kitnaa main aur chal ke dikhaaun mire khudaa — Javed Mehdi

"aisaa bhi kyaa huaa hai mire ghar ke saamne har koi aa khaDaa hai mire ghar ke saamne ye kaun shakhs hai jo dukhon se ladhi hui gaaDi lagaa gayaa hai mire ghar ke saamne ik to mujhe bhi pine-pilaane kaa shauq hai us par ye mai-kada hai mire ghar ke saamne kyaa soch kar main niklun Tahalne ba-vaqt-e-shaam jangal bahut ghanaa hai mire ghar ke saamne mere nasib mein hi nahin dekhnaa use yuun to vo rah rahaa hai mire ghar ke saamne fursat mile to ek mulaaqaat kijiye mahfuz ik jagah hai mire ghar ke saamne khairaat de to di hai tujhe ai bhikaariyo ab kis liye rukaa hai mire ghar ke saamne 'jaaved' chal ke dekh kahin khud tu hi nahin ye jo maraa paDaa hai mire ghar ke saamne"

"ye jo ghurbat kaa maaraa lag rahaa hai mohabbat mein bhi haaraa lag rahaa hai na-jaane aasmaan par kyaa hai raushan zamin se to sitaaraa lag rahaa hai haqiqat mein hamaaraa kuchh nahin par hamein sab kuchh hamaaraa lag rahaa hai miyaan ye aankh tai karti hai ham ko koi kab kitnaa pyaaraa lag rahaa hai kabhi fursat mein yaad aaeinge tum ko abhi to dil tumhaaraa lag rahaa hai"

"karun jo koshish to tujh diye ko jalaa hi lungaa mujhe yaqin hai main tujh ko apnaa banaa hi lungaa jahaan zamaane ki talkhiyon ko main jheltaa huun vahaan main tere bhi chaar nakhre uThaa hi lungaa ye meri apni hi Dhiil hai yaa khafaa hai tu bhi main jab manaane pe aa gayaa to manaa hi lungaa main maantaa huun ki main musavvir nahin huun koi tumhaari aankhein to yaar lekin banaa hi lungaa mire kiye par tamaam gaanv ke log khush the mujhe yaqin hai main sab gharon se duaa hi lungaa charaagh saare ke saare be-shak na bach sake par main apne hisse kaa ik diyaa to bachaa hi lungaa mujhe biThaane ki tujh ko koi na fikr hogi main aa gayaa huun to phir jagah bhi banaa hi lungaa"

"taghayyuraati kamaal hone mein din lageinge hamein dobaara bahaal hone mein din lageinge ham itni jaldi kabhi kisi par khule nahin hain tumhein hamaaraa malaal hone mein din lageinge abhi abhi to judaa hue ho abhi kahaan ye hamaare baare savaal hone mein din lageinge hamaari aankhein to ratjagon ne kured Daalin tumhaari aankhon ko laal hone mein din lageinge ye jism behis hai yaar lekin maraa nahin hai suno abhi intiqaal hone mein din lageinge"

"gulaab samjhaa huaa thaa jin ko vo khaar nikle hamaare dushman hamaare apne hi yaar nikle kabhi kabhi dard dil mein nikle to yuun lage hai ki jaise mere badan se kuchh aar-paar nikle vo log jo khud ko zabt kaa rab bataa rahe the paDi jo mushkil to ek jhaTke ki maar nikle main haq pe huun jaan kar bhi koi nahin mire saath mukhaalifat mein miri magar be-shumaar nikle usi ke dil par asar nahin ho sakaa vagarna hamaari aankhon se ashk to baar baar nikle hamaari qismat mein Dubnaa likh diyaa gayaa thaa vagarna jo log saath the vo to paar nikle main chaahtaa huun tu mujh pe bilkul na jaae beTaa main chaahtaa huun ki tu ibaadat-guzaar nikle zabaan nahin saath de saki meraa 'mehdi' varna miri to koshish yahi thi dil kaa ghubaar nikle"

"kyaa karun ai khudaa nahin jaataa dil se vo bevafaa nahin jaataa ek lamha sukun bhi de de dard har pal sahaa nahin jaataa maalika tujh se ek shikva hai vaise mujh se kiyaa nahin jaataa masala ye hai us ke gaanv ko dusraa raasta nahin jaataa aa bhi jaae havaa kaa jhonkaa gar sab diye to bujhaa nahin jaataa ho sake to palaT ke aa jaao ab akele rahaa nahin jaataa yaad rakhnaa ye jo mohabbat hai is safar mein rukaa nahin jaataa"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"kyaa apne shahr mein koi aisaa makaan hai samjhun jise ki asl mein vo ik jahaan hai DhunDo haqiqat is mein na afsaana hi koi is kaa bayaan kuchh nahin us kaa bayaan hai apnaa shi'aar ab hai faqat amn-dushmani ye aur baat faakhta apnaa nishaan hai likhne ko ek harf na kahne ko ek lafz yuun to qalam hai haath mein munh mein zabaan hai vo lams jis ke baa'd zamaane guzar gae vo lams ab bhi taaza hai ab bhi javaan hai ho jaaegaa yaqin sabhon kaa hi kal jo aaj meraa yaqin aur sabhon kaa gumaan hai shatranj ki bisaat ki thi apni mez par shatranj ki bisaat ki saaraa jahaan hai"

"charaaghon se kuchh to churaayaa gayaa hai jo thi aag us ko bujhaayaa gayaa hai likhaa thaa jinhein sirf apne lahu se mire un khaton ko jalaayaa gayaa hai hazaaron daf'a us ne ki bevafaai mujhe bevafaa kyon bataayaa gayaa hai mujhe khud nikalnaa paDaa apne ghar se ye mat sochnaa ki bhagaayaa gayaa hai khabar ye mili hai ki mere hi ghar mein kisi ghair ko ab basaayaa gayaa hai mujhe hi sataa kar mujhe hi rulaa kar ye ilzaam mujh par lagaayaa gayaa hai tumhein kyaa bataaun mohabbat mein 'raavat' mujhe kis qadar aazmaayaa gayaa hai"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"