raft o aamad banaa rahaa huun main — Khaavar Jilani

"behtar ki gunjaaish baaqi rah jaati hai kami kahin poshida koi rah jaati hai man-chaahi tasvir banaane mein mujh se hunar-vari mein kuchh kotaahi rah jaati hai sailaab aa jaane par us basti ki saari pukhta-kaari kachchi rah jaati hai banne vaali baat vahi hoti hai vo jo bante bante yaksar banti rah jaati hai rah jaati hai aate aate aati saaat honi hote hote hoti rah jaati hai vaqt guzar jaataa hai lekin dil ki ranjish dil mein baiThi ki baiThi hi rah jaati hai chalte rah jaate hain roz o shab ke dhande gangaa ulTi sidhi bahti rah jaati hai phaank liye jaane ko khaak masaafat ki raahon par hi chhaani-phaTki rah jaati hai aa jaati hai birhaa aur dulhniyaan chhat par apne giile baal sukhaati rah jaati hai"

"chalte chalte raahon se kaT jaanaa paDtaa hai hote hote manzar se haT jaanaa paDtaa hai dekhnaa paD jaataa hai khud ko kar ke ek tamaashaai apni dhuul uDaa kar khud aT jaanaa paDtaa hai khattaati se duur bhaTakne vaale soch ke daaman ko kore kaaghaz ke haathon phaT jaanaa paDtaa hai saazina jab qadam baDhaataa hai us ki paazebon kaa kaanon ko jhankaar ki aahaT jaanaa paDtaa hai khvaahish mar jaae to us ki chitaa ko aag dikhaane mein dhaDkan dhaDkan dil ke marghaT jaanaa paDtaa hai taab nahin ho jis mein kaanch ko reza reza karne ki us patthar ko TukDon mein baT jaanaa paDtaa hai khud ke mutlaashi ko ek na ik din aakhir-kaar apne bhule-bisre hue ki chaukhaT jaanaa paDtaa hai sachchaai vo jang hai jis mein baaz auqaat sipaahi ko aap muqaabil apne hi DaT jaanaa paDtaa hai ik chingaari aag lagaa jaati hai ban mein aur kabhi ek kiran se zulmat ko chhaT jaanaa paDtaa hai baat riyaa-kaari ke bin ban paati nahin hai 'khaavar' is dozakh mein karvaT karvaT jaanaa paDtaa hai"

"naafe hai kuchh to vo kisi faizaan hi kaa hai varna taalluqaa miraa nuqsaan hi kaa hai kulfat hai sab ki sab ye tavaqqo ke naam ki jo bhi kiyaa dharaa hai ye imkaan hi kaa hai maal-o-manaal dast-gah-e-haadsaat kaa rahte hain gar bahaal to ausaan hi kaa hai manzar vo hai ki jo kabhi shashdar na kar sake hairat ye hai ki dida-e-hairaan hi kaa hai ilzaam khud huun main yahaan hasti ke naam par meraa vajud asl mein bohtaan hi kaa hai tafsil mein to simTaa huaa hi thaa inkisaar ijmaal bhi ye ijz ke unvaan hi kaa hai aakhir ayaan huaa ki maraasim ki zail mein asbaab-e-dil-shikastagi paimaan hi kaa hai jab tak ba-dosh rahtaa hai rahtaa huun gaamzan meraa safar haqiqatan saamaan hi kaa hai utre vo naav-e-shauq se ho Dubnaa jise saahil mizaaj-e-bahr kaa tufaan hi kaa hai aavaargaan ke vaaste kirdaar dasht kaa anjaam-kaar hita-e-zindaan hi kaa hai jaa-e-panaah us ki koi dusri nahin 'khaavar' kahin kaa hai to bayaabaan hi kaa hai"

"mufassal daastaanein mukhtasar kar ke dikhaaeinge tavaalat umr bhar ki jast bhar kar ke dikhaaeinge jo sapne dekh rakkhe hain jahaan-e-dida-e-vaa ne unhein taabir ke zer-e-asar kar ke dikhaaeinge ye vo nam-naakiyaan hain jo havaa deingi alaav ko ye vo aansu hain jo khud ko sharar kar ke dikhaaeinge bharosa rah gayaa kuchh khaak ko ham par agar to ham fanaa ke saamne jivan basar kar ke dikhaaeinge talaffuz par na ho mauquf jab kuchh to maaani ko kisi ke lafz kyaa zer-o-zabar kar ke dikhaaeinge ye baadal kyaa dikhaaeinge havaa ko mushtail ho kar ye patte peD ko kyaa dar-ba-dar kar ke dikhaaeinge ijaaza ho gayaa mojaz-bayaani kaa to ham tere isi tukhm-e-tahayyur ko shajar kar ke dikhaaeinge agar paataal ban jaaegaa us ki tah mein utreinge agar choTi banegaa us ko sar kar ke dikhaaeinge gumaan jo os ke qatron ki surat hain abhi 'khaavar' kisi din vo tumhein khud ko bhanvar kar ke dikhaaeinge"

"qadam qadam kaa 'ilaaqa hai naa-ravaa tak hai fusun-e-jaur-o-jafaa pesha jaa-ba-jaa tak hai gar ek baar kaa honaa alam ghanimat thaa sitam to ye hai ki dar-pesh baar-haa tak hai diye ki lau se nahin vaasta kisi kaa koi agar kisi kaa koi hai to phir havaa tak hai 'amal hai khud pe 'amal-daar taa dam-e-mauquf aur is kaa radd-e-'amal apne iltavaa tak hai sadaa-e-shor-o-shaghab hai idhar samaa'at tak shunid gird o javaanib idhar sadaa tak hai magar ye kaun bataae safar-e-navardon ko ki had dasht-e-junun un ke iktifaa tak hai ai be-qaraari-e-dil mujh ko ye khabar hi na thi ki jo qaraar ki sarhad hai ittiqaa tak hai khudaa se baad mein rakkhe hue hai duniyaa ko vo faasla jo hatheli se ik du'aa tak hai kahin pare ki hai haajat-ravaai se meri miraa savaal zarurat se maavaraa tak hai hai tu hi aankh miri ai jamaal-e-pesh-e-nazar so ye tamaasha miraa ik tiri razaa tak hai nahin hai koi bhi hatmi yahaan had-e-maalum har ek intihaa ik aur intihaa tak hai"

"'ataa ke zor-e-asar se bhi TuuT sakti thi vo shaakh baar-e-samar se bhi TuuT sakti thi main dil mein sach ki numu se thaa khauf khaayaa huaa ki siip taab-e-guhar se bhi TuuT sakti thi usi pe thaa mire har ek tiir kaa takiya kamaan jo khinch ke Dar se bhi TuuT sakti thi paDi thi aah ko hi khud-numaai ki varna khamoshi dida-e-tar se bhi TuuT sakti thi juDe hue the bahut vasvase khayaalon se so niind khvaab ke shar se bhi TuuT sakti thi dilon ki shishagari kaar-gaah-e-hasti mein hunar ke zer o zabar se bhi TuuT sakti thi ye aab vo thaa ki aatish bhaDak na paane ki rivaayat ek sharar se bhi TuuT sakti thi main ek aisaa kinaara thaa jis ki qurbat ko vo lahar apne bhanvar se bhi TuuT sakti thi har ek lashkari itraa rahaa thaa jis pe vo tegh khayaal-haa-e-zarar se bhi TuuT sakti thi zamin na hoti agar is kamaal ki haamil qayaamat aasmaan par se bhi TuuT sakti thi tu khush-nasib thaa varna tiri anaa ki fasil Kamala-e-sirf-e-nazar se bhi TuuT sakti thi"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"chaand bhi khoyaa khoyaa saa hai taare bhi khvaabida hain aaj fazaa ke bojhal-pan se lahje bhi sanjida hain jaane kin kin logon se is dard ke kyaa kyaa rishte the hijr ki is aabaad saraa mein sab chehre naadida hain itne barson baad bhi donon kaise TuuT ke milte hain tu hai kitnaa saada-dil aur ham kitne pechida hain sun jaanaan ham tark-e-taalluq aur kisi din kar leinge aaj tujhe bhi ujlat si hai ham bhi kuchh ranjida hain kaanon mein ik sargoshi hai be-maani si sargoshi aankhon mein kuchh khvaab saje hain khvaab bhi umr-rasida hain ghar ki vo makhdush imaarat gir ke phir taamir hui ab aangan mein peD hain jitne saare shaakh burida hain is basti mein ek saDak hai jis se ham ko nafrat hai us ke niche pagDanDi hai jis ke ham girvida hain"

"raftagaan ki sadaa nahin main huun ye tiraa vaahima nahin main huun tere maazi ke saath dafn kahin meraa ik vaaqi'a nahin main huun kyaa milaa intihaa-pasandi se kyaa main tere sivaa nahin main huun ek muddat mein jaa ke mujh pe khulaa chaand hasrat-zada nahin main huun us ne mujh ko muhaal jaan liyaa main ye kahtaa rahaa nahin main huun main hi 'ujlat mein aa gayaa thaa idhar ye zamaana nayaa nahin main huun meri vahshat se Dar gae shaayad yaar baad-e-fanaa nahin main huun main tire saath rah gayaa huun kahin vaqt Thahraa huaa nahin main huun gaahe gaahe sukhan zaruri hai saamne aaina nahin main huun sarsari kyuun guzartaa hai mujh se ye miraa maajraa nahin main huun us ne puchhaa kahaan gayaa vo shakhs kyaa bataataa ki thaa nahin main huun ye kise dekhtaa hai mujh se udhar tere aage khalaa nahin main huun"

"dast-kash hon na mai-e-gul ke khush-aashaam abhi ki labaalab hain mah-o-mehr ke do-jaam abhi zehn mein saaqi hai mai-khaana hai hai jaam abhi hosh kahtaa huun ise hosh kaa kyaa kaam abhi mujh ko darkaar na hai kufr na islaam abhi sidhe sidhe hi chale aate hain paighaam abhi tu bhi baaqi tiri rahmat bhi hai baaqi saaqi rahne de hai mai-e-isyaan se baDaa kaam abhi khaal-o-gesu se hai ye silsila-e-raaz-o-niyaaz daana sad-daana ho ye daam ho sad-daam abhi ziist ke khvaab ki taabir abhi baaqi hai ibtidaa dekh chuke hai magar anjaam abhi rah-rav-e-ishq abhi duur hai mearaaj-e-habib rashk-e-manzil na huaa raah mein har gaam abhi zarra-zarra hai ik aatish-kada-e-nur kalim dekh agar tu na ho aatish-zada-e-baam abhi imtiyaaz-e-man-o-tu raaz-e-khafi hai lekin khaasgaan ke liye kahtaa huun sar-e-aam abhi aks ko zo'm hai be-misli-e-rang-o-bu kaa turfa ye hai ki muqaabil hai vo gulfaam abhi raaz-goi tiri 'aiman' hai gunaah-e-akbar maang le afv ki us kaa hai karam aam abhi"

"baad-e-shimaal chalne lagi ang ang mein lipTaa hai kaun mujh se ye patjhaD ke rang mein khvaahish ke kaarobaar se bachnaa muhaal hai utregaa tu bhi saath mire is surang mein main aandhiyon mein haath bhi pakDun tiraa to kyaa ik shaakh-e-be-siper huun havaaon ki jang mein 'raanjhaa' main 'ahd-e-nau kaa qabilon mein baT gayaa to 'hir' ban ke pi na saki zahr jhang mein garmaa sakin na chaahatein teraa kaThor jism har ek jal ke bujh gai tasvir sang mein aage 'musavvir' aag 'aqab mein hai ye sadaa pichhe na muD ke dekhnaa is dasht-e-sang mein"

"tifli piiri o naujavaani hech tiin din ki hai zindagaani hech umr-e-do-roza par ghamanD itnaa munimon ki hai lan-taraani hech raat thoDi hai aao pyaar karein subh ko hogi ye kahaani hech chaar din ki bahaar hai saari ye takabbur hai yaar-e-jaani hech dil ke haathon 'haqir' jhagDon mein meri guzri sadaa javaani hech"