main bhi bikhraa huaa huun apnon mein — Alok Mishra

kyuun bataataa nahin koi kuchh bhi
aakhir aisaa bhi kyaa huaa hai mujhe

khud-kushi jaisi koi baat nahin
ik zaraa mujh ko bad-gumaani hai

mujhe pata hai ki rone se kuchh nahin hotaa
nayaa saa dukh hai to thoDaa chhalak gayaa huun main

sab sitaare dilaasa dete hain
chaand raaton ko chikhtaa hai bahut

kyaa zarurat hai mujh ko chehre ki
kaun chehre se jaantaa hai mujhe

ajiib khvaab thaa aankhon mein niind chhoD gayaa
ki niind guzri hai mujh ko zalil karte hue

gham hai na ab khushi hai na ummid hai na yaas
sab se najaat paae zamaane guzar gae

ye aansu ponchh lijiye aur muskuraaiye
chaara nahin hai koi bhi rukhsat kiye baghair

jab ki pahlu se yaar uThtaa hai
dard be-ikhtiyaar uThtaa hai

husn jalva dikhaa gayaa apnaa
ishq baiThaa rahaa udaas kahin

meri chaadar to chhini thi shaam ki tanhaai mein
be-ridaai ko miri phir de gayaa tashhir kaun

go mujhe ehsaas-e-tanhaai rahaa shiddat ke saath
kaaT di aadhi sadi ek ajnabi aurat ke saath