itnaa kyuun sharmaate hain — Aashufta Changezi

"tum ne likkhaa hai likho kaisaa huun main doston ki bhiiD hai tanhaa huun main yaasmin o nastaran meraa pata khushbuon ke jism par likkhaa huun main pahle hi kyaa kam tamaashe the yahaan phir nae manzar uThaa laayaa huun main phir vahi mausam puraane ho gae din Dhale sargoshiyaan suntaa huun main kaun utarti chaDhti saanson kaa amiin saaya-e-divaar se lipTaa huun main tu kabhi is shahr se ho kar guzar raaston ke jaal mein uljhaa huun main vo miri khush-fahmiyaan sab kyaa huiin jaane kab se be-hunar zinda huun main"

"Thikaane yuun to hazaaron tire jahaan mein the koi sadaa hamein rokegi is gumaan mein the ajiib basti thi chehre to apne jaise the magar sahife kisi ajnabi zabaan mein the bahut khushi hui tarkash ke khaali hone par zaraa jo ghaur kiyaa tiir sab kamaan mein the ilaaj DhunDh nikaaleinge apni vahshat kaa junun-navaaz abhi tak isi gumaan mein the ham ek aisi jagah jaa ke lauT kyuun aae jahaan sunaa hai ki sab aakhiri zamaan mein the"

"ghar ki had mein sahraa hai aage dariyaa bahtaa hai hairat tak mafqud hui itnaa dekhaa-bhaalaa hai jaane kyaa uftaad paDe khvaab mein us ko dekhaa hai aahaT kaisi basti mein kaun ye rasta bhulaa hai raste apne apne hain kaun kisi ko samjhaa hai qaid se vahshi chhuT gae dekhein kyaa gul khiltaa hai uDne vaalaa panchhi kyuun pankh sameTe baiThaa hai"

"guzar gae hain jo mausam kabhi na aaeinge tamaam dariyaa kisi roz Duub jaaeinge safar to pahle bhi kitne kiye magar is baar ye lag rahaa hai ki tujh ko bhi bhuul jaaeinge alaav ThanDe hain logon ne jaagnaa chhoDaa kahaani saath hai lekin kise sunaaeinge sunaa hai aage kahin samtein baanTi jaati hain tum apni raah chuno saath chal na paaeinge duaaein loriyaan maaon ke paas chhoD aae bas ek niind bachi hai kharid laaeinge zarur tujh saa bhi hogaa koi zamaane mein kahaan talak tiri yaadon se ji lagaaeinge"

"gharaunde khvaabon ke suraj ke saath rakh lete paron mein dhuup ke ik kaali raat rakh lete hamein khabar thi zabaan kholte hi kyaa hogaa kahaan kahaan magar aankhon pe haath rakh lete tamaam jangon kaa anjaam mere naam huaa tum apne hisse mein koi to maat rakh lete kahaa thaa tum se ki ye raasta bhi Thiik nahin kabhi to qaafile vaalon ki baat rakh lete ye kyaa kiyaa ki sabhi kuchh ganvaa ke baiTh gae bharam to banda-e-maulaa-sifaat rakh lete main bevafaa huun chalo ye bhi maan letaa huun bhale bure hi sahi tajrabaat rakh lete"

"duur tak phailaa samundar mujh pe saahil ho gayaa lauT kar jaanaa yahaan se aur mushkil ho gayaa daakhila mamnua likkhaa thaa fasil-e-shahr par paDh to main ne bhi liyaa thaa phir bhi daakhil ho gayaa khvaab hi baazaar mein mil jaate hain taabir bhi pahle logon se sunaa thaa aaj qaail ho gayaa is hujum-e-be-karaan se bhaag kar jaataa kahaan tum ne rokaa to bahut thaa main hi shaamil ho gayaa pahle bhi ye sab manaazir rokte the is dafa aisaa kyaa dekhaa ki tujh se aur ghaafil ho gayaa ek mauqa kyaa milaa khush-fahmiyaan baDhne lagin raasta itnaa pasand aayaa ki manzil ho gayaa aur kyaa detaa bhalaa sahraa-navardi kaa khiraaj tu bachaa thaa ab ke tu bhi nazr-e-mahmil ho gayaa"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"Tuut kar ab sanvar gayaa huun main is tarah se bikhar gayaa huun main jo tire naam ki gali hai vo us gali se guzar gayaa huun main yaadein teri sameT laayaa huun aaj jab se udhar gayaa huun main khud mukarnaa sikhaa diyaa us ne phir kahaa ki mukar gayaa huun main kal talak jo na kar sakaa thaa main aaj vo kaam kar gayaa huun main yuun kahin main nahin Thahartaa par tere dar par Thahar gayaa huun main"

"bistar-e-karb pe jab niind jalaai main ne tab kisi khvaab ki buniyaad uThaai main ne zakhm aise the ki har shakhs ke aage rakkhe baat aisi thi ki khud se bhi chhupaai main ne hurmat-e-gham ke liye khud ko aziyyat bakhshi phir usi dard se taskin bhi paai main ne main ne zakhmon ko kuredaa unhein taaza rakkhaa tab kahin dasht mein ki naghma-saraai main ne apni khiDki se yunhi khud ko pukaaraa kal shab aur phir khud ko vo aavaaz sunaai main ne jaane vaale se rag-e-jaan kaa bhi rishta thaa 'samir' ye samajhne mein bahut der lagaai main ne"

"choT par choT khaa rahaa huun main 'aadatan muskuraa rahaa huun main us ke uupar to kuchh asar hi nahin apnaa dil kyon jalaa rahaa huun main aaj tanhaai mein jo baiThe ho kyaa tumhein yaad aa rahaa huun main kaun aaegaa mujh se milne ko apnaa ghar kyon sajaa rahaa huun main aaj ji bhar ke dekh lo mujh ko ab bahut duur jaa rahaa huun main kyaa tumhein ab bhi kuchh shikaayat hai ab to sab kuchh kamaa rahaa huun main haath mein Digriyaan sajaae hue Thokarein kitni khaa rahaa huun main ab mujhe peT in se bharnaa hai ye jo khanjar banaa rahaa huun main kal koi is ko bhi na chhoDegaa ye jo paudaa lagaa rahaa huun main"

"zindagi dushvaar hogi ye kabhi sochaa na thaa vo bagule gham ke uTThe jin kaa andesha na thaa saamne tum aa gae ho to bataa duun jaan-e-jaan jaise dil dhaDkaa thaa ab ki vaise dil dhaDkaa na thaa ye iraada kar liyaa thaa ham na bichhDeinge kabhi TuTeinge ik pal mein rishte ye kabhi sochaa na thaa yaad-e-maazi miT rahi hai vaqt ki raftaar se ab tasavvur mein hamaare koi bhi chehra na thaa sakht hairat ho rahi hai dekh kar apnaa vajud dhuup mein the sab ke saaye par miraa saayaa na thaa shauq-e-manzil dekh meri dekh meraa hausla shahr-e-dil ke raaston mein main kabhi Thahraa na thaa 'qalb' ko sahraa-navardi raas kyaa aati bhalaa vo kabhi aavaargi mein dar-ba-dar bhaTkaa na thaa"