dil ki zabaan se us ko sadaa denaa chaahiye — Bimal Krishn Ashk

"aise mein roz roz koi DhunDtaa mujhe aavaaz de rahi thi udhar ki havaa mujhe aisaa huaa ki ghar se na niklaa tamaam din jaise ki khud se aaj koi kaam thaa mujhe parde ke aas-paas koi baagh hi na ho khiDki khuli to phuul kaa dhokaa huaa mujhe ye peD jis pe phuul na patti na Tahniyaan das biis saal baad jo khud saa lagaa mujhe main aaj bhi vahi huun vafaa thi jise aziiz fursat mile to aa ke kabhi dekh jaa mujhe aankhon mein dil utar paDaa aaina dekh kar aayaa thaa ik khayaal bahut duur kaa mujhe ye fikr aa paDi hai ki badle gae na hon saae se kah rahaa huun zaraa dekhnaa mujhe kahte hain yaar-dost agar bevafaa kahein ai 'ashk' aansuon ne bhi kyaa de diyaa mujhe"

"agar tujh se huun to phir aur kyaa huun main kis jaisaa huun kis kis se judaa huun mujhe maalum hai kitnaa buraa huun ye kyaa kam hai ki apnaa aaina huun koi divaar si TuuTi hai shaayad main andar hi kahin girne lagaa huun kabhi to saamne aaungaa apne ki apni raah mein kab se khaDaa huun mujhe ehsaas ne gheraa huaa hai main apne-aap apnaa daaera huun ye meraa haath kis ke haath mein hai ye kis ke paanv hain jin par khaDaa huun mire alfaaz patthar ho gae hain main apne haath se zakhmi huaa huun khud apne-aap ko aavaaz de kar na jaane 'ashk' kis ko DhunDhtaa huun"

"kaise kahein ki chaar taraf daaera na thaa jaate kahaan ki khud se pare raastaa na thaa jab saans le rahi thi darakhton ke aas-paas aavaaz de rahi thi koi boltaa na thaa khud se chale to rah-guzar aaina ho gai apne sivaae aur koi sujhtaa na thaa ab ke basant aai to aankhein ujaD gaiin sarson ke khet mein koi patta haraa na thaa parda hilaa ke baad-e-sahar duur tak gai khushbu kidhar se aai kisi ko pataa na thaa guzri tamaam umr usi shahr mein jahaan vaaqif sabhi the go koi pahchaantaa na thaa ai 'ashk' ik kitaab paDhi thi varaq varaq vo tirgi thi lafz koi sujhtaa na thaa"

"charaagh jalne lagein aur dil machalne lage udhar ho raat udhar koi ji ko malne lage udaas os ki bundon se bujhne-jalne lage tum aa raho to sitaaron ki lau sambhalne lage ye devdaar ki Tahni pe tham gayaa saa chaand havaa chale to abhi karvaTein badalne lage tamaam-raat dhuaan saa uchhaalti rahi raat ruki to ThiThure hue haath-paaon jalne lage ab in hari-bhari saDkon kaa jaane kyaa hogaa thi jin se raah vahi raasta badalne lage jo baadalon mein tiri maang si lakiron par nazar gai to dilon mein charaagh jalne lage ruko to dard saa Thahraa sujhaai de dil mein chalo to 'ashk' kasak saath saath chalne lage"

"guzri raaton ke tasalsul se koi kyaa nikle ham jise teri tarah chaahein tujhi saa nikle jaise vo jaan nazar aankh jhapaktaa nikle raat ki kokh se aisaa koi taaraa nikle us pe kyaa jaaniye kyaa kyaa na guzarti hogi tum to ye soch rahe ho vo idhar aa nikle chup raho ik do-ghaDi ke liye rone vaalo ain mumkin hai koi hanstaa huaa aa nikle raah mein phuul khileinge to chubhan bhi hogi ghar mein baiThun to miri aankh kaa kaanTaa nikle raat jalti hai sulagte hue sahraa ki tarah dard agar ho to kisi aankh se dariyaa nikle"

"man mein jot jagaane vaale tyaag gae ye Deraa jogi uttar dakhkhin purab pachchhim chaaron or andheraa jogi dvaare dvaare alakh jagaane ko to saari 'umr paDi hai sej saji do chaar ghaDi ko kar le rain baseraa jogi is ghar mein ik koraa aanchal rote rote bhiig chalaa hai bhule hi se sahi kabhi to maar idhar bhi pheraa jogi apne man mein chor chhupaa ho to phir dosh kisi kaa kyaa hai vo hi raah-rau vo hi rahzan apnaa aap luTeraa jogi pal-do-pal ruk pahan gerue kapDe ham bhi saath chaleinge maar chali ras-bhari javaani jogi vaalaa pheraa jogi paanv paanv muDti pagDanDi aankh jhapakte Das leti hai jivan ki naagin kis ke bas is kaa kaun saperaa jogi tu jo kahe to un zulfon ki narm chhaaon hamraah le chalein jangal mein kaale baadal kaa saaya bahut ghaneraa jogi ye bhabhut kis ki palkon kis ke baalon ki parchhaain hai tere saaf saped jism par kis ne rang bikheraa jogi kaan mein kunDal kaDaa haath mein lambe baal ghunghrun vaale tere tan ke chaar chaphere kis jogan kaa gheraa jogi jis ne mujh ko ghar bakhshaa hai aur aavaara-gardi tujh ko us ki raahguzar kis ghar se kis raste par Deraa jogi har rukh par parchhaain kisi ki har chehre par 'aks kisi kaa chalte phirte baazaaron mein kyaa teraa kyaa meraa jogi is basti mein 'ashk' kisi ik laDke ko kunDal pahnaa kar ik laDki ne ye kah kar barbaad kiyaa tu meraa jogi"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"chaand bhi khoyaa khoyaa saa hai taare bhi khvaabida hain aaj fazaa ke bojhal-pan se lahje bhi sanjida hain jaane kin kin logon se is dard ke kyaa kyaa rishte the hijr ki is aabaad saraa mein sab chehre naadida hain itne barson baad bhi donon kaise TuuT ke milte hain tu hai kitnaa saada-dil aur ham kitne pechida hain sun jaanaan ham tark-e-taalluq aur kisi din kar leinge aaj tujhe bhi ujlat si hai ham bhi kuchh ranjida hain kaanon mein ik sargoshi hai be-maani si sargoshi aankhon mein kuchh khvaab saje hain khvaab bhi umr-rasida hain ghar ki vo makhdush imaarat gir ke phir taamir hui ab aangan mein peD hain jitne saare shaakh burida hain is basti mein ek saDak hai jis se ham ko nafrat hai us ke niche pagDanDi hai jis ke ham girvida hain"

"raftagaan ki sadaa nahin main huun ye tiraa vaahima nahin main huun tere maazi ke saath dafn kahin meraa ik vaaqi'a nahin main huun kyaa milaa intihaa-pasandi se kyaa main tere sivaa nahin main huun ek muddat mein jaa ke mujh pe khulaa chaand hasrat-zada nahin main huun us ne mujh ko muhaal jaan liyaa main ye kahtaa rahaa nahin main huun main hi 'ujlat mein aa gayaa thaa idhar ye zamaana nayaa nahin main huun meri vahshat se Dar gae shaayad yaar baad-e-fanaa nahin main huun main tire saath rah gayaa huun kahin vaqt Thahraa huaa nahin main huun gaahe gaahe sukhan zaruri hai saamne aaina nahin main huun sarsari kyuun guzartaa hai mujh se ye miraa maajraa nahin main huun us ne puchhaa kahaan gayaa vo shakhs kyaa bataataa ki thaa nahin main huun ye kise dekhtaa hai mujh se udhar tere aage khalaa nahin main huun"

"dast-kash hon na mai-e-gul ke khush-aashaam abhi ki labaalab hain mah-o-mehr ke do-jaam abhi zehn mein saaqi hai mai-khaana hai hai jaam abhi hosh kahtaa huun ise hosh kaa kyaa kaam abhi mujh ko darkaar na hai kufr na islaam abhi sidhe sidhe hi chale aate hain paighaam abhi tu bhi baaqi tiri rahmat bhi hai baaqi saaqi rahne de hai mai-e-isyaan se baDaa kaam abhi khaal-o-gesu se hai ye silsila-e-raaz-o-niyaaz daana sad-daana ho ye daam ho sad-daam abhi ziist ke khvaab ki taabir abhi baaqi hai ibtidaa dekh chuke hai magar anjaam abhi rah-rav-e-ishq abhi duur hai mearaaj-e-habib rashk-e-manzil na huaa raah mein har gaam abhi zarra-zarra hai ik aatish-kada-e-nur kalim dekh agar tu na ho aatish-zada-e-baam abhi imtiyaaz-e-man-o-tu raaz-e-khafi hai lekin khaasgaan ke liye kahtaa huun sar-e-aam abhi aks ko zo'm hai be-misli-e-rang-o-bu kaa turfa ye hai ki muqaabil hai vo gulfaam abhi raaz-goi tiri 'aiman' hai gunaah-e-akbar maang le afv ki us kaa hai karam aam abhi"

"baad-e-shimaal chalne lagi ang ang mein lipTaa hai kaun mujh se ye patjhaD ke rang mein khvaahish ke kaarobaar se bachnaa muhaal hai utregaa tu bhi saath mire is surang mein main aandhiyon mein haath bhi pakDun tiraa to kyaa ik shaakh-e-be-siper huun havaaon ki jang mein 'raanjhaa' main 'ahd-e-nau kaa qabilon mein baT gayaa to 'hir' ban ke pi na saki zahr jhang mein garmaa sakin na chaahatein teraa kaThor jism har ek jal ke bujh gai tasvir sang mein aage 'musavvir' aag 'aqab mein hai ye sadaa pichhe na muD ke dekhnaa is dasht-e-sang mein"

"tifli piiri o naujavaani hech tiin din ki hai zindagaani hech umr-e-do-roza par ghamanD itnaa munimon ki hai lan-taraani hech raat thoDi hai aao pyaar karein subh ko hogi ye kahaani hech chaar din ki bahaar hai saari ye takabbur hai yaar-e-jaani hech dil ke haathon 'haqir' jhagDon mein meri guzri sadaa javaani hech"