qalam ko khuun mein gharqaab dekhte jaao — Abida Karamat

"hisaar mein liye be-naam ek vahshat thi yahi mataa' yahi zindagi ki qimat thi kahin qiyaam bhi karte to bad-gumaan rahte hamaare pair se lipTi hui vo hijrat thi tiri talaash faqat zaad-e-raah thi ham ko vagarna ham ko faqat apni hi zarurat thi tamaam 'umr vafaadaar hi rahe apne baraae zakhm tire haath pe bhi bai'at thi milein to pursish-e-ahvaal bhi zaruri thaa ye guftugu bhi koi surat-e-mohabbat thi thakan hi de ke gayaa zaat kaa safar mujh ko ki ye bhi raaegaan shaayad koi masaafat thi zamin pe bojh se apne giri thiin divaarein ye aur baat ki barsaat se shikaayat thi havaa ki zad pe hi aa kar charaagh bujhnaa thaa vagarna phir to rivaayaat se baghaavat thi"

"koi baDh kar sitam mujh par sitam-ijaad kyaa kartaa basaayaa hi nahin jis ko use barbaad kyaa kartaa sikhaayaa bolnaa us ko zabaan-e-be-zabaani se agar lab khol leti main vo phir irshaad kyaa kartaa kahaan qad naaptaa meraa bhalaa ye sher-e-kam-qaamat so meraa sher bhi paa kar siyaasi daad kyaa kartaa nikal vo khud nahin paataa shikanj-e-zaat se apni jo apni qaid mein khud ho mujhe aazaad kyaa kartaa jahaan baazu rasan-basta jahaan qadghan ho lafzon par koi zanjir kyaa hilti koi fariyaad kyaa kartaa agar fitrat ho simaabi tabiat bhi ho sailaani dar-o-divaar kyaa rakhtaa vo ghar aabaad kyaa kartaa rihaai zulm se us ke mayassar aur mumkin thi magar main ne yahi sochaa vo mere baad kyaa kartaa"

"‘uqde khule na mujh pe tire khad-o-khaal ke har saans chal diyaa mujhe uljhan mein Daal ke jo khud ganvaa chukaa hai kahin 'umr-e-mo'tabar vo kyaa hisaab degaa mire maah-o-saal ke aae the meri bazm mein kuchh jam sifaat log jalve na kam hue mire jaam-e-sifaal ke main kyaa huun sirf itnaa hi puchhaa thaa ek din kitne javaab degaa mujhe is savaal ke aandhi ki tarh aa ke chalaa bhi gayaa kahin kankar saa koi vo miri aankhon mein Daal ke jo bhi milaa thaa daulat-e-dil us pe vaar di rakkhaa na koi main ne khazaana sanbhaal ke vo aane vaale vaqt ke tevar samajh gayaa main rishte joDti rahi maazi ke haal ke"

"nadi ehsaas ki chaDhti rahi hai vafaa ki raah mein baDhti rahi hai kisi se jang kyaa laDki kare vo jo apne aap se laDti rahi hai bulandi par pahunch kar kyaa vo pighle pahaaDon par baraf paDti rahi hai sitaara ban ke teri raah mein hai jo afshaan maang se jhaDti rahi hai tumhaare haq mein kaise faisla duun anaa mujh se miri aDti rahi hai bachaa kar qabr se le aae jis ko dar-o-divaar mein gaDti rahi hai"

"kisi khushi kaa mire dil ko e'tibaar na de jo e'tibaar agar de to be-shumaar na de rasan ho ruuh ko aur paanv ki bane zanjir kisi nigaah ko ab mujh pe ikhtiyaar na de amaan mein aa ke bhi jis ki main be-amaan rahun kisi bhi aisi nazar kaa mujhe hisaar na de main tere fan ki go takhliq-e-be-bahaa hi sahi de iftikhaar mujhe zo'm-e-iftikhaar na de bhalaa bahut hai mohabbat mein dard-e-maayusi khudaa kisi ko kabhi zakhm-e-intizaar na de"

"aag ke safar mein jab raakh kaa badan hogaa ek saans lenaa bhi zindagi kaa fan hogaa jo bhi main ne sochaa thaa vo hi ab ke likkhaa hai tang aur bhi ab ke halqa-e-rasan hogaa manzilein bhi naa-maa'lum raaste bhi laa-mahdud ye safar bhi lagtaa hai baa'is-e-thakan hogaa us ne meri shaakhon ko is tarah numu bakhshi zakhm ke khileinge phuul dard kaa chaman hogaa ham ko phir zamaane tak log yaad rakkheinge sar ki hogaa neze par jism be-kafan hogaa sina-e-mohabbat mein dard jab nahin hotaa saaz be-sure honge she'r be-vazan hogaa"

"is ishq-e-junun-khez mein kyaa kyaa nahin hotaa divaana hai jo qais se lailaa nahin hotaa kuchh hashr lahad par abhi barpaa nahin hotaa aae ho to Thahro koi zinda nahin hotaa kyuun kar ye kahun husn kaa nashsha nahin hotaa hotaa to bahut hai magar itnaa nahin hotaa kuchh kahiye to sharmaa ke jhukaa lete hain gardan bhule se bhi ab vaada-e-fardaa nahin hotaa milte hain vo dil surkh hui jaati hai chuTki naazuk hain bahut khun-e-tamannaa nahin hotaa deti hai mazaa mai kaa hamein talkhi-e-tauba jab haath mein paimaana-e-sahbaa nahin hotaa vo hashr ke din kushte ko Thukraa chuke sau-baar kuchh jaan si paD jaati hai zinda nahin hotaa boli ye tamannaa jo ruke vo dar-e-dil par ghar aap kaa hai aap se pardaa nahin hotaa tiron ko jagah dete hain jo siine mein apne un logon ke ai jaan kaleja nahin hotaa sahraa se qadam ghar ki taraf khaak uThaaun kaanTe se judaa paanv kaa chhaalaa nahin hotaa baiThe nazar aate hain vahi teri gali mein jin kaa kahin duniyaa mein Thikaanaa nahin hotaa furqat mein hai kyuun nazaa ki taklif gavaaraa mar jaaein 'riyaaz' aap se itnaa nahin hotaa"

"hai jo ik maa'raka faisal nahin hone detaa jin vo ho ke mujhe botal nahin hone detaa qatl ik roz hi kartaa huun isi goshe mein aur saabit ise maqtal nahin hone detaa zid hai us ki ki har ik shaakh ho phir sabz hi sabz garche paidaa koi konpal nahin hone detaa raushni apne khayaalon hi se karni hogi koi raushan kahin mash'al nahin hone detaa chun-ki miTTi ki bhi ek apni alag khushbu hai main kahin bhi ise sandal nahin hone detaa ik parinda ki jo sahtaa hai havaaon kaa dabaao aur parvaaz ko paidal nahin hone detaa Dar hai us ko nazar aae na kahin zehn kaa 'aks vo miraa aaina saiqal nahin hone detaa tiraa qaanun hai jangal kaa ghanimat hai ki tu mire is shahr ko jangal nahin hone detaa chalo baat us ki sunein ek 'ajab mantiq se jo kisi baat ko muhmal nahin hone detaa"

"muzhda ai zauq-e-asiri ki nazar aataa hai daam-e-khaali qafas-e-murgh-e-giraftaar ke paas jigar-e-tishna-e-aazaar tasalli na huaa ju-e-khun ham ne bahaai bun-e-har khaar ke paas mund gaiin kholte hi kholte aankhein hai hai khuub vaqt aae tum is 'aashiq-e-bimaar ke paas main bhi ruk ruk ke na martaa jo zabaan ke badle dashna ik tez saa hotaa mire gham-khvaar ke paas dahan-e-sher mein jaa baiThe lekin ai dil na khaDe ho jiye khubaan-e-dil-aazaar ke paas dekh kar tujh ko chaman bas-ki numu kartaa hai khud-ba-khud pahunche hai gul gosha-e-dastaar ke paas mar gayaa phoD ke sar 'ghaalib'-e-vahshi hai hai baiThnaa us kaa vo aa kar tiri divaar ke paas kab faqiron ko rasaai bu-e-mai-khvaar ke paas to bane bu dijiye maikhaane ki divaar ke paas"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"kahe detaa huun go hai to nahin ye baat kahne ki tiri khvaahish nahin dil mein ziyaada der rahne ki bachaa kar dil guzartaa jaa rahaa huun har ta’alluq se kahaan us aable ko taab hai ab choT sahne ki rag-o-pai mein na hangaama kare to kyaa kare aakhir ijaazat jab nahin is ranj ko aankhon se bahne ki bas apni apni tarjihaat apni apni khvaahish hai tujhe shohrat kamaane ki mujhe ik she'r kahne ki jahaan kaa huun vahin ki raas aaegi fazaa mujh ko ye duniyaa bhi bhalaa koi jagah hai mere rahne ki jo kal 'irfaan' par guzri sunaa kuchh us ke baare mein khabar tum ne suni tufaan mein dariyaa ke bahne ki"