aankh be-khvaab hui hai kaisi — Asif Jamal

"dil hai ki hamein phir se udhar le ke chalaa hai ummid se phir rishta-e-jaan baandh liyaa hai aahaT pe na chaunko ki na aaegi yahaan maut dastak pe na jaao ki ye aavaara huaa hai ab sang mudaavaa nahin aashufta-sari kaa yaan sang se bhi phoD ke sar dekh liyaa hai kyaa kijiye har kaavish-e-darmaan hui mahdud har jaada-e-imkaan hai ki masdud huaa hai zinda hain bahar-taur ki marnaa nahin bas mein taa-umr hamaare liye jiine ki sazaa hai ai dil kabhi patthar bhi kahin mom hue hain jo khvaab mein dekhaa hai kahin sach bhi huaa hai"

"ek sard jang hai ab mohabbatein kahaan TuTte hue tilism phailtaa huaa dhuaan vo bhi apne husn se be-khayaal ho chalaa aur khvaab ban gaiin meri sar-giraaniyaan qais ki mohabbatein kohkan ki chaahatin aur ye rivaayatein bhulti kahaaniyaan ham se pahle aur bhi kar gae vafaa bahut khaak mein milaa chale ham bhi zindagaaniyaan apne silsile se bhi kyaa khayaal aae hain jaan ki qadr kuchh nahin dil-ba-dast dil-baraan"

"magar nahin thaa faqat 'mir' khvaar main bhi thaa ki ahl-e-dard mein aashufta-kaar main bhi thaa sabaa ki tarah use bhi na thaa sabaat kahin na jaane kyaa thaa bahut be-qaraar main bhi thaa panaah leni paDi thi mujhe bhi saae mein rahin-e-minnat-e-divaar-e-yaar main bhi thaa hazaar apni tabiat pe jabr kartaa thaa main sabr kartaa thaa be-ikhtiyaar main bhi thaa ye kis ne dekhaa ki mujh be-navaa ke daaman mein mohabbatein thiin bahut saaya-daar main bhi thaa"

"bhule hue hain sab ki hai kaar-e-jahaan bahut lekin vo ek yaad hai dil par garaan bahut kuchh raftagaan ke gham ne bhi rakkhaa hamein niDhaal kuchh sadma-haa-e-nau se rahe nim-jaan bahut ham ko na zulf-e-yaar na divaar se gharaz ham ko to yaad-e-yaar ki parchhaaiyaan bahut vo sard-mehriyaan ki hamein raakh kar gaiin sunte hain pahle ham bhi the aatish-ba-jaan bahut ik mauj-e-fitna-sar ki ravaan har nafas mein hai har dam yaqin se pahle uThe hain gumaan bahut ab ke junun mein mauj-e-sabaa kaa bhi haath hai mauj-e-sabaa ki ab ke uThi sargiraan bahut ab ye khabar nahin vo samundar hai yaa saraab apne yahaan hai tishnagi-e-jism-o-jaan bahut sahraa se varna apnaa ilaaqa nahin hai kuchh aashuftagi-e-sar ki havaa hai yahaan bahut"

"vo be-hunar huun ki hai zindagi vabaal mujhe kamaal gar nahin detaa to de zavaal mujhe vo bad-gumaan huaa huun ki e'tibaar uThaa sadaaqaton pe bhi kyaa kyaa hain ehtimaal mujhe main apne aap ko pahchaanne se Dartaa huun tabaah kar gai ye gard-e-maah-o-saal mujhe ghazab huaa tiri yaadon ne saath chhoD diyaa hanuz meri mohabbat hai ik savaal mujhe ye kyaa huaa ki havas ki giraft tang hui main tujh se haath chhuDaane ko huun sambhaal mujhe vo faasle hain ki aankhon mein khvaab naachte hain mili firaaq mein bhi lazzat-e-visaal mujhe vo bevafaa hai to is kaa bhi gham bahut hai magar main baa-vafaa huun to is kaa bhi hai malaal mujhe"

"sahraa se bhi viraan miraa ghar hai ki nahin hai is tarah se jiinaa bhi hunar hai ki nahin hai ye duniyaa basaai hai jo ik be-khabari ki is mein kahin yaadon kaa guzar hai ki nahin hai hai jism ke zindaan mein vahi ruuh ki fariyaad is karb-e-musalsal se mafar hai ki nahin hai divaar ke saae ne tumhein rok liyaa thaa ab himmat-e-imaa-e-safar hai ki nahin hai jis ke liye be-khvaab rahaa karti hain aankhein vo aankh bhi aashufta magar hai ki nahin hai ham shola-e-jaan tez havaaon se bachaa kar zinda hain magar us ko khabar hai ki nahin hai ab kaun rahaa hai jo hamein itni khabar de jo haal idhar hai vo udhar hai ki nahin hai"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"Tuut kar ab sanvar gayaa huun main is tarah se bikhar gayaa huun main jo tire naam ki gali hai vo us gali se guzar gayaa huun main yaadein teri sameT laayaa huun aaj jab se udhar gayaa huun main khud mukarnaa sikhaa diyaa us ne phir kahaa ki mukar gayaa huun main kal talak jo na kar sakaa thaa main aaj vo kaam kar gayaa huun main yuun kahin main nahin Thahartaa par tere dar par Thahar gayaa huun main"

"bistar-e-karb pe jab niind jalaai main ne tab kisi khvaab ki buniyaad uThaai main ne zakhm aise the ki har shakhs ke aage rakkhe baat aisi thi ki khud se bhi chhupaai main ne hurmat-e-gham ke liye khud ko aziyyat bakhshi phir usi dard se taskin bhi paai main ne main ne zakhmon ko kuredaa unhein taaza rakkhaa tab kahin dasht mein ki naghma-saraai main ne apni khiDki se yunhi khud ko pukaaraa kal shab aur phir khud ko vo aavaaz sunaai main ne jaane vaale se rag-e-jaan kaa bhi rishta thaa 'samir' ye samajhne mein bahut der lagaai main ne"

"zindagi dushvaar hogi ye kabhi sochaa na thaa vo bagule gham ke uTThe jin kaa andesha na thaa saamne tum aa gae ho to bataa duun jaan-e-jaan jaise dil dhaDkaa thaa ab ki vaise dil dhaDkaa na thaa ye iraada kar liyaa thaa ham na bichhDeinge kabhi TuTeinge ik pal mein rishte ye kabhi sochaa na thaa yaad-e-maazi miT rahi hai vaqt ki raftaar se ab tasavvur mein hamaare koi bhi chehra na thaa sakht hairat ho rahi hai dekh kar apnaa vajud dhuup mein the sab ke saaye par miraa saayaa na thaa shauq-e-manzil dekh meri dekh meraa hausla shahr-e-dil ke raaston mein main kabhi Thahraa na thaa 'qalb' ko sahraa-navardi raas kyaa aati bhalaa vo kabhi aavaargi mein dar-ba-dar bhaTkaa na thaa"

"jahaan-e-dard-o-gham hai aur main huun tiraa naqsh-e-qadam hai aur main huun kisi ki aankh nam hai aur main huun vufur-e-shauq kam hai aur main huun mujhe hai daulat-e-kaunain haasil mire rab kaa karam hai aur main huun main apne aap ko pahchaantaa huun miraa apnaa bharam hai aur main huun yahi kyaa kam hai duniyaa-e-vafaa mein mujhe ehsaas-e-gham hai aur main huun kisi ki yaad kaa ehsaan hai mujh par sukun-e-dil baham hai aur main huun mujhe 'mahmud' koi Dar nahin hai miraa apnaa qalam hai aur main huun"