ek ehsaas-e-ziyaan chhoDegaa — Ausaf Shaikh

"hai bapaa ik hashr saa divaar par kaun paDhtaa hai likhaa divaar par main ne puchhaa kyaa pas-e-divaar hai us ne likkhaa daaera divaar par aao aadaab-e-mohabbat siikh lo likh diyaa hai zaabta divaar par ab na chhaaegaa tilism-e-tirgi chhoD aayaa huun diyaa divaar par sar uThaati sar paTakhti hai nadi muskuraataa hai ghaDaa divaar par chhoD di teri gali teraa nagar paDh chukaa huun faisla divaar par phir koi aangan hai kam lagne lagaa phir khaDaa hai masala divaar par is liye 'ausaaf' chhoD aayaa huun ghar phir na guzre saaneha divaar par"

"kab utregaa ruuh se gaaraa miTTi kaa miTTi ki hai jhiil kinaaraa miTTi kaa main ne har dam ki dildaari miTTi ki main ne har dam qarz utaaraa miTTi kaa main ne chaudah chaand kiye hain jis ke naam us ne bhejaa ek sitaaraa miTTi kaa miTTi ko raundaa miTTi kaa khuun kiyaa hogaa aakhir-kaar ijaara miTTi kaa aankhon mein hai sahraaon saa sunaa-pan paanv ke niche hai angaara miTTi kaa main ne paanv jamaa rakkhe 'ausaaf' yahaan main ne samjhaa saaf ishaara miTTi kaa"

"ajab dekhaa hai manzar daaere mein simaT aayaa samundar daaere mein kahin to khatm ho kaisaa safar hai phiraa huun zindagi bhar daaere mein tu faateh hai khule maidaan kaa maanaa khulegaa teraa jauhar daaere mein tu meri aankh se dariyaa churaa le main laaungaa samundar daaere mein main teraa vaqt huun mat rok mujh ko main tere saath huun har daaere mein ai mere ham-nafas likkhaa gayaa hai tiraa meraa muqaddar daaere mein mujhe TukDon mein baanTaa jaa rahaa hai bapaa hai ek mahshar daaere mein main jis ki khoj mein 'ausaaf' gum huun vo aayaa hai baraabar daaere mein"

"khiDkiyaan suuni dar-o-divaar chup saari galiyaan aur bhare baazaar chup kis qayaamat ki khabar aane ko hai gaanv ke chaupaal chup akhbaar chup darmiyaan hai khauf kaa dariyaa ravaan main yahaan khaamosh vo us paar chup ik sadaa us ko bulaane ke liye ik sadaa aae mujhe har baar chup kaisaa qaht-e-aadmiyyat hai yahaan zindagaani ke sabhi aasaar chup kis qayaamat kaa hai ye tanhaa safar raaste chup raah ke ashjaar chup main ne to insaaf maangaa thaa magar aaj hai 'ausaaf' har darbaar chup"

"Thahar gayaa hai ek hi manzar kamre mein main teri tasvir december kamre mein main teri yaadon ki baarish tez havaa tanhaa bhiig rahaa hai bistar kamre mein main dariyaa ke paar ki soch rahaa huun aur dar aayaa hai ek samundar kamre mein le aai hai galiyon mein ik aag mujhe chhoD aayaa huun ThanDaa bistar kamre mein khauf-zada hain ghar ki saari divaarein Deraa Daale baiThaa hai Dar kamre mein aangan mein hai jaari raqs havaaon kaa sahmaa baiThaa ek qalandar kamre mein kaun khizaan mein phuul khilaane aayaa hai kis ki khushbu hai ye banjar kamre mein aangan mein hai sune-pan kaa raaj 'ausaaf' chikh rahi hai tanhaai har kamre mein"

"bas mohabbat mein tiraa hijr kamaayaa huaa hai aur is hijr ko aangan mein ugaayaa huaa hai tu jise dasht samajhtaa hai ye ab dasht nahin main ne is dasht mein ik shahr basaayaa huaa hai ye jo ik raushni pahlu se mire phuTti hai ye vahi zakhm hai jo tu ne lagaayaa huaa hai aankh suraj se milaate hue katraataa huun main ne aankhon mein koi chaand basaayaa huaa hai ruThnaa bhi nahin aataa na manaanaa tujh ko pyaar ko tu ne tamaashaa saa banaayaa huaa hai vo mohabbat kaa vo giit sunaataa hai mujhe main ne 'ausaaf' jo logon ko sikhaayaa huaa hai"

"charaaghon se kuchh to churaayaa gayaa hai jo thi aag us ko bujhaayaa gayaa hai likhaa thaa jinhein sirf apne lahu se mire un khaton ko jalaayaa gayaa hai hazaaron daf'a us ne ki bevafaai mujhe bevafaa kyon bataayaa gayaa hai mujhe khud nikalnaa paDaa apne ghar se ye mat sochnaa ki bhagaayaa gayaa hai khabar ye mili hai ki mere hi ghar mein kisi ghair ko ab basaayaa gayaa hai mujhe hi sataa kar mujhe hi rulaa kar ye ilzaam mujh par lagaayaa gayaa hai tumhein kyaa bataaun mohabbat mein 'raavat' mujhe kis qadar aazmaayaa gayaa hai"

"kyaa apne shahr mein koi aisaa makaan hai samjhun jise ki asl mein vo ik jahaan hai DhunDo haqiqat is mein na afsaana hi koi is kaa bayaan kuchh nahin us kaa bayaan hai apnaa shi'aar ab hai faqat amn-dushmani ye aur baat faakhta apnaa nishaan hai likhne ko ek harf na kahne ko ek lafz yuun to qalam hai haath mein munh mein zabaan hai vo lams jis ke baa'd zamaane guzar gae vo lams ab bhi taaza hai ab bhi javaan hai ho jaaegaa yaqin sabhon kaa hi kal jo aaj meraa yaqin aur sabhon kaa gumaan hai shatranj ki bisaat ki thi apni mez par shatranj ki bisaat ki saaraa jahaan hai"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"zindagi dushvaar hogi ye kabhi sochaa na thaa vo bagule gham ke uTThe jin kaa andesha na thaa saamne tum aa gae ho to bataa duun jaan-e-jaan jaise dil dhaDkaa thaa ab ki vaise dil dhaDkaa na thaa ye iraada kar liyaa thaa ham na bichhDeinge kabhi TuTeinge ik pal mein rishte ye kabhi sochaa na thaa yaad-e-maazi miT rahi hai vaqt ki raftaar se ab tasavvur mein hamaare koi bhi chehra na thaa sakht hairat ho rahi hai dekh kar apnaa vajud dhuup mein the sab ke saaye par miraa saayaa na thaa shauq-e-manzil dekh meri dekh meraa hausla shahr-e-dil ke raaston mein main kabhi Thahraa na thaa 'qalb' ko sahraa-navardi raas kyaa aati bhalaa vo kabhi aavaargi mein dar-ba-dar bhaTkaa na thaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"

"na koi dost ho meraa na ho adu meraa tum apne munh se agar kah do mujh ko tu meraa fasurdagi mein junun-e-havaa-e-gul yaani khizaan ke daur mein saudaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa jo tum nahin to bahaar-e-jinaan mein khaak nahin bahut vasia hai daamaan-e-aarzu meraa nibhegi ai dil-e-aavaara ab na tujh se miri bas aaj se na main teraa huun aur na tu meraa banaa rahe hain vo jalve ki apne tasvirein dikhaa dikhaa ke tamaashaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa kisi ki zulf-e-siyah kah rahi hai khul khul kar ghaTaa ne rang uDaayaa hai hu-ba-hu meraa mah-e-siyaam kaa aur intizaam kyaa karte janaab-e-shaikh uDaa le gae subu meraa jafaa kaa rang judaa hai vafaa kaa rang judaa malo na dast-e-hinaai mein tum lahu meraa taDap rahi hai jo abr-e-siyaah mein bijli firaaq mein yahi naqsha thaa hu-ba-hu meraa suhaani raat hai chhiTki hai chaandni 'muztar' miri nigaah mein phirtaa hai maah-ru meraa"