zehn aur dil mein jang jaari thi — Alka Mishra

"zamin pe aane se saanson ke ruuTh jaane tak ye ik safar hai musalsal qazaa ke shaane tak jo kaaenaat pe haq apnaa maan baiThe the unhein bhi aanaa paDaa aakhiri Thikaane tak zamin pe dil ki mohabbat javaan hoti rahi vafaa ki dhuup pe baadal jafaa ke chhaane tak phir us ke baad huaa kyaa mujhe nahin maalum main hosh mein rahi but ko khudaa banaane tak sunaa hai aap inaayat sabhi pe karte hain kabhi to aaein hamaare gharib-khaane tak nahin hai umr koi tai kisi bhi rishte ki rahegaa saath koi sirf aazmaane tak"

"khvaabon ki baat aankhon se Taali nahin gai ik shab bhi meri khaam-khayaali nahin gai us kaa hi saath mujh ko mayassar nahin huaa yuun to miri duaa kabhi khaali nahin gai mujh se bichhaD ke vo bhi akelaa rahaa magar chhoTi si baat dil se nikaali nahin gai saath apne meri niind bhi le kar chalaa gayaa jab se gayaa vo aankh ki laali nahin gai us ne bhi saaf-goi se daaman chhuDaa liyaa khush-fahmi apne dil se bhi paali nahin gai yuun us ki aadaton mein taghaaful shumaar thaa rishton ki baag-Dor sambhaali nahin gai 'alkaa' vo jis ne phunk diyaa meraa aashiyaan yaadon se umr-bhar vo divaali nahin gai"

"ho jaaeinge jis roz sabhi kaam mukammal aa jaaegaa is ruuh ko aaraam mukammal dil mein hai magar us se kabhi kah nahin paae aane se tire hoti hai ye shaam mukammal baaton mein mahaarat jise haasil nahin hoti aksar vahi ho jaataa hai naakaam mukammal kuchh kaam to ho jaate hain is khauf se aksar ho jaaein na ham bhi kahin gumnaam mukammal aa jaataa bulaane se yaqin mujh ko hai lekin us tak kabhi pahunche nahin paighaam mukammal ye ziist miri ziist hi rahti bhi kahaan phir ruk jaati agar gardish-e-ayyaam mukammal"

"safar hai dhuup kaa is mein qayaam thoDi hai balaa hai ishq ye bachchon kaa kaam thoDi hai kisi ko vasl hai bojhal koi firaaq mein khush dilon ke khel mein koi nizaam thoDi hai hamaare dil mein dhaDaktaa hai naam us kaa abhi hai ye shuru-e-mohabbat tamaam thoDi hai jo ahl-e-ishq hain manzil kaa gham nahin karte ye khaas logon kaa rasta hai aam thoDi hai ham apne man ki kareinge buraa lage ki bhalaa hamaaraa dil hai tumhaaraa ghulaam thoDi hai tumhaari yaad jo aai to aa gae milne vagarna tum se hamein koi kaam thoDi hai baDhaa jo dard to kaaghaz pe khud utar aayaa samajh ke soch ke likkhaa kalaam thoDi hai"

"lau mire dil ne zaraa us se lagaai hi nahin main ne chaahat ki kabhi jot jagaai hi nahin raushni ruuh tak aai hai to aai kaise jab ki us tak to miri koi rasaai hi nahin apni rau mein huun bahe jaati huun naddi ki tarah pattharon ko main kabhi dhyaan mein laai hi nahin kaise ban jaate hain sab kaam ye bigDe mere ek neki to abhi main ne kamaai hi nahin khud-ba-khud jhuk gaiin dar par tire nazrein meri ye nigah main ne kahin aur jhukaai hi nahin kaise chup-chaap chale aate hain nindon mein miri main ne khvaabon ko to aavaaz lagaai hi nahin us ki ummid abhi se main lagaa luun kaise apni hasti to abhi main ne miTaai hi nahin"

"havaaon mein dilon kaa kaarvaan hai muqaddas ishq jab se mehrbaan hai mire dil ko sukun aayaa yahin par baDaa makhsus teraa aastaan hai vo mujh se duur jaaegaa bhi kaise jo meri ruuh ke andar nihaan hai mohabbat ke safar par jaao lekin vahaan har moD par ik imtihaan hai mire dil par usi ki hai hukumat lakiron mein miri jis kaa nishaan hai chhupaa sakti nahin us se main kuchh bhi miraa har raaz to us par ayaan hai firaaq-o-vasl ki had se nikal kar ajab se moD par ab daastaan hai milein hain chand lamhe khul ke ji lein vagarna zindagi to raaegaan hai"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"chaand bhi khoyaa khoyaa saa hai taare bhi khvaabida hain aaj fazaa ke bojhal-pan se lahje bhi sanjida hain jaane kin kin logon se is dard ke kyaa kyaa rishte the hijr ki is aabaad saraa mein sab chehre naadida hain itne barson baad bhi donon kaise TuuT ke milte hain tu hai kitnaa saada-dil aur ham kitne pechida hain sun jaanaan ham tark-e-taalluq aur kisi din kar leinge aaj tujhe bhi ujlat si hai ham bhi kuchh ranjida hain kaanon mein ik sargoshi hai be-maani si sargoshi aankhon mein kuchh khvaab saje hain khvaab bhi umr-rasida hain ghar ki vo makhdush imaarat gir ke phir taamir hui ab aangan mein peD hain jitne saare shaakh burida hain is basti mein ek saDak hai jis se ham ko nafrat hai us ke niche pagDanDi hai jis ke ham girvida hain"

"raftagaan ki sadaa nahin main huun ye tiraa vaahima nahin main huun tere maazi ke saath dafn kahin meraa ik vaaqi'a nahin main huun kyaa milaa intihaa-pasandi se kyaa main tere sivaa nahin main huun ek muddat mein jaa ke mujh pe khulaa chaand hasrat-zada nahin main huun us ne mujh ko muhaal jaan liyaa main ye kahtaa rahaa nahin main huun main hi 'ujlat mein aa gayaa thaa idhar ye zamaana nayaa nahin main huun meri vahshat se Dar gae shaayad yaar baad-e-fanaa nahin main huun main tire saath rah gayaa huun kahin vaqt Thahraa huaa nahin main huun gaahe gaahe sukhan zaruri hai saamne aaina nahin main huun sarsari kyuun guzartaa hai mujh se ye miraa maajraa nahin main huun us ne puchhaa kahaan gayaa vo shakhs kyaa bataataa ki thaa nahin main huun ye kise dekhtaa hai mujh se udhar tere aage khalaa nahin main huun"

"dast-kash hon na mai-e-gul ke khush-aashaam abhi ki labaalab hain mah-o-mehr ke do-jaam abhi zehn mein saaqi hai mai-khaana hai hai jaam abhi hosh kahtaa huun ise hosh kaa kyaa kaam abhi mujh ko darkaar na hai kufr na islaam abhi sidhe sidhe hi chale aate hain paighaam abhi tu bhi baaqi tiri rahmat bhi hai baaqi saaqi rahne de hai mai-e-isyaan se baDaa kaam abhi khaal-o-gesu se hai ye silsila-e-raaz-o-niyaaz daana sad-daana ho ye daam ho sad-daam abhi ziist ke khvaab ki taabir abhi baaqi hai ibtidaa dekh chuke hai magar anjaam abhi rah-rav-e-ishq abhi duur hai mearaaj-e-habib rashk-e-manzil na huaa raah mein har gaam abhi zarra-zarra hai ik aatish-kada-e-nur kalim dekh agar tu na ho aatish-zada-e-baam abhi imtiyaaz-e-man-o-tu raaz-e-khafi hai lekin khaasgaan ke liye kahtaa huun sar-e-aam abhi aks ko zo'm hai be-misli-e-rang-o-bu kaa turfa ye hai ki muqaabil hai vo gulfaam abhi raaz-goi tiri 'aiman' hai gunaah-e-akbar maang le afv ki us kaa hai karam aam abhi"

"baad-e-shimaal chalne lagi ang ang mein lipTaa hai kaun mujh se ye patjhaD ke rang mein khvaahish ke kaarobaar se bachnaa muhaal hai utregaa tu bhi saath mire is surang mein main aandhiyon mein haath bhi pakDun tiraa to kyaa ik shaakh-e-be-siper huun havaaon ki jang mein 'raanjhaa' main 'ahd-e-nau kaa qabilon mein baT gayaa to 'hir' ban ke pi na saki zahr jhang mein garmaa sakin na chaahatein teraa kaThor jism har ek jal ke bujh gai tasvir sang mein aage 'musavvir' aag 'aqab mein hai ye sadaa pichhe na muD ke dekhnaa is dasht-e-sang mein"

"tifli piiri o naujavaani hech tiin din ki hai zindagaani hech umr-e-do-roza par ghamanD itnaa munimon ki hai lan-taraani hech raat thoDi hai aao pyaar karein subh ko hogi ye kahaani hech chaar din ki bahaar hai saari ye takabbur hai yaar-e-jaani hech dil ke haathon 'haqir' jhagDon mein meri guzri sadaa javaani hech"