mire chehre pe jo aansu giraa thaa — Ambar Bahraichi

"burida baazuon mein vo parind laala-baar thaa shikaariyon ke ghol mein ajiib intishaar thaa hare phalon ko toDti hui havaa guzar gai bujhi bujhi fazaa mein har darakht sogvaar thaa safar kaa aakhiri paDaav aa gayaa thaa aur main jo ham-safar bichhaD rahe the un pe ashk-baar thaa gae the ham bhi bahr ki tahon mein jhumte hue har ek siip ke labon mein sirf regzaar thaa dhuli dhuli fazaa mein ho gai abas vo justuju ki manzar-e-nazar-navaaz to pas-e-ghubaar thaa dam-e-sahar na jaane jaane kaun aa gayaa use ravaan the ashk ankhDiyon se haath mein sitaar thaa jo vaqt aa gayaa tamaam tiir TuTte gae usi nai kamaan pe to mujhe bhi e'tibaar thaa baras rahi thi aag is dayaar-e-sang mein magar mire lahu mein gul-fishaan vo champai azaar thaa ajiib thi sarisht bhi hamaare dhaan paan ki kabhi to bahr-e-be-karaan kabhi saraab-zaar thaa"

"har taraf us ke sunahre lafz hain phaile hue aur ham kaajal ki ik tahrir mein Duube hue chaandni ke shahr mein hamraah thaa vo bhi magar duur tak khaamoshiyon ke saaz the bajte hue hans rahaa thaa vo hari rut ki suhaani chhaanv mein daf'atan har ik shajar ke pairahan maile hue aaj ik maa'sum bachchi ki zabaan khinchi gai meri basti mein andhere aur bhi gahre hue har gali mein thiin siyah parchhaaiyon ki yurishein shab kai gunge malak har chhat pe the baiThe hue sab adaaein vaqt ki vo jaantaa hai is liye TaaT ke niche sunahraa taaj hai rakkhe hue soup ke daane kabutar chug rahaa thaa aur vo sahn ko mahkaa rahi thi sunnatein paDhte hue raat 'ambar' kahkashaan se duub ye kahne lagi chhaanv mein meri hazaaron chaand hain soe hue"

"chehron pe zar-posh andhere phaile hain ab jiine ke Dhang baDe hi mahnge hain haathon mein suraj le kar kyuun phirte hain is basti mein ab dida-var kitne hain qadron ki shab-rezi par hairaani kyuun zehnon mein ab kaale suraj palte hain har bhare jangal kaT kar ab shahr hue banjaare ki aankhon mein sannaaTe hain phulon vaale Taapu to gharqaab hue aag agle nae jazire ubhre hain us ke bosida-kapDon par mat jaao mast qalandar ki jholi mein hiire hain zikr karo ho mujh se kyaa tughyaani kaa saahil par hi apne rain basere hain is vaadi kaa to dastur niraalaa hai phuul saron par kankar patthar Dhote hain 'amabar' laakh savaa pankhi mausam aaein olon ki zad mein anmol parinde hain"

"darvaaza vaa kar ke roz nikaltaa thaa sirf vahi apne ghar kaa sarmaaya thaa khaDe hue the peD jaDon se kaT kar bhi tez havaa kaa jhonkaa aane vaalaa thaa usi nadi mein us ke bachche Duub gae usi nadi kaa paani us kaa piinaa thaa sabz qabaaein roz luTaataa thaa lekin khud us ke tan par bosida kapDaa thaa baahar saare maidaan jiit chukaa thaa vo ghar lauTaa to pal bhar mein hi TuuTaa thaa but ki qimat aank rahaa thaa vaise vo mandir mein to puujaa karne aayaa thaa chikh paDin saari divaarein 'amabar'-ji main sab se chhup kar kamre mein baiThaa thaa"

"jalte hue jangal se guzarnaa thaa hamein bhi phir barf ke sahraa mein Thaharnaa thaa hamein bhi me'yaar-navaazi mein kahaan us ko sukun thaa us shokh ki nazron se utarnaa thaa hamein bhi jaan bakhsh thaa pal bhar ke liye lams kisi kaa phir karb ke dariyaa mein utarnaa thaa hamein bhi yaaron ki nazar hi mein na the pankh hamaare khud apni uDaanon ko katarnaa thaa hamein bhi vo shahd mein Duubaa huaa lahja vo takhaatub ikhlaas ke vo rang ki Darnaa thaa hamein bhi yaad aae jo qadron ke mahakte hue gulban chaandi ke hisaaron se ubharnaa thaa hamein bhi sone ke hinDole mein vo khush-posh magan thaa mausam bhi suhaanaa thaa sanvarnaa thaa hamein bhi har phuul pe us shakhs ko patthar the chalaane ashkon se har ik barg ko bharnaa thaa hamein bhi us ko thaa bahut naaz khad-o-khaal pe 'ambar' ik roz tah-e-khaak bikharnaa thaa hamein bhi"

"main apni vusaton ko us gali mein bhuul jaataa huun na jaane kaun se jaadu ke haathon mein khilaunaa huun safar ye paaniyon kaa jab mujhe be-aab kartaa hai main dariyaa ki rupahli ret ko bistar banaataa huun savaalon ke kai patthar uThaae log baiThe hain main apnaa nanhaa bachcha qabr mein dafnaa ke lauTaa huun na jaane kis fazaa mein kho gayaa vo dudhiyaa aanchal ki jis ke faiz se main kitni aankhon kaa ujaalaa huun vo suraj mere chaaron samt hai phailaa huaa lekin main aksar ajnabi dhundlaahaTon mein Duub jaataa huun lipaT jaati hai meri ungliyon se khud shafaq aa kar sahar ki samt jab main apne haathon ko baDhaataa huun koi to hai ki jo mujh ko ujaale bakhsh jaataa hai ba-zaahir main kisi taarik Taapu mein akelaa huun mire siine mein 'ambar' ik dhanak si phail jaati hai main apne aansuon ki chaandni mein she'r likhtaa huun"

"is ishq-e-junun-khez mein kyaa kyaa nahin hotaa divaana hai jo qais se lailaa nahin hotaa kuchh hashr lahad par abhi barpaa nahin hotaa aae ho to Thahro koi zinda nahin hotaa kyuun kar ye kahun husn kaa nashsha nahin hotaa hotaa to bahut hai magar itnaa nahin hotaa kuchh kahiye to sharmaa ke jhukaa lete hain gardan bhule se bhi ab vaada-e-fardaa nahin hotaa milte hain vo dil surkh hui jaati hai chuTki naazuk hain bahut khun-e-tamannaa nahin hotaa deti hai mazaa mai kaa hamein talkhi-e-tauba jab haath mein paimaana-e-sahbaa nahin hotaa vo hashr ke din kushte ko Thukraa chuke sau-baar kuchh jaan si paD jaati hai zinda nahin hotaa boli ye tamannaa jo ruke vo dar-e-dil par ghar aap kaa hai aap se pardaa nahin hotaa tiron ko jagah dete hain jo siine mein apne un logon ke ai jaan kaleja nahin hotaa sahraa se qadam ghar ki taraf khaak uThaaun kaanTe se judaa paanv kaa chhaalaa nahin hotaa baiThe nazar aate hain vahi teri gali mein jin kaa kahin duniyaa mein Thikaanaa nahin hotaa furqat mein hai kyuun nazaa ki taklif gavaaraa mar jaaein 'riyaaz' aap se itnaa nahin hotaa"

"muzhda ai zauq-e-asiri ki nazar aataa hai daam-e-khaali qafas-e-murgh-e-giraftaar ke paas jigar-e-tishna-e-aazaar tasalli na huaa ju-e-khun ham ne bahaai bun-e-har khaar ke paas mund gaiin kholte hi kholte aankhein hai hai khuub vaqt aae tum is 'aashiq-e-bimaar ke paas main bhi ruk ruk ke na martaa jo zabaan ke badle dashna ik tez saa hotaa mire gham-khvaar ke paas dahan-e-sher mein jaa baiThe lekin ai dil na khaDe ho jiye khubaan-e-dil-aazaar ke paas dekh kar tujh ko chaman bas-ki numu kartaa hai khud-ba-khud pahunche hai gul gosha-e-dastaar ke paas mar gayaa phoD ke sar 'ghaalib'-e-vahshi hai hai baiThnaa us kaa vo aa kar tiri divaar ke paas kab faqiron ko rasaai bu-e-mai-khvaar ke paas to bane bu dijiye maikhaane ki divaar ke paas"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"kahe detaa huun go hai to nahin ye baat kahne ki tiri khvaahish nahin dil mein ziyaada der rahne ki bachaa kar dil guzartaa jaa rahaa huun har ta’alluq se kahaan us aable ko taab hai ab choT sahne ki rag-o-pai mein na hangaama kare to kyaa kare aakhir ijaazat jab nahin is ranj ko aankhon se bahne ki bas apni apni tarjihaat apni apni khvaahish hai tujhe shohrat kamaane ki mujhe ik she'r kahne ki jahaan kaa huun vahin ki raas aaegi fazaa mujh ko ye duniyaa bhi bhalaa koi jagah hai mere rahne ki jo kal 'irfaan' par guzri sunaa kuchh us ke baare mein khabar tum ne suni tufaan mein dariyaa ke bahne ki"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"