kis shakhs ki talaash mein sar phoDti rahi — Sarmad Sahbai

"kaun hai kis ne pukaaraa hai sadaa kaise hui ye kiran taariki-e-shab se rihaa kaise hui ek ik pal mein utar kar sochtaa rahtaa huun main nuur kis kaa hai mire khuun mein ziyaa kaise hui khvaahishein aaein kahaan se kyuun uchhaltaa hai lahu rut hari kyunkar hui paagal havaa kaise hui us ke jaane kaa yaqin to hai magar uljhan mein huun phuul ke haathon se ye khush-bu judaa kaise hui vo machaa hai ghul ki barham ho gai hain suratein kaun kis kis se ye puchhegaa khataa kaise hui jism o jaan kaa faasla hai haasil-e-gard-e-safar justuju-e-zindagi teraa pataa kaise hui hans diyaa thaa sun ke vo 'sarmad' bas itnaa yaad hai baat us ke saamne lekin adaa kaise hui"

"raushni rangon mein simTaa huaa dhokaa hi na ho main jise jism samajhtaa huun vo saayaa hi na ho aaina TuuT gayaa chuntaa huun reza reza isi aaine mein meraa kahin chehraa hi na ho main to divaar ke is paar ravaan huun kab se koi divaar ke us paar bhi chaltaa hi na ho vo jo suntaa hai miri baat baDe ghaur ke saath baad jaane ke mire mujh pe vo hanstaa hi na ho jaagti aankhon mein kyuun phailtaa jaataa hai khalaa khaa gai hai jise duuri tiraa rasta hi na ho moD har raah pe paanv se lipaT jaate hain vo mujhe chhoD ke chal de kahin aisaa hi na ho us ke milne pe bhi mahsus huaa hai 'sarmad' us ne dekhaa hi na ho main ne bulaayaa hi na ho"

"sadaa-e-girya jo har shaam ghar se aati hai ye baazgasht hai divaar-o-dar se aati hai kabhi jo aaya nahin aur kabhi na aaegaa usi ki chaap har ik rah-guzar se aati hai kaDakti dhuup mein bhi dil ko ik tasalli hai na jaane chhaanv si ye kis shajar se aati hai jise bhi dekhein vo aaraaish-e-talab mein hai mataa'-e-be-talabi kis hunar se aati hai chamak damak hai vahi jagmagaate raston par phir itni tirgi yaa-rab kidhar se aati hai ye kaun log hain jo saath chal rahe hain mire ki bu-e-ghair mujhe ham-safar se aati hai shab-e-siyaah mein taara na hai charaagh koi jo raushni hai kisi chashm-e-tar se aati hai ye irti'aash-e-nafas hai ravish kitaabat ki jo raushnaai hai daagh-e-jigar se aati hai dikhaai deti hai tasvir-e-ghaib kab 'sarmad' nazar jo aati hai teri nazar se aati hai"

"dam junun ki had-e-intihaa pe Thahraa hai ye meraa dil hai abhi ibtidaa pe Thahraa hai usi ke lams se aab-o-havaa badalti hai tamaam manzar-e-jaan ik adaa pe Thahraa hai kanaar-e-kun se pare hai kahin vajud apnaa ye kaarvaan to ghubaar-e-sadaa pe Thahraa hai kuchh aur der numaaish hai shor-o-shar ki yahaan ye ik habaab hai mauj-e-fanaa pe Thahraa hai shuaa-e-subh bun-e-gosh mein utarti hai zavaal-e-mehr ki dast-e-hinaa pe Thahraa hai shab-e-siyaah sar-e-khaal mein simaTti hai sitaara TuuT ke band-e-qabaa pe Thahraa hai nafas nafas mein bhaDakti hai dil ki lau 'sarmad' ajab charaagh hai ye baam-e-hu pe Thahraa hai"

"aankhon se pare niind ki raftaar mein rahnaa har pal kisi naa-did ke didaar mein rahnaa kho jaanaa use dekh ke uryaan ke safar mein chhute hi use hajla-e-asraar mein rahnaa ik khvaab-e-darida ko rag-e-harf se siinaa phir le ke use kucha-o-baazaar mein rahnaa khud apne ko hi dekh ke hairaan saa honaa nargis ki tarah mausam-e-bimaar mein rahnaa marnaa yunhi abresham-o-kam-khvaab-e-havas mein dam toD ke zinda kabhi divaar mein rahnaa hasrat si liye khilqat-e-maasum mein phirnaa saazish ki tarah gardish-e-darbaar mein rahnaa hai bakht sitaaron kaa un aankhon mein chamaknaa aur gul kaa muqaddar lab-o-rukhsaar mein rahnaa raunaq si liye shahr ke raston pe bikharnaa tanhaai ki surat dar-o-divaar mein rahnaa 'sarmad' tapish-e-naar-e-sukhan mein huun ki mujh ko gul kartaa rahaa shola-o-angaar mein rahnaa"

"ho laag darmiyaan to koi dil bhi tab lagaae baiThe raho umiid yunhi be-sabab lagaae jo qarz-e-hijr saunp gayaa 'umr ke 'evaz shart-e-visaal us se kahin be-talab lagaae kis jeb-e-ehtiyaat mein rakkhein mataa-e-dil baiThaa nahin kahaan pe vo rahzan naqab lagaae khultaa nahin hai uqda shab-e-intizaar kaa yaaron ne daav pech yahaan sab ke sab lagaae chaaron taraf hai aag magar darmiyaan-e-shahr baiThaa hai yaar majlis-e-jashn-e-tarab lagaae baazaar-e-'ishq sard paDaa nazr-e-jaan ke baa'd ab koi naqd-e-naam yaa naqd-e-nasab lagaae phirte hain le ke bint-e-fasaahat ko mirzaa apne taiin khudaa-e-sukhan kaa laqab lagaae is khvaancha-e-sukhan pe to 'sarmad' guzar nahin us se kahein hamein vo kisi aur Dhab lagaae"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"jis din se meraa khvaab suhaanaa badal gayaa us din se zindagi kaa fasaana badal gayaa sunne lagaa huun jab se nasihat baDon ki main jaari thaa jo labon pe taraana badal gayaa pahchaan kaa havaala bhi baaqi nahin rahaa chehre ke saath aaina-khaana badal gayaa uThti nahin hai aankh bhi ab aasmaan ki samt jab se gali kaa chaand puraanaa badal gayaa tahzib jin ke ghar ki 'alaamat thi kal talak afsos aaj un kaa gharaanaa badal gayaa 'azmat kaa taaj sar pe hai 'akhilesh' ke sajaa aisi havaa chali ki zamaana badal gayaa itni sharaafaton mein kami aa gai hai aaj pahle thaa jo libaas puraanaa badal gayaa ahl-e-vafaa ne jis ki thi taarikh ki raqam 'faaruq' 'ishq kaa vo fasaana badal gayaa"

"tirgi shama bani raahguzar mein aai saaat ik aisi bhi kal apne safar mein aai jis jagah chehra hi meyaar-e-vafaa Thahraa hai khaak hi khaak vahaan dast-e-hunar mein aai teri nazron mein thi duniyaa to yahi kyaa kam thaa hashr ye hai ki tu duniyaa ki nazar mein aai baar-haa yaaron ne saahil se kahaa thaa ham hain baar-haa naav magar apni bhanvar mein aai zindagi samjhun ise yaa ki ise maut kahun vo jo mehmaan ki surat mire ghar mein aai yuun bhi taarikh ki taarikh raqam hoti hai nikli taarikh mahal se to khanDar mein aai khvaab hi khvaab ki taabir huaa to jaanaa zindagi kyuun kisi aankhon ke asar mein aai shama jalte hi bujhi aur dhuaan aisaa uThaa lazzat-e-shaam yahaan khvaab-e-sahar mein aai zindagi kuchh hai 'ataa' sher-o-adab hai kuchh aur ye do-rangi ki vabaa kaisi hunar mein aai"

"khaamushi ke batn se ye guftani paidaa hui main ba-zaahir chup huaa aur shaaeri paidaa hui is tarah saabit huaa gham aur khushi kaa imtizaaj hanste hanste us ki aankhon mein nami paidaa hui jurm ki paadaash mein ham khaak par pheinke gae so yahaan par intiqaaman zindagi paidaa hui khauf ne hi maslahat ki raah bhi ijaad ki main andheron se Daraa aur raushni paidaa hui dil mein kab utri kisi ke be-maaani guftugu baat karne se to bas aavaaz hi paidaa hui"

"shab ki taarik raahdaari hai aur miraa khauf iztiraari hai sabz khvaabon ki kam se kam qimat zindagi bhar ki ashk-baari hai ik musallat-shuda tamaddun ko ye na kahiye ki ikhtiyaari hai shash-jihaati mushaahida hai miyaan tajrabon ki sanad pe bhaari hai shukriya aap ki mohabbat kaa dil kaa maqsum sogvaari hai tajziye sun ke muskuraa denaa apni itni hi zimmedaari hai"

"ye hai mai-kada yahaan rind hain yahaan sab kaa saaqi imaam hai ye haram nahin hai ai shaikh ji yahaan paarsaai haraam hai jo zaraa si pi ke bahak gayaa use mai-kade se nikaal do yahaan tang-nazar kaa guzar nahin yahaan ahl-e-zarf kaa kaam hai koi mast hai koi tishna-lab to kisi ke haath mein jaam hai magar is pe koi kare bhi kyaa ye to mai-kade kaa nizaam hai ye janaab-e-shaikh kaa falsafa hai 'ajib saare jahaan se jo vahaan piyo to halaal hai jo yahaan piyo to haraam hai tujhe apne husn kaa vaasta mere shauq-e-did pa rahm khaa zaraa muskuraa ke naqaab uThaa ki nazar ko shauq-e-salaam hai na sunnaa to huur o qusur ki ye hikaayatein mujhe vaa'izaa koi baat kar dar-e-yaar ki dar-e-yaar hi se to kaam hai na to e'tikaaf se kuchh gharaz na savaab-o-zuhd se vaasta tiri diid aisi namaaz hai na sujud hai na qayaam hai ye durust ki 'aib hai mai-kashi ye ba-jaa ki baada haraam hai magar ab savaal ye aa paDaa ki tumhaare haath mein jaam hai jo uThi to subh-e-davaam thi jo jhuki to shaam hi shaam thi tiri chashm-e-mast mein saaqiyaa miri zindagi kaa nizaam hai miraa farz hai ki paDaa rahun tiri baargaah mein saaqiyaa koi tishna-lab hai ki sair hai yahi dekhnaa tiraa kaam hai isi kaaenaat mein ai 'jigar' koi inqalaab uThegaa phir ki buland ho ke bhi aadmi abhi khvaahishon kaa ghulaam hai"