main ek shaam jo lauTaa ghubaar-e-jaan ban kar — Manmohan Talkh

"kholegaa raaz kaun tiri kaaenaat ke laale paDe hue hain yahaan apni zaat ke yuun ruui se khayaal ko rakhtaa huun kaat ke uDte phirein roein na kahin meri baat ke sab muntazir hain aisi kisi apni maat ke khul jaaein sab bharam kisi raah-e-najaat ke suntaa huun mujh se maangti hai maut bhi panaah vo parkhachche uDaae hain main ne hayaat ke khud ko sameTne ke bakheDe mein kyuun paDe kaahe ko ho ke rah na gae haadsaat ke in aandhiyon pe zor chaman kaa to kuchh na thaa qisse bikhar gae hain magar paat paat ke kam ye bhi to khalaaon mein takhliq se nahin jaise mahal kiye hain khaDe mushkilaat ke is se ziyaada ret ke tufaan tujh mein hain jharne tiri nigaah mein jitne hain zaat ke nauha-kunaan azal se andheron mein hain sadaaein ye dukh to hain sadaaon ki bas ek raat ke Takraao be-sabab jo nazar aur dil kaa thaa afsaane sab ne ghaD liye ek raat ke sach sach bataa ki 'talkh' ye dil ki navaa mein yuun kaise kiye hain jam' ye dukh kaaenaat ke"

"yunhi nahin ham bolte jaate ye apni majburi hai junhi kuchh kah chukte hain lagtaa hai baat adhuri hai sab apni afvaah bane hain asl mein kyaa the bhuul gae jiine ki jo surat hai so ye bhi aaj zaruri hai duniyaa meri zindagi ke din kam karti jaati hai kyuun khuun pasina ek kiyaa hai ye meri mazduri hai apne baad hi duniyaa mein Thahraao jo aae to aae jab tak ham zinda hain tab tak har ik daur uburi hai DhunD rahe hain kis ko log shikaari jaisi nazron se saf-dar-saf maujud huun main to har ik saf to puuri hai sab ik dusre ko nazron se bas ye dilaasa dete hain hain to ham sab paas hi bas andar ki ye ik duuri hai itni saari aavaazon mein shaayad sunne vaale ko bas itnaa hi yaad rahegaa meri baat zaruri hai koi bahaanaa mil jaae to haath nahin ham aane ke der ye hai chal dene mein tayyaari to puuri hai 'talkh' hamaare hosh ke aalam kaa hai rang-e-sukhan kuchh aur jis par vajd mein hai ik duniyaa vo to ghair-shuuri hai"

"kis liye sab ko ajab bojh lagaa sar apnaa le ke mahfil mein jo pahunchaa main kaTaa sar apnaa haath lapke to bahut pahunche na gardan tak bhi na magar ahl-e-nazar the na jhukaa sar apnaa rasm phir rasm hai Thahraa hai lahu hi jo suhaag chamak ai tegh-e-havaa le ye rahaa sar apnaa sab havaa bhuul gai sarkashi-o-sha-zori ik zaraa dosh-e-havaa par jo uDaa sar apnaa ham ne Thokar bhi agar khaai to ghar aa kar hi apni dahliz hi se jaa ke lagaa sar apnaa bas ki ab dekhnaa hai apne lahu se rishta khvaab mein dekhtaa huun tan se judaa sar apnaa kam se kam bhuul gae vaar to shamshiron ko 'talkh' jaane do bhulaa do jo gayaa sar apnaa"

"kuchh der to sab kuchh TuTne kaa maahaul rahaa mat puchh ki phir is dil par kaisaa haul rahaa jab chaahaa us mein khud ko chhupaa lete hain sab aavaazon kaa har zaat pe koi khol rahaa yuun lagtaa thaa jo baat hai ulTi paDti hai ab kyaa hi kahein tab haul saa koi haul rahaa ab kaun kahaan aayaa ki gayaa maalum nahin bas qadmon ki aahaT kaa ik maahaul rahaa kah bhi na sakaa main us mein shaamil thaa ki nahin bas ek chhalaave saa maston kaa ghol rahaa aavaaz-e-faqiraana kashkol ummidon kaa ab ye to rahi aavaaz vahaan kashkol rahaa ham 'talkh' faqat us daur ki ab kuchh yaadein hain jab dard bhi thaa kahne kaa bhi maahaul rahaa"

"koi chehra jo mire saamne laayaa hai mujhe yahi har haal mein kyaa dekhtaa aayaa hai mujhe sa'i ye thi kisi kandhe pe khaDaa ho jaaun bhaag niklaa huun ki har ik ne giraayaa hai mujhe na kabhi baat hui us se na pahchaan kabhi hai magar koi yahaan tak vahi laayaa hai mujhe muntazir jo bhi the ye kah ke lapak nikle hain ye jo aayaa hai bulaavaa faqat aayaa hai mujhe baahar aataa huun to uThti hai mujhi par har aankh jaane kis khauf ne is ghar mein basaayaa hai mujhe ek hi lamhe mein suntaa huun main do aavaazein yaad ye kis ne kiyaa kis ne bulaayaa hai mujhe haan ye sach hai ki ba-sad jabr main ghar lauTaa huun kis ne is haal mein lekin kahin paayaa hai mujhe 'talkh' main ne jo laDi jang laDi phir kis se apne kandhon pe sabhi ne to uThaayaa hai mujhe"

"thoDi der ko ham jo kahin ruk jaate to ye mumkin thaa mil hi jaataa vo jo apne ilaaqe kaa ik saakin thaa kuchh bhi yaad nahin ab paDtaa kab pardes ko nikle the shaayad shaam lagi thi Dhalne yaa shaayad chaDhtaa din thaa ham ne jatan to laakh kiye the vaqt ne aisi karvaT li apni jaDon se ham juD paate ek yahi naa-mumkin thaa vo ik saaneha ham na jise kah paae ab tak guzraa jab kaise kaise dil se chaahaa thaa ki na sach ho lekin thaa 'talkh' nahin thaa sahl ye lahja jivan bhar ki tapasyaa hai har jazbe ke ham zaamin the dard hamaaraa zaamin thaa"

"raftagaan ki sadaa nahin main huun ye tiraa vaahima nahin main huun tere maazi ke saath dafn kahin meraa ik vaaqi'a nahin main huun kyaa milaa intihaa-pasandi se kyaa main tere sivaa nahin main huun ek muddat mein jaa ke mujh pe khulaa chaand hasrat-zada nahin main huun us ne mujh ko muhaal jaan liyaa main ye kahtaa rahaa nahin main huun main hi 'ujlat mein aa gayaa thaa idhar ye zamaana nayaa nahin main huun meri vahshat se Dar gae shaayad yaar baad-e-fanaa nahin main huun main tire saath rah gayaa huun kahin vaqt Thahraa huaa nahin main huun gaahe gaahe sukhan zaruri hai saamne aaina nahin main huun sarsari kyuun guzartaa hai mujh se ye miraa maajraa nahin main huun us ne puchhaa kahaan gayaa vo shakhs kyaa bataataa ki thaa nahin main huun ye kise dekhtaa hai mujh se udhar tere aage khalaa nahin main huun"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"nahin piitaa main par navaazish hui hai baDi mausamon ki sifaarish hui hai bahut din se sahraa ke jaisaa ye dil hai na baadal ghire hain na baarish hui hai yahaan hai bulandi jo kirdaar ki to vahaan khaal-o-khad ki numaaish hui hai tiri jhiil jaisi jo dekhi hain aankhein miri Duub jaane ki khvaahish hui hai chhalaktaa nahin khuun zakhmon se aise kahin naakhunon ki bhi kaavish hui hai hamein 'ishq mein mubtalaa kar rahe hain nazar aur dil mein ye saazish hui hai vahaan dushmanon ki baDi yaad aai jahaan doston ki navaazish hui hai vafaa-daariyon kaa sila mil rahaa hai hamaari sadaa aazmaaish hui hai pareshaaniyon mein jo ham mubtalaa hain yaqinan koi ham se laghzish hui hai vahin apni aankhon ko ham chhoD aae jahaan manzaron ki numaaish hui hai raqibon ko hai chhuT mahfil mein un ki mire aane jaane pe bandish hui hai ghazal kahnaa 'faaruq' main chhoD dungaa isi baat par un se ranjish hui hai"

"jab se aayaa huun tere gaanv mein rang hi rang hain fazaaon mein aa ki dukh sukh ki koi baat karein baiTh kar shishamon ki chhaanv mein main bhi kartaa huun zabt ki koshish to bhi takhfif kar adaaon mein vo tiraa dafatan bichhaD jaanaa vo miraa dekhnaa khalaaon mein ho agar koi gosh-bar-aavaaz ik khamoshi bhi hai sadaaon mein yahi mere liye ghanimat hai saans le luun khuli fazaaon mein"

"bas ki ik lams ki ummid pe vaare hue hain so tire saamne ye khaak pasaare hue hain jaane kab un ko bujhaa baiThe koi baad-e-alam sar-e-mizhgaan-e-tamannaa jo sitaare hue hain zindagi tu bhi hamein vaise hi ik roz guzaar jis tarah ham tujhe barson se guzaare hue hain nit-nae naqsh karein us pe aziyyat ke raqam aa ki ham takhti-e-dil apni pachaare hue hain kab kuchal jaaein kisi paanv se ham barg-e-vajud vaqt ki dhuup mein vaise hi karaare hue hain jaante hain ki tu hi ishq-badan ko hai libaas ham tiraa ruup jo aashuftagi dhaare hue hain apni jurat ki sataaish ho ki ham chob-mizaaj rabt rakhte hain sadaa un se jo aare hue hain"

"phir bahaar aai hai phir josh mein saudaa hogaa zakhm-e-derinaa se phir khuun Tapaktaa hogaa biiti baaton ke vo naasur hare phir honge baat niklegi to phir baat ko rakhnaa hogaa yurishein kar ke umanD aaeingi suuni shaamein laakh bhaTkein kisi unvaan na saveraa hogaa ji ko samjhaaeinge matvaali havaa ke jhonke phir koi laakh sambhaale na sambhalnaa hogaa kaisi rut aai havaa chalti hai ji Doltaa hai ab to hansnaa bhi taDapne kaa bahaanaa hogaa TuuT jaaegaa ye laachaari-e-daaem kaa fusun aur is tarah ki jaise koi aataa hogaa dil dhaDakne ki sadaa aaegi sune-pan mein duur baadal kahin parbat pe garajtaa hogaa"