surkhi badan mein rang-e-vafaa ki thi kuchh dinon — Kishwar Naheed

"talaash dariyaa ki thi ba-zaahir saraab dekhaa vo kaun aankhein thiin jin ki khaatir ye khvaab dekhaa jo rut bhi aae hamin se girya kaa rizq maange hamaari surat kise zamin intikhaab dekhaa nadaamatein bahte aansuon se sharh na paaein safina apni duaa kaa maqtal rikaab dekhaa barasti aankhon se sukhe taalaab bhar na paaein ye gham kaa dariyaa misaal-e-qarz-e-sahaab dekhaa kabhi to aankhon mein un ki aabaadiyaan khileingi vo bastiyaan umr bhar jinhein zer-e-aab dekhaa abhi to bakhiya-gari ko sozan hi kaam aae hinaa ki dahliz pe tulu-e-hijaab dekhaa yaqin ki tishna-labi muqaddar raqam rahegi vufur-e-dariyaa bhi misl-e-dariyaa-e-khvaab dekhaa jataa gayaa saari aadatein bas gale se lag ke us ek anjum ko chaandni ke hisaab dekhaa khayaal us ke badan ki galiyon ko DhunDtaa hai vo jis ko dekhaa to hairaton ko naqaab dekhaa"

"main tasht-e-khvaab liye haath mein guzar gai huun samajh sakaa na vo jis ke liye main ghar gai huun bahut ajab thi samundar se guftugu lekin pahan ke pyaas palaTne kaa sabr kar gai huun miraa mizaaj rahaa dasht-aashnaa shab bhar ki din mein bastiyaan dekhin to jaise Dar gai huun husul-e-khvaahish-e-naayaab garche naa-mumkin kisi ke vaada-e-be-aab pe Thahar gai huun bahut nihaal hai dil aankh mein hai sarmasti lage ki shahar-e-khush-anjaam se guzar gai huun balaa se bhuul gae vo jo aashnaa the kabhi main aaj apne shabistaan mein be-khatar gai huun khushaa hatheli pe yaadon kaa qaafila Thahraa khushaa ki yaad thi aisi khushi se mar gai huun bahut aziiz thaa aashuftagi kaa pairaahan ye jaan kar dam-e-aazurdagi bikhar gai huun saraab-aasaa rahaa vo taalluq-e-khubaan palaT palaT ke bulaataa hai phir bhi Dar gai huun"

"apne lahu se naam likhaa ghair kaa bhi dekh zinda hai to shaqaavat-e-dasht-e-balaa bhi dekh aankhon ke aainon kaa to paani utar gayaa ab jism chob-e-khushk hai ye saaneha bhi dekh hoti hai zindagi ki haraarat ragon mein sard sukhe hue badan pe ye chamDaa kasaa bhi dekh betaabiyon ko siine ke andar sameT le fitne ko apni had se musalsal baDhaa bhi dekh har zarra ibraton ke samundar ki shakl hai sahraa-navard-e-shauq kabhi naqsh-e-paa bhi dekh pahchaan apni ho to mile manzil-e-muraad 'naahid' gaahe gaahe sahi aaina bhi dekh"

"kabhi to aa miri aankhon ki raushni ban kar zamin-e-khushk ko sairaab kar nami ban kar rachaa huaa hai tiri kam-nigaahiyon kaa karam nashe ki tarah mire dil mein sarkhushi ban kar kabhi to aa tapish-e-jaan-gusal hi dene ko kabhi guzar inhi raahon se ajnabi ban kar khushaa ki aur milaa gham kaa taaziyaana hamein khushaa vo dard jo chhaayaa hai naghmagi ban kar tumhein aziiz nahin hai to ho aziiz kise na mil sakegaa koi vajh-e-zindagi ban kar palaT ke dekh na us ko vo khaak kar degaa tire ghurur ko zahraab ki ani ban kar hui na us se vafaa tum se kyaa huaa 'naahid' abhi talak jiye jaati ho baaoli ban kar"

"bigDi baat banaanaa mushkil bigDi baat banaae kaun kunj-e-tamannaa viraana hai aa kar phuul khilaae kaun tan ki daulat man ki daulat sab khvaabon ki baatein hain nau man tel na ho to ghar mein raadhaa ko nachvaae kaun apnaa gham ab khud hi uThaa le varna rusvaai hogi teraa bhed chhupaa kar dil mein naahaq bojh uThaae kaun chalti gaaDi naam kaa rishta kyaa mohan kyaa raadhaa aaj ban ke sanvar ke raas rachaa ke mohan aaj manaae kaun saagar paar ki khabrein dekhe ham-saae kaa pataa nahin aaj kaa insaan aalam faazil us ko ab samjhaae kaun naa-ummidi naam-e-tamannaa apnaa muqaddar hijr-e-musalsal dard ke khaaristaan mein aa ke daaman-e-dil uljhaae kaun raat bhi kaali chaadar oDhe aa pahunchi hai ziine mein mehndi lagaae baiThi soche laT uljhi suljhaae kaun"

"ye dasht-e-faraamoshi Thaharne nahin detaa lekin dar-e-khvaahish ko bhi khulne nahin detaa ye rasm hai divaar-o-dar-e-girya ki lekin daryuza-gar-e-khvaab to rone nahin detaa aashob hai aisaa ki saraasima hai vahshat ye ijz-e-bayaan zakhm bhi dhone nahin detaa haan manzil-e-ummid bhi nazdik thi lekin gham-khaana-e-jaanaanaan bahalne nahin detaa aankhon mein vahi ranj-e-asiri hai musallat jo hashr bapaa honaa thaa hone nahin detaa be-naam rahi khvaahish-e-didaar hamesha shabnam ki tarah vo mujhe hansne nahin detaa aangan mein lahu dekh ke roti nahin aankhein ye dil to sulagtaa hai pa jalne nahin detaa"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"chaand bhi khoyaa khoyaa saa hai taare bhi khvaabida hain aaj fazaa ke bojhal-pan se lahje bhi sanjida hain jaane kin kin logon se is dard ke kyaa kyaa rishte the hijr ki is aabaad saraa mein sab chehre naadida hain itne barson baad bhi donon kaise TuuT ke milte hain tu hai kitnaa saada-dil aur ham kitne pechida hain sun jaanaan ham tark-e-taalluq aur kisi din kar leinge aaj tujhe bhi ujlat si hai ham bhi kuchh ranjida hain kaanon mein ik sargoshi hai be-maani si sargoshi aankhon mein kuchh khvaab saje hain khvaab bhi umr-rasida hain ghar ki vo makhdush imaarat gir ke phir taamir hui ab aangan mein peD hain jitne saare shaakh burida hain is basti mein ek saDak hai jis se ham ko nafrat hai us ke niche pagDanDi hai jis ke ham girvida hain"

"raftagaan ki sadaa nahin main huun ye tiraa vaahima nahin main huun tere maazi ke saath dafn kahin meraa ik vaaqi'a nahin main huun kyaa milaa intihaa-pasandi se kyaa main tere sivaa nahin main huun ek muddat mein jaa ke mujh pe khulaa chaand hasrat-zada nahin main huun us ne mujh ko muhaal jaan liyaa main ye kahtaa rahaa nahin main huun main hi 'ujlat mein aa gayaa thaa idhar ye zamaana nayaa nahin main huun meri vahshat se Dar gae shaayad yaar baad-e-fanaa nahin main huun main tire saath rah gayaa huun kahin vaqt Thahraa huaa nahin main huun gaahe gaahe sukhan zaruri hai saamne aaina nahin main huun sarsari kyuun guzartaa hai mujh se ye miraa maajraa nahin main huun us ne puchhaa kahaan gayaa vo shakhs kyaa bataataa ki thaa nahin main huun ye kise dekhtaa hai mujh se udhar tere aage khalaa nahin main huun"

"dast-kash hon na mai-e-gul ke khush-aashaam abhi ki labaalab hain mah-o-mehr ke do-jaam abhi zehn mein saaqi hai mai-khaana hai hai jaam abhi hosh kahtaa huun ise hosh kaa kyaa kaam abhi mujh ko darkaar na hai kufr na islaam abhi sidhe sidhe hi chale aate hain paighaam abhi tu bhi baaqi tiri rahmat bhi hai baaqi saaqi rahne de hai mai-e-isyaan se baDaa kaam abhi khaal-o-gesu se hai ye silsila-e-raaz-o-niyaaz daana sad-daana ho ye daam ho sad-daam abhi ziist ke khvaab ki taabir abhi baaqi hai ibtidaa dekh chuke hai magar anjaam abhi rah-rav-e-ishq abhi duur hai mearaaj-e-habib rashk-e-manzil na huaa raah mein har gaam abhi zarra-zarra hai ik aatish-kada-e-nur kalim dekh agar tu na ho aatish-zada-e-baam abhi imtiyaaz-e-man-o-tu raaz-e-khafi hai lekin khaasgaan ke liye kahtaa huun sar-e-aam abhi aks ko zo'm hai be-misli-e-rang-o-bu kaa turfa ye hai ki muqaabil hai vo gulfaam abhi raaz-goi tiri 'aiman' hai gunaah-e-akbar maang le afv ki us kaa hai karam aam abhi"

"baad-e-shimaal chalne lagi ang ang mein lipTaa hai kaun mujh se ye patjhaD ke rang mein khvaahish ke kaarobaar se bachnaa muhaal hai utregaa tu bhi saath mire is surang mein main aandhiyon mein haath bhi pakDun tiraa to kyaa ik shaakh-e-be-siper huun havaaon ki jang mein 'raanjhaa' main 'ahd-e-nau kaa qabilon mein baT gayaa to 'hir' ban ke pi na saki zahr jhang mein garmaa sakin na chaahatein teraa kaThor jism har ek jal ke bujh gai tasvir sang mein aage 'musavvir' aag 'aqab mein hai ye sadaa pichhe na muD ke dekhnaa is dasht-e-sang mein"

"tifli piiri o naujavaani hech tiin din ki hai zindagaani hech umr-e-do-roza par ghamanD itnaa munimon ki hai lan-taraani hech raat thoDi hai aao pyaar karein subh ko hogi ye kahaani hech chaar din ki bahaar hai saari ye takabbur hai yaar-e-jaani hech dil ke haathon 'haqir' jhagDon mein meri guzri sadaa javaani hech"