dil ne chaahaa thaa ki ho aabla-paai rukhsat — Kishwar Naheed

"talaash dariyaa ki thi ba-zaahir saraab dekhaa vo kaun aankhein thiin jin ki khaatir ye khvaab dekhaa jo rut bhi aae hamin se girya kaa rizq maange hamaari surat kise zamin intikhaab dekhaa nadaamatein bahte aansuon se sharh na paaein safina apni duaa kaa maqtal rikaab dekhaa barasti aankhon se sukhe taalaab bhar na paaein ye gham kaa dariyaa misaal-e-qarz-e-sahaab dekhaa kabhi to aankhon mein un ki aabaadiyaan khileingi vo bastiyaan umr bhar jinhein zer-e-aab dekhaa abhi to bakhiya-gari ko sozan hi kaam aae hinaa ki dahliz pe tulu-e-hijaab dekhaa yaqin ki tishna-labi muqaddar raqam rahegi vufur-e-dariyaa bhi misl-e-dariyaa-e-khvaab dekhaa jataa gayaa saari aadatein bas gale se lag ke us ek anjum ko chaandni ke hisaab dekhaa khayaal us ke badan ki galiyon ko DhunDtaa hai vo jis ko dekhaa to hairaton ko naqaab dekhaa"

"main tasht-e-khvaab liye haath mein guzar gai huun samajh sakaa na vo jis ke liye main ghar gai huun bahut ajab thi samundar se guftugu lekin pahan ke pyaas palaTne kaa sabr kar gai huun miraa mizaaj rahaa dasht-aashnaa shab bhar ki din mein bastiyaan dekhin to jaise Dar gai huun husul-e-khvaahish-e-naayaab garche naa-mumkin kisi ke vaada-e-be-aab pe Thahar gai huun bahut nihaal hai dil aankh mein hai sarmasti lage ki shahar-e-khush-anjaam se guzar gai huun balaa se bhuul gae vo jo aashnaa the kabhi main aaj apne shabistaan mein be-khatar gai huun khushaa hatheli pe yaadon kaa qaafila Thahraa khushaa ki yaad thi aisi khushi se mar gai huun bahut aziiz thaa aashuftagi kaa pairaahan ye jaan kar dam-e-aazurdagi bikhar gai huun saraab-aasaa rahaa vo taalluq-e-khubaan palaT palaT ke bulaataa hai phir bhi Dar gai huun"

"apne lahu se naam likhaa ghair kaa bhi dekh zinda hai to shaqaavat-e-dasht-e-balaa bhi dekh aankhon ke aainon kaa to paani utar gayaa ab jism chob-e-khushk hai ye saaneha bhi dekh hoti hai zindagi ki haraarat ragon mein sard sukhe hue badan pe ye chamDaa kasaa bhi dekh betaabiyon ko siine ke andar sameT le fitne ko apni had se musalsal baDhaa bhi dekh har zarra ibraton ke samundar ki shakl hai sahraa-navard-e-shauq kabhi naqsh-e-paa bhi dekh pahchaan apni ho to mile manzil-e-muraad 'naahid' gaahe gaahe sahi aaina bhi dekh"

"kabhi to aa miri aankhon ki raushni ban kar zamin-e-khushk ko sairaab kar nami ban kar rachaa huaa hai tiri kam-nigaahiyon kaa karam nashe ki tarah mire dil mein sarkhushi ban kar kabhi to aa tapish-e-jaan-gusal hi dene ko kabhi guzar inhi raahon se ajnabi ban kar khushaa ki aur milaa gham kaa taaziyaana hamein khushaa vo dard jo chhaayaa hai naghmagi ban kar tumhein aziiz nahin hai to ho aziiz kise na mil sakegaa koi vajh-e-zindagi ban kar palaT ke dekh na us ko vo khaak kar degaa tire ghurur ko zahraab ki ani ban kar hui na us se vafaa tum se kyaa huaa 'naahid' abhi talak jiye jaati ho baaoli ban kar"

"bigDi baat banaanaa mushkil bigDi baat banaae kaun kunj-e-tamannaa viraana hai aa kar phuul khilaae kaun tan ki daulat man ki daulat sab khvaabon ki baatein hain nau man tel na ho to ghar mein raadhaa ko nachvaae kaun apnaa gham ab khud hi uThaa le varna rusvaai hogi teraa bhed chhupaa kar dil mein naahaq bojh uThaae kaun chalti gaaDi naam kaa rishta kyaa mohan kyaa raadhaa aaj ban ke sanvar ke raas rachaa ke mohan aaj manaae kaun saagar paar ki khabrein dekhe ham-saae kaa pataa nahin aaj kaa insaan aalam faazil us ko ab samjhaae kaun naa-ummidi naam-e-tamannaa apnaa muqaddar hijr-e-musalsal dard ke khaaristaan mein aa ke daaman-e-dil uljhaae kaun raat bhi kaali chaadar oDhe aa pahunchi hai ziine mein mehndi lagaae baiThi soche laT uljhi suljhaae kaun"

"ye dasht-e-faraamoshi Thaharne nahin detaa lekin dar-e-khvaahish ko bhi khulne nahin detaa ye rasm hai divaar-o-dar-e-girya ki lekin daryuza-gar-e-khvaab to rone nahin detaa aashob hai aisaa ki saraasima hai vahshat ye ijz-e-bayaan zakhm bhi dhone nahin detaa haan manzil-e-ummid bhi nazdik thi lekin gham-khaana-e-jaanaanaan bahalne nahin detaa aankhon mein vahi ranj-e-asiri hai musallat jo hashr bapaa honaa thaa hone nahin detaa be-naam rahi khvaahish-e-didaar hamesha shabnam ki tarah vo mujhe hansne nahin detaa aangan mein lahu dekh ke roti nahin aankhein ye dil to sulagtaa hai pa jalne nahin detaa"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"jis din se meraa khvaab suhaanaa badal gayaa us din se zindagi kaa fasaana badal gayaa sunne lagaa huun jab se nasihat baDon ki main jaari thaa jo labon pe taraana badal gayaa pahchaan kaa havaala bhi baaqi nahin rahaa chehre ke saath aaina-khaana badal gayaa uThti nahin hai aankh bhi ab aasmaan ki samt jab se gali kaa chaand puraanaa badal gayaa tahzib jin ke ghar ki 'alaamat thi kal talak afsos aaj un kaa gharaanaa badal gayaa 'azmat kaa taaj sar pe hai 'akhilesh' ke sajaa aisi havaa chali ki zamaana badal gayaa itni sharaafaton mein kami aa gai hai aaj pahle thaa jo libaas puraanaa badal gayaa ahl-e-vafaa ne jis ki thi taarikh ki raqam 'faaruq' 'ishq kaa vo fasaana badal gayaa"

"tirgi shama bani raahguzar mein aai saaat ik aisi bhi kal apne safar mein aai jis jagah chehra hi meyaar-e-vafaa Thahraa hai khaak hi khaak vahaan dast-e-hunar mein aai teri nazron mein thi duniyaa to yahi kyaa kam thaa hashr ye hai ki tu duniyaa ki nazar mein aai baar-haa yaaron ne saahil se kahaa thaa ham hain baar-haa naav magar apni bhanvar mein aai zindagi samjhun ise yaa ki ise maut kahun vo jo mehmaan ki surat mire ghar mein aai yuun bhi taarikh ki taarikh raqam hoti hai nikli taarikh mahal se to khanDar mein aai khvaab hi khvaab ki taabir huaa to jaanaa zindagi kyuun kisi aankhon ke asar mein aai shama jalte hi bujhi aur dhuaan aisaa uThaa lazzat-e-shaam yahaan khvaab-e-sahar mein aai zindagi kuchh hai 'ataa' sher-o-adab hai kuchh aur ye do-rangi ki vabaa kaisi hunar mein aai"

"khaamushi ke batn se ye guftani paidaa hui main ba-zaahir chup huaa aur shaaeri paidaa hui is tarah saabit huaa gham aur khushi kaa imtizaaj hanste hanste us ki aankhon mein nami paidaa hui jurm ki paadaash mein ham khaak par pheinke gae so yahaan par intiqaaman zindagi paidaa hui khauf ne hi maslahat ki raah bhi ijaad ki main andheron se Daraa aur raushni paidaa hui dil mein kab utri kisi ke be-maaani guftugu baat karne se to bas aavaaz hi paidaa hui"

"zindagi bojhal hui aazaar se jism jhuktaa jaa rahaa hai baar se doston ne is qadar dhoke diye aur raghbat baDh gai aghyaar se zindagi kaa ik nayaa imkaan huaa ik daricha khul gayaa divaar se ab bayaan kaise karun rudaad-e-gham kaam mushkil hai dil-e-naa-chaar se hijr ki raaton mein bahtaa hi rahaa ek naala chashm-e-dariyaa-baar se misl-e-majnun regzaaron mein rahe sar paTakte ret ki divaar se ham asiraan-e-mohabbat hain yahaan uljhe hain ab gesu-e-khamdaar se 'qalb' teri ghazlein yuun shaadaan karein dard nikle hai tire ashaar se"

"zindagi dushvaar hogi ye kabhi sochaa na thaa vo bagule gham ke uTThe jin kaa andesha na thaa saamne tum aa gae ho to bataa duun jaan-e-jaan jaise dil dhaDkaa thaa ab ki vaise dil dhaDkaa na thaa ye iraada kar liyaa thaa ham na bichhDeinge kabhi TuTeinge ik pal mein rishte ye kabhi sochaa na thaa yaad-e-maazi miT rahi hai vaqt ki raftaar se ab tasavvur mein hamaare koi bhi chehra na thaa sakht hairat ho rahi hai dekh kar apnaa vajud dhuup mein the sab ke saaye par miraa saayaa na thaa shauq-e-manzil dekh meri dekh meraa hausla shahr-e-dil ke raaston mein main kabhi Thahraa na thaa 'qalb' ko sahraa-navardi raas kyaa aati bhalaa vo kabhi aavaargi mein dar-ba-dar bhaTkaa na thaa"