sochtaa huun main ki sochaa jaae kyaa — Chandrabhan Khayal

"kaun kahtaa hai mahv-e-khvaab huun main sach to vo hai ki inqalaab huun main zindagi kyaa hai aur maut hai kyaa in savaalaat kaa javaab huun main khauf khaati hai mujh se khaamoshi dasht mein gunjtaa rabaab huun main shahr ke bheDiyon se kyaa Darnaa jangli sher saa shabaab huun main har varaq jis kaa aag aur dhuaan daastaanon ki vo kitaab huun main tum andhere mein kyon chale aae raushni mein bhi be-hisaab huun main mujh ko jugnu kaa naam de ke na hans apni duniyaa kaa aaftaab huun main"

"nafrat ki siyaasat 'aam hui ikhlaas-o-mohabbat bhuul gae ham apne buzurgon ki hikmat paighaam-o-nasihat bhuul gae mazhab ke maqaasid ik jaise afkaar-o-‘aqaaed yak-rangi ik raah pe chalne vaale sab sadiyon ki rifaaqat bhuul gae ye mandir-o-masjid ke jhagDe ye shaikh-o-barahman ke qisse sab farq-o-zalaalat yaad magar imaan ki haraarat bhuul gae 'aashiq hain rasul-e-rab ke sabhi hain raam ke divaane bhi sabhi donon ki qayaadat ke haami kyon naqsh-e-qayaadat bhuul gae saavan ke vo jhulon ki shohrat ramzaan ke rozon ki barkat holi ki bahaaron ki halchal 'idon ki sa'aadat bhuul gae hain raam ke ghaazi saif-ba-kaf be-kaif namaazi sang-ba-kaf donon haq ke haami lekin haq hi ki haqiqat bhuul gae sab jangal kaaT diye lekin zehnon se vo vahshi-pan na gayaa aabaad hain shahron mein lekin tahzib-o-saqaafat bhuul gae"

"ho gai nangi ye duniyaa mere aage ik tamaasha hai anokhaa mere aage raqs-e-tufaan-e-havaadis hai ki jaise naachtaa ho koi bachcha mere aage ab nahin kuchh farq paDtaa tishnagi ko ik samundar ho ki sahraa mere aage har zamaane ko diye malbus jis ne vo barahna hai saraapaa mere aage ban rahe hain kuchh bahaane bebasi ke miT na jaae meri duniyaa mere aage mere pichhe 'ilm kaa suraj hai phir bhi chhaa rahaa hai kyon andheraa mere aage"

"paani se duur rah ke bhi tairaak ho gae ab saada-lauh log bhi chaalaak ho gae maanind-e-barq yaa ki thaa vo surat-e-sharar aise nazar uThaai ki ham khaak ho gae mushkil na thi to Darte nahin the kisi se ham mushkil mein aa ke aur bhi bebaak ho gae tanhaa rahe to khud kaa pata thaa na ghaib kaa un se mile to saahib-e-idraak ho gae ham ko achhut jaan ke dekho na duur se chhu kar hamein bhi log kai paak ho gae ki bandagi rasul-e-khudaa ki to dekhiye ham bhi 'khayaal' shaa'ir-e-laulaak ho gae"

"ek dil be-qaraar aur duniyaa har nafas sho'la-baar aur duniyaa zindagi ki yahi haqiqat hai aarzu intizaar aur duniyaa kar rahe hain zamin ko bechaara aag gard-o-ghubaar aur duniyaa kaise paaein sukun-e-qalb-o-nazar ranj-o-gham be-shumaar aur duniyaa kis tarah vasl-e-yaar ho mumkin khvaahishon kaa hisaar aur duniyaa kaun suljhaae ziist ki uljhan ek main baada-khvaar aur duniyaa chhoD khud par 'khayaal' itraanaa chand lamhe udhaar aur duniyaa"

"parda chehre se haTaae to ghazal ho jaae zindagi saamne aae to ghazal ho jaae sard saDkon pe sisakte hue sannaaTon kaa dard jab dil mein samaae to ghazal ho jaae soz har lafz ke siine mein nihaan hai ab bhi khaamushi saaz uThaae to ghazal ho jaae shahr-e-ehsaas agar narm lab-o-lahje mein daastaan apni sunaae to ghazal ho jaae din ke hangaamon mein gum-karda har ik fikr miri shab ki aaghosh mein aae to ghazal ho jaae kab se baiThaa huun khayaalaat kaa khema taane karb-e-takhliq sataae to ghazal ho jaae shaam-e-gham jaam-ba-kaf hai to is 'aalam mein 'khayaal' hosh bhi haath milaae to ghazal ho jaae"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"Tuut kar ab sanvar gayaa huun main is tarah se bikhar gayaa huun main jo tire naam ki gali hai vo us gali se guzar gayaa huun main yaadein teri sameT laayaa huun aaj jab se udhar gayaa huun main khud mukarnaa sikhaa diyaa us ne phir kahaa ki mukar gayaa huun main kal talak jo na kar sakaa thaa main aaj vo kaam kar gayaa huun main yuun kahin main nahin Thahartaa par tere dar par Thahar gayaa huun main"

"bistar-e-karb pe jab niind jalaai main ne tab kisi khvaab ki buniyaad uThaai main ne zakhm aise the ki har shakhs ke aage rakkhe baat aisi thi ki khud se bhi chhupaai main ne hurmat-e-gham ke liye khud ko aziyyat bakhshi phir usi dard se taskin bhi paai main ne main ne zakhmon ko kuredaa unhein taaza rakkhaa tab kahin dasht mein ki naghma-saraai main ne apni khiDki se yunhi khud ko pukaaraa kal shab aur phir khud ko vo aavaaz sunaai main ne jaane vaale se rag-e-jaan kaa bhi rishta thaa 'samir' ye samajhne mein bahut der lagaai main ne"

"zindagi dushvaar hogi ye kabhi sochaa na thaa vo bagule gham ke uTThe jin kaa andesha na thaa saamne tum aa gae ho to bataa duun jaan-e-jaan jaise dil dhaDkaa thaa ab ki vaise dil dhaDkaa na thaa ye iraada kar liyaa thaa ham na bichhDeinge kabhi TuTeinge ik pal mein rishte ye kabhi sochaa na thaa yaad-e-maazi miT rahi hai vaqt ki raftaar se ab tasavvur mein hamaare koi bhi chehra na thaa sakht hairat ho rahi hai dekh kar apnaa vajud dhuup mein the sab ke saaye par miraa saayaa na thaa shauq-e-manzil dekh meri dekh meraa hausla shahr-e-dil ke raaston mein main kabhi Thahraa na thaa 'qalb' ko sahraa-navardi raas kyaa aati bhalaa vo kabhi aavaargi mein dar-ba-dar bhaTkaa na thaa"

"jahaan-e-dard-o-gham hai aur main huun tiraa naqsh-e-qadam hai aur main huun kisi ki aankh nam hai aur main huun vufur-e-shauq kam hai aur main huun mujhe hai daulat-e-kaunain haasil mire rab kaa karam hai aur main huun main apne aap ko pahchaantaa huun miraa apnaa bharam hai aur main huun yahi kyaa kam hai duniyaa-e-vafaa mein mujhe ehsaas-e-gham hai aur main huun kisi ki yaad kaa ehsaan hai mujh par sukun-e-dil baham hai aur main huun mujhe 'mahmud' koi Dar nahin hai miraa apnaa qalam hai aur main huun"