miri duniyaa akeli ho rahi hai — Azhar Naiyyar

"main apne shahr mein apnaa hi chehra kho baiThaa ye vaaqia jo sunaayaa to vo bhi ro baiThaa tumhaari aas mein aankhon ko main bhigo baiThaa ki dil mein yaas ke kaanTe kai chubho baiThaa mataa-e-haal na maazi kaa koi sarmaaya nadi mein vaqt ki har chiiz ko Dubo baiThaa sunahre vaqt ki tahrirein jin mein thiin mahfuz main un sahifon ko ashkon se apne dho baiThaa main suntaa rahtaa thaa jis aaine ki sargoshi vo shahr-e-sang mein apni jilaa bhi kho baiThaa kisi babul ke saae tale mili jo amaan to apne paanv mein kaanTe bhi main chubho baiThaa vahi rahaa hai bahar-taur shaadmaan 'nayyar' jo apne gham mein gham-e-digaraan samo baiThaa"

"main mahal ret ke sahraa mein banaane baiThaa chand alfaaz ko maazi ke bhulaane baiThaa haadse se hi huaa gham kaa mudaavaa mere falsafa sabr kaa logon ko paDhaane baiThaa thak ke saae mein babulon ke sukun jab chaahaa us kaa har patta mujhe kaanTe lagaane baiThaa jis ne toDaa sabhi naaton sabhi rishton ko mire umr bhar kaa vahi ab qarz chukaane baiThaa us ke talkhaab se kab pyaas miri bujh paai ghar samundar ke kinaare hi basaane baiThaa jism ke bakhiye jo udhDe to udhaDte hi rahe jaama resham kaa pahne ko silaane baiThaa log the gird alaav ke magar main 'nayyar' jism ki aag ko paani se bujhaane baiThaa"

"hairaan huun ki aaj ye kyaa haadisa huaa hai aag sard dil bhi hai meraa bujhaa huaa manzil pe pahle meri rasaai hui to phir har naqsh-e-paa se aage miraa naqsh-e-paa huaa rekhaaein haath ki to sivaa jaagti rahein ai kaash meraa bakht rahe jaagtaa huaa thi us ki band muTThi mein chiTThi dabi hui jo shakhs thaa train ke niche kaTaa huaa 'nayyar' kahaani yaad hai pariyon ke desh ki main us tilism se na abhi tak rihaa huaa"

"insaan jo hain in ko kabhi kamtar nahin dekhaa khud raah kaa kham hote hue sar nahin dekhaa tum bahr-e-mohabbat ke kinaare pe khaDe the tum ne miri aankhon mein samundar nahin dekhaa yuun biit gai shahr-e-gharibaan mein miri umr khush-haal yahaan main ne koi ghar nahin dekhaa dil khaak huaa pyaar ki is aag mein jal kar aur jhaank ke us ne kabhi andar nahin dekhaa aavaaz pe aavaaz vo detaa rahaa 'nayyar' ham ne use ik baar bhi muD kar nahin dekhaa"

"hamaare chehre pe ranj-o-malaal aisaa thaa masarraton kaa zamaane mein kaal aisaa thaa fazaa-e-shahr mein baarud ki thi bu shaamil ki saans lenaa bhi ham ko muhaal aisaa thaa amir-e-shahr ke honTon pe paD gae taale gharib-e-shahr kaa chubhtaa savaal aisaa thaa ba-vaqt-e-shaam samundar mein gir gayaa suraj tamaam din ki thakan se niDhaal aisaa thaa tamaam ghonsle khaali the nange peDon par hudud-e-dasht mein vaqt-e-zavaal aisaa thaa vo jab bhi milte hain zakhmon ke phuul dete hain hamaaraa raabta un se bahaal aisaa thaa zamin pe jhukne lagi khud-ba-khud har ik Daali darakht karb-e-numu se niDhaal aisaa thaa khud apne aap se bhi main rahaa huun begaana hisaar-e-dil mein kisi kaa khayaal aisaa thaa"

"ji rahaa huun main udaasi bhari tasvir ke saath shor kartaa huun siyah raat mein zanjir ke saath surkh phulon ki ghani chhaanv mein chupke chupke mujh se miltaa thaa koi ik nai tanvir ke saath ik tiri yaad ki har saans ke nazdik rahi ik tiraa dard ki chaspaan rahaa taqdir ke saath kabhi zakhmon kaa bhi khanda-e-gul kaa mausam ham pe khultaa rahaa ik dard ki tafsir ke saath baat aapas ki hai aapas hi mein rahne diije varna ham surkhiyaan ban jaaeinge tashhir ke saath aap ki mez pe phir ek nayaa manzar hai meri tasvir bhi hai aap ki tasvir ke saath dil ke nazdik sar-e-shaam-e-alam ai 'nayyar' zakhm ke chaand chamak uThte hain tanvir ke saath"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"chaand bhi khoyaa khoyaa saa hai taare bhi khvaabida hain aaj fazaa ke bojhal-pan se lahje bhi sanjida hain jaane kin kin logon se is dard ke kyaa kyaa rishte the hijr ki is aabaad saraa mein sab chehre naadida hain itne barson baad bhi donon kaise TuuT ke milte hain tu hai kitnaa saada-dil aur ham kitne pechida hain sun jaanaan ham tark-e-taalluq aur kisi din kar leinge aaj tujhe bhi ujlat si hai ham bhi kuchh ranjida hain kaanon mein ik sargoshi hai be-maani si sargoshi aankhon mein kuchh khvaab saje hain khvaab bhi umr-rasida hain ghar ki vo makhdush imaarat gir ke phir taamir hui ab aangan mein peD hain jitne saare shaakh burida hain is basti mein ek saDak hai jis se ham ko nafrat hai us ke niche pagDanDi hai jis ke ham girvida hain"

"raftagaan ki sadaa nahin main huun ye tiraa vaahima nahin main huun tere maazi ke saath dafn kahin meraa ik vaaqi'a nahin main huun kyaa milaa intihaa-pasandi se kyaa main tere sivaa nahin main huun ek muddat mein jaa ke mujh pe khulaa chaand hasrat-zada nahin main huun us ne mujh ko muhaal jaan liyaa main ye kahtaa rahaa nahin main huun main hi 'ujlat mein aa gayaa thaa idhar ye zamaana nayaa nahin main huun meri vahshat se Dar gae shaayad yaar baad-e-fanaa nahin main huun main tire saath rah gayaa huun kahin vaqt Thahraa huaa nahin main huun gaahe gaahe sukhan zaruri hai saamne aaina nahin main huun sarsari kyuun guzartaa hai mujh se ye miraa maajraa nahin main huun us ne puchhaa kahaan gayaa vo shakhs kyaa bataataa ki thaa nahin main huun ye kise dekhtaa hai mujh se udhar tere aage khalaa nahin main huun"

"dast-kash hon na mai-e-gul ke khush-aashaam abhi ki labaalab hain mah-o-mehr ke do-jaam abhi zehn mein saaqi hai mai-khaana hai hai jaam abhi hosh kahtaa huun ise hosh kaa kyaa kaam abhi mujh ko darkaar na hai kufr na islaam abhi sidhe sidhe hi chale aate hain paighaam abhi tu bhi baaqi tiri rahmat bhi hai baaqi saaqi rahne de hai mai-e-isyaan se baDaa kaam abhi khaal-o-gesu se hai ye silsila-e-raaz-o-niyaaz daana sad-daana ho ye daam ho sad-daam abhi ziist ke khvaab ki taabir abhi baaqi hai ibtidaa dekh chuke hai magar anjaam abhi rah-rav-e-ishq abhi duur hai mearaaj-e-habib rashk-e-manzil na huaa raah mein har gaam abhi zarra-zarra hai ik aatish-kada-e-nur kalim dekh agar tu na ho aatish-zada-e-baam abhi imtiyaaz-e-man-o-tu raaz-e-khafi hai lekin khaasgaan ke liye kahtaa huun sar-e-aam abhi aks ko zo'm hai be-misli-e-rang-o-bu kaa turfa ye hai ki muqaabil hai vo gulfaam abhi raaz-goi tiri 'aiman' hai gunaah-e-akbar maang le afv ki us kaa hai karam aam abhi"

"baad-e-shimaal chalne lagi ang ang mein lipTaa hai kaun mujh se ye patjhaD ke rang mein khvaahish ke kaarobaar se bachnaa muhaal hai utregaa tu bhi saath mire is surang mein main aandhiyon mein haath bhi pakDun tiraa to kyaa ik shaakh-e-be-siper huun havaaon ki jang mein 'raanjhaa' main 'ahd-e-nau kaa qabilon mein baT gayaa to 'hir' ban ke pi na saki zahr jhang mein garmaa sakin na chaahatein teraa kaThor jism har ek jal ke bujh gai tasvir sang mein aage 'musavvir' aag 'aqab mein hai ye sadaa pichhe na muD ke dekhnaa is dasht-e-sang mein"

"tifli piiri o naujavaani hech tiin din ki hai zindagaani hech umr-e-do-roza par ghamanD itnaa munimon ki hai lan-taraani hech raat thoDi hai aao pyaar karein subh ko hogi ye kahaani hech chaar din ki bahaar hai saari ye takabbur hai yaar-e-jaani hech dil ke haathon 'haqir' jhagDon mein meri guzri sadaa javaani hech"