har qarz-e-safar chukaa diyaa hai — Jamal Ehsani

"vo log mere bahut pyaar karne vaale the guzar gae hain jo mausam guzarne vaale the nai ruton mein dukhon ke bhi silsile hain nae vo zakhm taaza hue hain jo bharne vaale the ye kis maqaam pe sujhi tujhe bichhaDne ki ki ab to jaa ke kahin din sanvarne vaale the hazaar mujh se vo paimaan-e-vasl kartaa rahaa par us ke taur-tariqe mukarne vaale the tumhein to fakhr thaa shiraaza-bandi-e-jaan par hamaaraa kyaa hai ki ham to bikharne vaale the tamaam raat nahaayaa thaa shahr baarish mein vo rang utar hi gae jo utarne vaale the us ek chhoTe se qasbe pe rail Thahri nahin vahaan bhi chand musaafir utarne vaale the"

"mujh ko vo bhi basaa-ghanimat thaa us se jo rishta-e-shikaayat thaa ab ye 'uqda khulaa ki us ke liye main mohabbat nahin zarurat thaa tu ne ehsaas hi na hone diyaa jo bhi kuchh thaa tiri badaulat thaa mujh pe us chashm-e-tar ne sahl kiyaa varna ye 'ishq to musibat thaa main ne vo hijr bhi guzaara hai jab tiraa qurb bhi nihaayat thaa"

"nashe ki lahr taari ho rahi hai miri aavaaz bhaari ho rahi hai raqibon par 'inaayat barsar-e-bazm bahut khaatir hamaari ho rahi hai sabhi mere maraz ko koste hain ye kyaa timaar-daari ho rahi hai chaman kaa raasta mat gher ke baiTh khafaa baad-e-bahaari ho rahi hai sab apne apne ghar mein mutmain hain mujhe kyon be-qaraari ho rahi hai gali ke ek ghar mein 'iid ke roz ye kaisi aah-o-zaari ho rahi hai sunaa hai us gali se 'aashiqon ki nai fehrist jaari ho rahi hai jo aae puchhtaa hai 'umr meri 'ajab timaardaari ho rahi hai mire pahlu mein vo hai aur mujh par 'ajab vahshat si taari ho rahi hai"

"muddaton baa'd shab-e-maah use dekhaa thaa par kisi aur ke hamraah use dekhaa thaa kyaa khabar thi ki kahaani koi ban jaaegi main ne kal bazm mein naagaah use dekhaa thaa vasl ki raat sitaaron ne baDi hasrat se gaah dekhaa thaa mujhe gaah use dekhaa thaa log use DhunDhne nikle to ye maa'lum huaa jis ne dekhaa thaa sar-e-raah use dekhaa thaa aaj ik 'umr ke baa'd us se milaa thaa lekin apne ahvaal se aagaah use dekhaa thaa us kaa kyaa Thiik ki logon ne ba-yak-vaqt 'jamaal' sar-e-mai-khaana-o-dargaah use dekhaa thaa"

"raat aati rahti hai din nikaltaa rahtaa hai aur khudaa ke bandon kaa kaam chaltaa rahtaa hai phir rahaa huun basti mein ye pata liye kab se ik charaagh us ghar mein din ko jaltaa rahtaa hai ek ghar hai main jis mein rahtaa huun khush-o-khurram ek baat hai jis se dil dahaltaa rahtaa hai main bhi aasmaanon mein roz izaafa kartaa huun vo bhi in zaminon kaa rukh badaltaa rahtaa hai ziist ki tamaazat mein shaakh-e-marg se aage raah-rau Thahartaa hai rasta chaltaa rahtaa hai 'ishq karne vaalon ko sirf ye suhulat hai kuchh na karne se bhi kuchh dil bahaltaa rahtaa hai main bisaat-e-duniyaa ko jab lapeT detaa huun koi dusraa mujh mein ghar badaltaa rahtaa hai"

"is samay koi nahin meri nigahbaani par ye ghaDi sakht kaDi hai tire zindaani par baa-khabar kar ke rah-e-ishq ki mushkil se tujhe faisla chhoD diyaa hai tiri aasaani par na havaa aur na miTTi pe kabhi ho paayaa jo bharosaa hai mujhe bahte hue paani par main abhi pahle khasaare se nahin niklaa huun phir bhi tayyaar hai dil dusri naadaani par kisi bhi vaqt badal saktaa hai lamha koi is qadar khush bhi na ho meri pareshaani par khatm hone ko hain ashkon ke zakhire bhi 'jamaal' roe kab tak koi is shahr ki viraani par"

"aakhiri hal thaa yahi pesh-e-nazar jaane diyaa ek gahri saans li phir khvaab mar jaane diyaa saarbaanaa de gavaahi mujh ko pyaari thi anaa rakh liyaa zaad-e-safar aur ham-safar jaane diyaa hazrat-e-naaseh ki khush-uftaadgi pe daad hai khud jidhar se aae the sab ko udhar jaane diyaa is harim-e-naaz mein yuun be-mahaabaa guftugu kuchh bharam rakkhaa to hotaa tum ko gar jaane diyaa tujh ko rokaa jaa rahaa thaa raushni thi jab talak shaam ke Dhalte samay suraj ko ghar jaane diyaa aankh sapne dekhti thi aansuon se kyon bhari chaahti to puchh leti main magar jaane diyaa dostaa qismat na ho to koshishein bekaar hain sabr kaa paimaana ham ne khud hi bhar jaane diyaa dil musir thaa baarhaa kuchh jaanchne ko ruk gae aakhirash us ne hamein baar-e-digar jaane diyaa"

"aisaa to yahaan kuchh bhi nahin hadd-e-nazar tak ham ko to pahunchnaa thaa kisi khvaab-nagar tak ab paanv nahin raah mein dil thakne lagaa hai lekin hamein chalnaa to hai anjaam-e-safar tak ham shor bhi sunte hain samaaat se bahut kam aavaaz bhi jaati hai to bas hadd-e-nazar tak mumkin hai main ab sabr kaa ye peD giraa duun jab haath pahunchtaa hi nahin shaakh-e-samar tak ham apne hi mausam se parakhte hain jahaan ko maahaul kaa lete hi nahin koi asar tak main apne hi andar ki taraf chikh rahaa huun ab dekhiye jaati hai ye aavaaz kidhar tak"

"tirgi shama bani raahguzar mein aai saaat ik aisi bhi kal apne safar mein aai jis jagah chehra hi meyaar-e-vafaa Thahraa hai khaak hi khaak vahaan dast-e-hunar mein aai teri nazron mein thi duniyaa to yahi kyaa kam thaa hashr ye hai ki tu duniyaa ki nazar mein aai baar-haa yaaron ne saahil se kahaa thaa ham hain baar-haa naav magar apni bhanvar mein aai zindagi samjhun ise yaa ki ise maut kahun vo jo mehmaan ki surat mire ghar mein aai yuun bhi taarikh ki taarikh raqam hoti hai nikli taarikh mahal se to khanDar mein aai khvaab hi khvaab ki taabir huaa to jaanaa zindagi kyuun kisi aankhon ke asar mein aai shama jalte hi bujhi aur dhuaan aisaa uThaa lazzat-e-shaam yahaan khvaab-e-sahar mein aai zindagi kuchh hai 'ataa' sher-o-adab hai kuchh aur ye do-rangi ki vabaa kaisi hunar mein aai"

"tire jamaal se ham runumaa nahin hue hain chamak rahe hain magar aaina nahin hue hain dhaDak rahaa hai tu ik ism ki hai ye barakat vagarna vaaqiye is dil mein kyaa nahin hue hain bataa na paaein to khud tum samajh hi jaao ki ham bilaa javaaz to be-maajraa nahin hue hain tiraa kamaal ki aankhon mein kuchh zabaan pe kuchh hamein to moajize aise ataa nahin hue hain ye mat samajh ki koi tujh se munharif hi nahin abhi ham ahl-e-junun lab-kushaa nahin hue hain ba-naam-e-zauq-e-sukhan khud-numaai aap karein ham is maraz mein abhi mubtalaa nahin hue hain hami vo jin kaa safar maavaraa-e-vaqt-o-vajud hami vo khud se kabhi jo rihaa nahin hue hain khud-aagahi bhi khaDi maangti hai apnaa hisaab junun ke qarz bhi ab tak adaa nahin hue hain kisi ne dil jo dukhaayaa kabhi to ham 'irfaan' udaas ho gae lekin khafaa nahin hue hain"

"ba-zom-e-aql ye kaisaa gunaah main ne kiyaa ik aainaa thaa usi ko siyaah main ne kiyaa ye shahr-e-kam-nazaraan ye dayaar-e-be-hunaraan kise ye apne hunar kaa gavaah main ne kiyaa harim-e-dil ko jalaane lagaa thaa ek khayaal so gul use bhi ba-yak sard aah main ne kiyaa vahi yaqin rahaa hai javaaz-e-ham-safari jo gaah us ne kiyaa aur gaah main ne kiyaa bas ek dil hi to hai vaaqif-e-rumuz-e-hayaat so shahr-e-jaan kaa use sarbaraah main ne kiyaa har ek ranj usi baab mein kiyaa hai raqam zaraa saa gham thaa jise be-panaah main ne kiyaa ye raah-e-ishq bahut sahl ho gai jab se hisaar-e-zaat ko paivand-e-raah main ne kiyaa ye umr ki hai basar kuchh ajab tavaazun se tiraa huaa na hi khud se nibaah main ne kiyaa khirad ne dil se kahaa tu junun-sifat hi sahi na puchh us ki ki jis ko tabaah main ne kiyaa"

"faqat saje hue divaar-o-dar kaa kyaa matlab jahaan sukun nahin aise ghar kaa kyaa matlab kisi ke kaam na aae to zar kaa kyaa matlab na phal na chhaanv hai aise shajar kaa kyaa matlab na raaston kaa Thikaana na manzilon kaa pataa tire baghair mire is safar kaa kyaa matlab koi hayaat ke maani bataa ke samjhaae tavil kyaa hai bhalaa mukhtasar kaa kyaa matlab"