ki khaak ko ham nafs kaa saaya samjhe ham ki har nisbat-e-mauhum ko apnaate rahe ik shikasta se taalluq ko bhi kitnaa samjhe ustuvaar itnaa huaa rishta-e-aavaaz 'akbar' dil ki dhaDkan ko bhi ham dost kaa lahja samjhe"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"

"na koi dost ho meraa na ho adu meraa tum apne munh se agar kah do mujh ko tu meraa fasurdagi mein junun-e-havaa-e-gul yaani khizaan ke daur mein saudaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa jo tum nahin to bahaar-e-jinaan mein khaak nahin bahut vasia hai daamaan-e-aarzu meraa nibhegi ai dil-e-aavaara ab na tujh se miri bas aaj se na main teraa huun aur na tu meraa banaa rahe hain vo jalve ki apne tasvirein dikhaa dikhaa ke tamaashaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa kisi ki zulf-e-siyah kah rahi hai khul khul kar ghaTaa ne rang uDaayaa hai hu-ba-hu meraa mah-e-siyaam kaa aur intizaam kyaa karte janaab-e-shaikh uDaa le gae subu meraa jafaa kaa rang judaa hai vafaa kaa rang judaa malo na dast-e-hinaai mein tum lahu meraa taDap rahi hai jo abr-e-siyaah mein bijli firaaq mein yahi naqsha thaa hu-ba-hu meraa suhaani raat hai chhiTki hai chaandni 'muztar' miri nigaah mein phirtaa hai maah-ru meraa"

"khurshid jhaanktaa hai ridaa-e-sahaab se yaa nuur chhan rahaa hai kisi ke naqaab se baahar jo aaj dekh liyaa hai hijaab se suraj laraz rahaa hai tumhaare shabaab se naaseh Daraa rahe the khudaa ke 'azaab se khud hi janaab baaz na aae sharaab se lamhe guzar chuke hain jo phulon ki sej par is daur-e-pur-khatar mein vo lagte hain khvaab se khud ko to pahle dekhiye phir kahiye bevafaa bas itni iltijaa hai hamaari janaab se har roz ik na ik nai zid hai zabaan par tang aa gayaa huun main dil-e-khaana-kharaab se ahl-e-vafaa mein meraa vahi naam paD gayaa tum ne mujhe navaaz diyaa jis khitaab se kin manzilon pe meraa nishaan-e-qadam nahin puchho miraa maqaam mah-o-aaftaab se jo husn kaa kahin bhi tahaffuz na kar sake phir kaun saa hai faaeda aisi naqaab se saaya bhi jis hasin kaa DhunDe na mil sakaa be-misl vo khudaa ke hue intikhaab se sun kar hamaare she'r vo kuchh muskuraa diye 'faaruq' aaj ham bhi rahe kaamyaab se"