mire khudaa mujhe gham mere hasb-e-haal to de — Shadan Barabankvi

"apne gham shaamil kartaa main kaise duniyaa vaalon mein khud hi tanhaa pi jaataa huun bhar kar zahr piyaalon mein itnaa gahraa zakhm lagaanaa sab ke bas ki baat kahaan dekhaa to vo bhi shaamil thaa tiir chalaane vaalon mein manzil kaisi samt kahaan ki phir bhi chaltaa rahtaa huun so gai meri qismat jaise mere paanv ke chhaalon mein ahl-e-khirad sachche moti bhi raah mein Thukraa dete hain divaane to raah ke patthar rakh dete hain shivaalon mein 'shaadaan' ye andaaz-e-taraqqi raas bhalaa kyaa aaegaa duniyaa andhi ho jaaegi itne tez ujaalon mein"

"kuchh narm si kirnein bhi shaamil hain bahaaron mein paighaam hai jiine kaa maa'sum ishaaron mein naukhez ghazaalon mein aur zohra-nigaaron mein kaaghaz kaa badan le kar baiThaa huun sharaaron mein phulon ko jo dekhaa to mahsus kiyaa main ne shaadaab vo hotaa hai paltaa hai jo khaaron mein har sang-e-malaamat ko jab chaahe masal Daalein ab bhi vo ravaani hai tahzib ke dhaaron mein saahil kaa tamannaai is raaz ko kyaa jaane tufaan bhi hote hain khaamosh kinaaron mein aazaadi-e-gulshan kaa haal us se koi puchhe khud jis ne jalaayaa hai ghar apnaa bahaaron mein vo log bhi ab ham se katraa ke guzarte hain the jin ke liye 'shaadaan' ham jaan se pyaaron mein"

"mujh ko shikaayatein nahin apne nasib se aksar guzar gae hain vo mere qarib se har manzil-e-hayaat se guzraa huun baa-khabar had hai ki dost bhi nazar aae raqib se pahchaan leinge log ye andaaz-e-iltifaat is be-rukhi ke saath na guzro qarib se har manzil-e-hayaat se guzraa huun baa-khabar had hai ki dost bhi nazar aae raqib se vo karb hai ki khun-e-jigar aanch de uThaa dekhaa hai zindagi tujhe main ne qarib se Dartaa huun ab main naam bhi lete khulus kaa kuchh vaaqi'aat saamne aae 'ajib se is be-dili ke saath na lo is kaa imtihaan 'shaadaan' ko dekhnaa hai to dekho qarib se"

"vo aankh uTThi to maikhaane bahut hain ye dil TuuTaa to paimaane bahut hain miri barbaadiyon par hansne vaalo haqiqat kam hai afsaane bahut hain mubaarak chaand tak parvaaz lekin zamin par bhi to viraane bahut hain charaagh-e-dil jalaa do gham ke maaro ki raahon mein siyah-khaane bahut hain ye duniyaa bhi 'ajab duniyaa hai 'shaadaan' ki apnon hi mein begaane bahut hain"

"tire baghair ye shab bhi guzar na jaae kahin hayaat mujh pe koi vaar kar na jaae kahin tum ajnabi hi raho kuchh dinon to achchhaa hai tumhaaraa naam dilon mein utar na jaae kahin bachaao sho'la-e-nafrat se apne jismon ko vafaa kaa jaam 'adaavat se bhar na jaae kahin vo zindagi jo samundar ki tarh pyaasi hai vo zindagi kaa jazira bikhar na jaae kahin ghamon ki dhuup bhi phaili hui hai gulshan mein kisi kaa phuul saa chehra utar na jaae kahin is ehtiyaat se guzro chaman se ai yaaro kali jo phuul bani hai bikhar na jaae kahin tumhaare dard kaa ehsaas zindagi hai miri magar ye dard kaa ehsaas mar na jaae kahin main si rahaa huun garebaan ko is liye 'shaadaan' miraa junun use badnaam kar na jaae kahin"

"vo meri vafaaon kaa kyaa mujh ko sila degaa patthar ki tarah mujh ko raste se haTaa degaa naqsh-e-kaf-e-paa un kaa sab raaz bataa degaa ik roz yahi rasta manzil kaa pataa degaa kyaa 'ilm thaa vo mujh ko is tarh bhulaa degaa tasvir miri apne kamre se haTaa degaa jab 'aalam-e-vahshat mein khat khinchegaa divaana be-rabt lakiron ko tasvir banaa degaa dekho kahin dhoke se dil us ko na de denaa maa'sum hai haathon se aaina giraa degaa main ye nahin samjhaa thaa haalaat badalte hi har ek yahaan mujh ko nazron se giraa degaa sho'lon ko havaa denaa fitrat hai zamaane ki har daur mein ye insaan sho'lon ko havaa degaa naadaar zamaane se be-sud hain ummidein jo khud hi savaali ho 'shaadaan' tujhe kyaa degaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"na koi dost ho meraa na ho adu meraa tum apne munh se agar kah do mujh ko tu meraa fasurdagi mein junun-e-havaa-e-gul yaani khizaan ke daur mein saudaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa jo tum nahin to bahaar-e-jinaan mein khaak nahin bahut vasia hai daamaan-e-aarzu meraa nibhegi ai dil-e-aavaara ab na tujh se miri bas aaj se na main teraa huun aur na tu meraa banaa rahe hain vo jalve ki apne tasvirein dikhaa dikhaa ke tamaashaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa kisi ki zulf-e-siyah kah rahi hai khul khul kar ghaTaa ne rang uDaayaa hai hu-ba-hu meraa mah-e-siyaam kaa aur intizaam kyaa karte janaab-e-shaikh uDaa le gae subu meraa jafaa kaa rang judaa hai vafaa kaa rang judaa malo na dast-e-hinaai mein tum lahu meraa taDap rahi hai jo abr-e-siyaah mein bijli firaaq mein yahi naqsha thaa hu-ba-hu meraa suhaani raat hai chhiTki hai chaandni 'muztar' miri nigaah mein phirtaa hai maah-ru meraa"

"khurshid jhaanktaa hai ridaa-e-sahaab se yaa nuur chhan rahaa hai kisi ke naqaab se baahar jo aaj dekh liyaa hai hijaab se suraj laraz rahaa hai tumhaare shabaab se naaseh Daraa rahe the khudaa ke 'azaab se khud hi janaab baaz na aae sharaab se lamhe guzar chuke hain jo phulon ki sej par is daur-e-pur-khatar mein vo lagte hain khvaab se khud ko to pahle dekhiye phir kahiye bevafaa bas itni iltijaa hai hamaari janaab se har roz ik na ik nai zid hai zabaan par tang aa gayaa huun main dil-e-khaana-kharaab se ahl-e-vafaa mein meraa vahi naam paD gayaa tum ne mujhe navaaz diyaa jis khitaab se kin manzilon pe meraa nishaan-e-qadam nahin puchho miraa maqaam mah-o-aaftaab se jo husn kaa kahin bhi tahaffuz na kar sake phir kaun saa hai faaeda aisi naqaab se saaya bhi jis hasin kaa DhunDe na mil sakaa be-misl vo khudaa ke hue intikhaab se sun kar hamaare she'r vo kuchh muskuraa diye 'faaruq' aaj ham bhi rahe kaamyaab se"