zindagi dard se qarib rahe — Altaf Mashhadi

"nigaah-e-mast mein kyaa rang-e-vaalihaana thaa surur-o-kaif mein Duubaa huaa zamaana thaa kisi ki uThti javaani kaa jab zamaana thaa miri nigaah kaa har feal shaairaana thaa sitam-nasib ki allaah re sokhta bakhti hai bijliyon kaa nasheman jo aashiyaana thaa azal se qaid-e-anaasir ataa hui mujh ko mire nasib mein zindaan kaa aab-o-daana thaa vufur-e-dard se jab hichkiyaan si aane lagin har ek zakhm ke lab par miraa fasaana thaa shuru-e-ishq mein kyaa meri shaairi thi na puchh falak pe murgh-e-takhayyul kaa aashiyaana thaa vatan mein hazrat-e-'altaaf' zindagi apni bahaar khuld-e-mohabbat kaa ik fasaana thaa"

"dil-o-jigar ko mire daagh-daar rahne de kisi ki siine mein hai yaadgaar rahne de labon pe mauj-e-tabassum ho aankh mein aansu khizaan mein partav-e-rang-e-bahaar rahne de shikast-e-lazzat-e-girya hai karb-e-ruhaani main ashk-baar bhalaa ashk-baar rahne de nahin nahin mujhe raahat ki aarzu hi nahin isi tarah se mujhe be-qaraar rahne de na mauj-e-ashk hasinaan pe bhuul ai 'altaaf' na DhunD in mein dur-e-shaahvaar rahne de"

"kaun utraa nazar ke ziine se mahfil-e-dil saji qarine se shaikh-saahib mujhe aqidat hai gungunaate hue mahine se mai ko gul-rang kar diyaa kis ne khuun le kar kali ke siine se koi saahil na naakhudaa apnaa ham to maanus hain safine se kis kaa eajaaz hai ki rindon ko chain miltaa hai aag piine se pi ke jiite hain ji ke piite hain ham ko raghbat hai aise jiine se mai ki taqdis kaa javaab kahaan daagh dhulte hain dil ke piine se haae 'altaaf' vo urus-e-bahaar jhaankti hai jo aabgine se"

"leTaa huaa huun saaya-e-ghurbat mein ghar se duur dil se qarin hain ahl-e-vatan aur nazar se duur jab tak hai dil rahin-e-maaal-o-asir-e-aql rahnaa hai tujh se aur tiri rahguzar se duur ai kaif un ki mast nigaahon mein chhup ke aa ai dard-e-dam zadan mein ho mere jigar se duur ik din ulaTne vaali hai zaahid bisaat-e-zohd kab tak rahegaa dil nigah-e-fitna-gar se duur vo koi zindagi hai javaani hai vo koi ai dost jo hai tere jamaal-e-nazar se duur kyaa aai tere ji mein ki taqdir yuun mujhe pheinkaa hai laa ke vaadi-e-ghurbat mein ghar se duur ai husn-e-be-panaah bataae koi mujhe duniyaa ki kaun chiiz hai tere asar se duur allaah re nasib ki paai hai vo fughaan jo umr bhar rahi hai fareb-e-asar se duur 'altaaf' naaz apni gadaai pe hai mujhe daaman hai us kaa saaya-e-laal-o-gohar se duur"

"ye aankhon hi aankhon mein kyaa ho gae ham abhi jaagte the abhi so gae ham maqaam-e-tajassus ik aisaa bhi aayaa ki paayaa tujhe aur khud kho gae ham tire gham ko khud se bhi ham ne chhupaayaa magar phir bhi rusvaa-e-gham ho gae ham jo ab tak the zeb-e-qabaa-e-mohabbat kuchh aise bhi moti kabhi ro gae ham anaasir ne liin hichkiyaan saans ukhDi kahaa ishq ne jaavedaan ho gae ham ye mearaaj-e-dard-e-mohabbat hai shaayad ki teri nazar mein bhi gham bo gae ham taDapne mein 'altaaf' vo lazzatein thiin ki taDpe na ji bhar ke aur so gae ham"

"ho gai ishq mein badnaam javaani apni ban gai markaz-e-aalaam javaani apni maazi-o-haal hain mahrum-e-sharaab-o-naghma haae afsurda-o-naakaam javaani apni aah vo subh jo thi subh-e-bahaar-e-hasti hai usi subh ki ab shaam javaani apni ek taarik fazaa ek ghaTaa saa maahaul kisi muflis kaa hai anjaam javaani apni unhin raahon mein unhin mast-o-javaan galiyon mein laDkhaDaai hai bahar-gaam javaani apni ek vo din thaa ki mai-khaanon pe ham bhaari the aaj hai daur-e-tah-e-jaam javaani apni iktifaa kar ke khanakte hue roz-o-shab par ban gai ziist par ilzaam javaani apni din huaa dhuup chaDhi Dhal gae saae 'altaaf' ab hai ik bujhti hui shaam javaani apni"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"jis din se meraa khvaab suhaanaa badal gayaa us din se zindagi kaa fasaana badal gayaa sunne lagaa huun jab se nasihat baDon ki main jaari thaa jo labon pe taraana badal gayaa pahchaan kaa havaala bhi baaqi nahin rahaa chehre ke saath aaina-khaana badal gayaa uThti nahin hai aankh bhi ab aasmaan ki samt jab se gali kaa chaand puraanaa badal gayaa tahzib jin ke ghar ki 'alaamat thi kal talak afsos aaj un kaa gharaanaa badal gayaa 'azmat kaa taaj sar pe hai 'akhilesh' ke sajaa aisi havaa chali ki zamaana badal gayaa itni sharaafaton mein kami aa gai hai aaj pahle thaa jo libaas puraanaa badal gayaa ahl-e-vafaa ne jis ki thi taarikh ki raqam 'faaruq' 'ishq kaa vo fasaana badal gayaa"

"tirgi shama bani raahguzar mein aai saaat ik aisi bhi kal apne safar mein aai jis jagah chehra hi meyaar-e-vafaa Thahraa hai khaak hi khaak vahaan dast-e-hunar mein aai teri nazron mein thi duniyaa to yahi kyaa kam thaa hashr ye hai ki tu duniyaa ki nazar mein aai baar-haa yaaron ne saahil se kahaa thaa ham hain baar-haa naav magar apni bhanvar mein aai zindagi samjhun ise yaa ki ise maut kahun vo jo mehmaan ki surat mire ghar mein aai yuun bhi taarikh ki taarikh raqam hoti hai nikli taarikh mahal se to khanDar mein aai khvaab hi khvaab ki taabir huaa to jaanaa zindagi kyuun kisi aankhon ke asar mein aai shama jalte hi bujhi aur dhuaan aisaa uThaa lazzat-e-shaam yahaan khvaab-e-sahar mein aai zindagi kuchh hai 'ataa' sher-o-adab hai kuchh aur ye do-rangi ki vabaa kaisi hunar mein aai"

"khaamushi ke batn se ye guftani paidaa hui main ba-zaahir chup huaa aur shaaeri paidaa hui is tarah saabit huaa gham aur khushi kaa imtizaaj hanste hanste us ki aankhon mein nami paidaa hui jurm ki paadaash mein ham khaak par pheinke gae so yahaan par intiqaaman zindagi paidaa hui khauf ne hi maslahat ki raah bhi ijaad ki main andheron se Daraa aur raushni paidaa hui dil mein kab utri kisi ke be-maaani guftugu baat karne se to bas aavaaz hi paidaa hui"

"shab ki taarik raahdaari hai aur miraa khauf iztiraari hai sabz khvaabon ki kam se kam qimat zindagi bhar ki ashk-baari hai ik musallat-shuda tamaddun ko ye na kahiye ki ikhtiyaari hai shash-jihaati mushaahida hai miyaan tajrabon ki sanad pe bhaari hai shukriya aap ki mohabbat kaa dil kaa maqsum sogvaari hai tajziye sun ke muskuraa denaa apni itni hi zimmedaari hai"

"ye hai mai-kada yahaan rind hain yahaan sab kaa saaqi imaam hai ye haram nahin hai ai shaikh ji yahaan paarsaai haraam hai jo zaraa si pi ke bahak gayaa use mai-kade se nikaal do yahaan tang-nazar kaa guzar nahin yahaan ahl-e-zarf kaa kaam hai koi mast hai koi tishna-lab to kisi ke haath mein jaam hai magar is pe koi kare bhi kyaa ye to mai-kade kaa nizaam hai ye janaab-e-shaikh kaa falsafa hai 'ajib saare jahaan se jo vahaan piyo to halaal hai jo yahaan piyo to haraam hai tujhe apne husn kaa vaasta mere shauq-e-did pa rahm khaa zaraa muskuraa ke naqaab uThaa ki nazar ko shauq-e-salaam hai na sunnaa to huur o qusur ki ye hikaayatein mujhe vaa'izaa koi baat kar dar-e-yaar ki dar-e-yaar hi se to kaam hai na to e'tikaaf se kuchh gharaz na savaab-o-zuhd se vaasta tiri diid aisi namaaz hai na sujud hai na qayaam hai ye durust ki 'aib hai mai-kashi ye ba-jaa ki baada haraam hai magar ab savaal ye aa paDaa ki tumhaare haath mein jaam hai jo uThi to subh-e-davaam thi jo jhuki to shaam hi shaam thi tiri chashm-e-mast mein saaqiyaa miri zindagi kaa nizaam hai miraa farz hai ki paDaa rahun tiri baargaah mein saaqiyaa koi tishna-lab hai ki sair hai yahi dekhnaa tiraa kaam hai isi kaaenaat mein ai 'jigar' koi inqalaab uThegaa phir ki buland ho ke bhi aadmi abhi khvaahishon kaa ghulaam hai"