mere zehn-o-dil mein fikr-o-fan mein thaa — Aqeel Shadab

"mataa-o-maal na de daulat-e-tabaahi de mujhe bhi mumlikat-e-gham ki baadshaahi de khaDaa huaa huun main dast-e-talab daraaz kiye na mere sar ko yuun ilzaam-e-kaj-kulaahi de main apne aap ko kis tarah sangsaar karun mire khilaaf miraa dil agar gavaahi de main Thahre paani ki maanind qaid huun khud mein koi nasheb ki jaanib mujhe bahaa hi de mire dinon ko javaan jism kaa ujaalaa de miri shabon ko ghani zulf ki siyaahi de kabhi to lazzat-e-kaam-o-dahan do-baalaa kar ham aise faaqa-kashon ko bhi murgh-o-maahi de har ek daur ke suqraat kaa ye virsa hai mujhe bhi laa miri zahraab ki suraahi de"

"saatvein number ki surat vo bhi pur-asraar thaa main sifar ki tarah sab kuchh thaa magar be-kaar thaa har-nafas ab tak mire dil ki ajab haalat rahi maut se Dartaa bhi thaa jiine se bhi bezaar thaa ik shanaasaa naa-shanaasaai thi mere har taraf meraa ghar mere liye to ghar na thaa baazaar thaa meri barbaadi kaa zaamin dusraa koi nahin main ki apne vaahimon kaa aap zimmedaar thaa jism hi kyaa ruuh tak zakhmon se chhalni ho gai saans kaa rishta na thaa chalti hui talvaar thaa ab bhalaa haasil bhi kyaa hogaa ba-juz sharmindagi kyaa kahun 'shaadaab' kis se barsar-e-paikaar thaa"

"bujh chukaa suraj andheraa ho chukaa hai dosto duur mujh se meraa saaya ho chukaa hai dosto chaand ko chhu kar khudaa ki zaat ke munkir hue qad hamaaraa kitnaa unchaa ho chukaa hai dosto dafn jo sadiyon rahaa tahzib ke ambaar mein tang aa kar ab vo nangaa ho chukaa hai dosto jism kyaa dil kyaa jigar kyaa ruuh tak chhalni hui vaqt kaa bartaav aisaa ho chukaa hai dosto qurb se jis ke mahak uTThe the ye divaar-o-dar rang us khushbu kaa mailaa ho chukaa hai dosto jo ghiraa rahtaa thaa kal tak doston ki bhiiD mein aaj vo bilkul akelaa ho chukaa hai dosto ab to apne aap se milne ki bhi fursat nahin is qadar 'shaadaab' tanhaa ho chukaa hai dosto"

"kabhi bantaa kabhi miTtaa huun shaayad main apne vahm kaa saayaa huun shaayad na koi mujh ko ab tak paDh sakaa hai havaaon par kahin likkhaa huun shaayad mujhe meraa samandar DhunDhtaa hai main ik bhaTkaa huaa dariyaa huun shaayad badal jaate hain khadd-o-khaal mere main mar kar bhi nahin martaa huun shaayad kahaan hai meri marg-e-naa-gahaani usi ki aas mein zinda huun shaayad tujhe kho kar akelaa ho gayaa thaa tujhe paa kar bhi main tanhaa huun shaayad khud apne qatl kaa chaska hai mujh ko khud apne khuun kaa pyaasaa huun shaayad azal se main musalsal chal rahaa huun thakan se TuTtaa lamha huun shaayad na jaane kaun mujh mein kho gayaa hai kisi ko DhunDne niklaa huun shaayad mujhe rokaa gayaa thaa jis dishaa se usi jaanib chalaa aayaa huun shaayad mujhe pahchaan le aaine mere main teraa gum-shuda chehraa huun shaayad"

"mai-kasho jaan ke laale nazar aate hain mujhe khaali khaali se piyaale nazar aate hain mujhe zehn insaan ne taraashe hain jo yazdaan ke khilaaf saare be-jaan havaale nazar aate hain mujhe vaqt-e-raftaar chhalakte hue ye rup-kalas chalte phirte se shivaale nazar aate hain mujhe hai havaason pe shab-e-hijr kaa is darja asar subh ke rang bhi kaale nazar aate hain mujhe tere ashaar bhi shaadaab buton ke maanind naaz-o-andaaz ke paale nazar aate hain mujhe"

"us ke hote uThaa sakaa kab sar koi sarkaa de aakaash ki ye chaadar koi baras rahe hain sang-e-malaamat har jaanib kaise nikle ab ghar se baahar koi ik duuje ko kaaT rahaa hai har rasta khaDaa huaa hai chauraahe par har koi kaanch ki kaayaa le kar niklaa huun ghar se aa na lage bhulaa-bhaTkaa patthar koi chhoD gayaa raddi ke daamon bikne ko chaaT gayaa mujh ko akshar akshar koi baahar DhunD rahe ho tum kis dushman ko chhupaa huaa hai apne hi andar koi koi bhuul chukaa hogaa shaayad ham ko yaad nahin aataa hai ab aksar koi bulaa rahaa hai jangal jangal sannaaTaa bhaTak rahaa hai tanhaa nagar nagar koi kaan lagaae aankh bichhaae baiThaa huun gayaa hai jab se aane ko kah kar koi"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"

"na koi dost ho meraa na ho adu meraa tum apne munh se agar kah do mujh ko tu meraa fasurdagi mein junun-e-havaa-e-gul yaani khizaan ke daur mein saudaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa jo tum nahin to bahaar-e-jinaan mein khaak nahin bahut vasia hai daamaan-e-aarzu meraa nibhegi ai dil-e-aavaara ab na tujh se miri bas aaj se na main teraa huun aur na tu meraa banaa rahe hain vo jalve ki apne tasvirein dikhaa dikhaa ke tamaashaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa kisi ki zulf-e-siyah kah rahi hai khul khul kar ghaTaa ne rang uDaayaa hai hu-ba-hu meraa mah-e-siyaam kaa aur intizaam kyaa karte janaab-e-shaikh uDaa le gae subu meraa jafaa kaa rang judaa hai vafaa kaa rang judaa malo na dast-e-hinaai mein tum lahu meraa taDap rahi hai jo abr-e-siyaah mein bijli firaaq mein yahi naqsha thaa hu-ba-hu meraa suhaani raat hai chhiTki hai chaandni 'muztar' miri nigaah mein phirtaa hai maah-ru meraa"

"khurshid jhaanktaa hai ridaa-e-sahaab se yaa nuur chhan rahaa hai kisi ke naqaab se baahar jo aaj dekh liyaa hai hijaab se suraj laraz rahaa hai tumhaare shabaab se naaseh Daraa rahe the khudaa ke 'azaab se khud hi janaab baaz na aae sharaab se lamhe guzar chuke hain jo phulon ki sej par is daur-e-pur-khatar mein vo lagte hain khvaab se khud ko to pahle dekhiye phir kahiye bevafaa bas itni iltijaa hai hamaari janaab se har roz ik na ik nai zid hai zabaan par tang aa gayaa huun main dil-e-khaana-kharaab se ahl-e-vafaa mein meraa vahi naam paD gayaa tum ne mujhe navaaz diyaa jis khitaab se kin manzilon pe meraa nishaan-e-qadam nahin puchho miraa maqaam mah-o-aaftaab se jo husn kaa kahin bhi tahaffuz na kar sake phir kaun saa hai faaeda aisi naqaab se saaya bhi jis hasin kaa DhunDe na mil sakaa be-misl vo khudaa ke hue intikhaab se sun kar hamaare she'r vo kuchh muskuraa diye 'faaruq' aaj ham bhi rahe kaamyaab se"