ek ujli umang uDaai thi — Afzaal Naveed

"khaali huaa gilaas nasha sar mein aa gayaa dariyaa utar gayaa to samundar mein aa gayaa yakjaai kaa tilism rahaa taari TuuT kar vo saamne se haT ke baraabar mein aa gayaa jaa kar jahaan pe rakkhaa thaa honaa kiyaa durust itnaa saa kaam kar ke main pal bhar mein aa gayaa lekin baDaai kaa koi ehsaas kab rahaa chakkar thaa duniyaa-daari kaa chakkar mein aa gayaa aa jaa ke munhasir rahaa nigaraani par tamaam aksar se jaa rahaa kabhi aksar mein aa gayaa yak gosha-e-vajud mein rakkhaa qayaam kuchh baahar baDaa fasaad thaa so ghar mein aa gayaa TuuTaa kahin se aur giraa sahn mein mire saaraa parinda yuun lagaa is par mein aa gayaa aavaaz dungaa saath mire aa sako to aao thoDaa jo aur haalat-e-behtar mein aa gayaa duniyaa ke khvaab dekhte guzraa tamaam roz uThte hi khvaab-e-asl se daftar mein aa gayaa jaagungaa jab sadaa-e-uluhi sunungaa kuchh jaanungaa jab parinda sanobar mein aa gayaa shaayad nazaare ki yahi be-hayyati rahi manzar se jaane par koi manzar mein aa gayaa hilnaa paDe na taaki kisi ranj par mujhe saare kaa saaraa main kisi patthar mein aa gayaa khud ko qayaam karne pe targhib dungaa main koi jo ism kal mire mantar mein aa gayaa be-martaba bhi saans kaa lenaa giraan na thaa taqdis kaa khayaal muqaddar mein aa gayaa baazaar mein nigaah na dil par paDi tiri naayaab jins-e-dahr thaa vaafar mein aa gayaa sayyaargaan to apni ravish par the gaamzan lekin 'naved' tu kahaan chakkar mein aa gayaa"

"baagh kyaa kyaa shajar dikhaate hain ham bhi apne samar dikhaate hain aa tujhe be-khabar dikhaate hain haalat-e-naama-bar dikhaate hain kuchh mazaahir hain jo nagar mein hamein dusraa hi nagar dikhaate hain ruh-e-mutlaq mein 'ishq jazb huaa 'arsh kaa kaam kar dikhaate hain khud to pahunche hue hain manzil par paanv ko dar-ba-dar dikhaate hain ham ko matlub khud se jaanaa hai vaan nahin hain jidhar dikhaate hain kitnaa phailaav raqs-e-aab mein hai apne sar se utar dikhaate hain aa dikhaate hain tujh ko apnaa aap aur dil khol kar dikhaate hain aa karaate hain sair-e-dil tujh ko aa tujhe bahr-o-bar dikhaate hain jab dikhaani ho raunaq-e-raftaar vo yahaan se guzar dikhaate hain uThte paani si lahr lene se vo sar se paa tak kamar dikhaate hain kaun suraj hamaari aankhon ko khvaab-e-shaam-o-sahar dikhaate hain raah-e-dushvaar jab nahin kaTti vo koi baat kar dikhaate hain mat uThaa ab koi nai divaar ham tujhe apnaa sar dikhaate hain chaandni kyaa kahin pe bikhregi tere dar par bikhar dikhaate hain dekh ik tangi-e-qayaamat-khez ham tujhe apnaa ghar dikhaate hain baam-e-aflaak se utaar hamein haath par diip dhar dikhaate hain asl rukh kaa nahin hai ushr-e-ashir jo hamein chaara-gar dikhaate hain kuchh to mazmun bane-banaae hain aur kuchh baandh kar dikhaate hain ghamza-haa-e-pas-e-nazaara 'naved' ham ko raah-e-safar dikhaate hain"

"mai se vo jaam-e-jism hai jab se bharaa huaa sar hai futur-e-khvaahish-e-shab se bharaa huaa dil hai ki jaantaa hai junun kaa maaal bhi sar hai ki phir bhi shor-o-shaghab se bharaa huaa ghaflat-shiaar dil pe koi raat Daal kar jaataa hai mehr ghaiz-o-ghazab se bharaa huaa divaar-e-mai-kadaa koi raste mein aa gai varna ye jaam hai koi ab se bharaa huaa haTtaa nahin nigaah-e-alamnaak se kabhi chehra koi khumaar-e-tarab se bharaa huaa"

"subu uThaaun to piine ke biich khulti hai koi gali mere siine ke biich khulti hai tamaam raat sitaare talaash karte hain vo chaandni kisi ziine ke biich khulti hai tu dekhtaa hai to tashkil paane lagtaa huun miri bisaat nagine ke biich khulti hai giraft-e-hosh nahin sahl dast-bardaari girah ye sakht qarine ke biich khulti hai kinaara-e-mah-o-anjum jahaan tilak bhi ho ye raushni isi jiine ke biich khulti hai na baadbaan koi aur na rud-o-samt-o-sukun to kis ki khinch safine ke biich khulti hai rukun to dekh sakun aasmaan ki khiDki jo ek baar mahine ke biich khulti hai zaraa saa aur bhi kiina ai kina-parvar-e-jaan miri nazar tire kiine ke biich khulti hai ye kaun chhoD gayaa hai maqaam-e-asl 'naved' ye kis ki baas dafine ke biich khulti hai"

"apne hi tale aai zaminon se nikal kar aa jaataa huun shaakhon pe dafinon se nikal kar darvaaze the kuchh aur bhi darvaaze ke pichhe barson pe gai baat mahinon se nikal kar so jaati hai basti to makaan pichhli gali mein tanhaa khaDaa rahtaa hai makinon se nikal kar kis subh-e-tamaashaa kaa bachaayaa huaa sajda rukh par chalaa aataa hai jabinon se nikal kar aisi koi aasaan hai divaangi yaaro aai bhi to aaegi qarinon se nikal kar vo aur koi abr hai jo khultaa nahin hai sar par jo khaDaa rahtaa hai sinon se nikal kar muddat se mire raaste mein aayaa huaa hai patthar saa koi tere naginon se nikal kar ik roz jo divaar thi vo ham ne giraa di paani mein chale aae safinon se nikal kar ye dekh miraa nakhl-e-kutub-haa-e-darakhshaan jo phail gayaa khuun pasinon se nikal kar aa jaate hain saahil pe dikhaane hamein munh log taariki mein Duube hue zinon se nikal kar ik den hai ham jaison ki aashufta-sari ko tham rahtaa hai aafaaq pe dinon se nikal kar zerin kahin rahti hai tapasyaa se bhari lahr budh aur hai andoh-nashinon se nikal kar mismaar ajaaib jo huaa jang-o-jadal se miTTi ke zaruf aa gae minon se nikal kar hamraah asaason ki kahaan DhunD sakeinge aayaa na agar saanp khazinon se nikal kar atraaf-e-dar-o-baam hi le baiTheinge mujh ko gar qasd-e-chahaarum na ho tinon se nikal kar phir saamnaa hogaa miraa apni hi mashin se aayaa bhi jo bil-farz mashinon se nikal kar duniyaa ko piroegaa 'naved' ek laDi mein aaegaa koi khaak-nashinon se nikal kar"

"makaan-e-khvaab mein jangal ki baas rahne lagi koi na aayaa to zinon pe ghaas rahne lagi tire vajud kaa jab se libaas rahne lagi liye diye hue mujh se kapaas rahne lagi ye aur baat anokhi si pyaas rahne lagi miri zabaan pe us ki miThaas rahne lagi jhalak thi yaa koi khushbu-e-khadd-o-khaal thi vo chali gai to mire aas paas rahne lagi gayaa hujum liye baaz-did naqsh-e-qadam havaa-e-raahguzar bad-havaas rahne lagi zaraae jo the mayassar hue ghubaar-e-shanaakht darun se chashm-e-darun naa-shanaas rahne lagi abhi ghubaar na utraa thaa saans kaa andar utarne ki pas-e-zindaan bhaDaas rahne lagi utaar pheink diyaa jo thaa jism-e-bosida sitaaron ki koi utran libaas rahne lagi ziyaada zor lagaane se kuchh na ho saktaa so aae roz ki halchal hi raas rahne lagi lahad ne daaman-e-yakh-basta khol kar rakkhaa badan mein garmi-e-khauf-o-hiraas rahne lagi na jaane andhe kuon ki vo tishnagi thi kyaa har ek aankh mein jo be-libaas rahne lagi bigaaD jis se ho paidaa koi bigaaD nahin so moajize ki mire dil ko aas rahne lagi mughaairat se bhari tirgi ke biich 'naved' ik andaruni ramaq ru-shanaas rahne lagi"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"kyaa apne shahr mein koi aisaa makaan hai samjhun jise ki asl mein vo ik jahaan hai DhunDo haqiqat is mein na afsaana hi koi is kaa bayaan kuchh nahin us kaa bayaan hai apnaa shi'aar ab hai faqat amn-dushmani ye aur baat faakhta apnaa nishaan hai likhne ko ek harf na kahne ko ek lafz yuun to qalam hai haath mein munh mein zabaan hai vo lams jis ke baa'd zamaane guzar gae vo lams ab bhi taaza hai ab bhi javaan hai ho jaaegaa yaqin sabhon kaa hi kal jo aaj meraa yaqin aur sabhon kaa gumaan hai shatranj ki bisaat ki thi apni mez par shatranj ki bisaat ki saaraa jahaan hai"

"charaaghon se kuchh to churaayaa gayaa hai jo thi aag us ko bujhaayaa gayaa hai likhaa thaa jinhein sirf apne lahu se mire un khaton ko jalaayaa gayaa hai hazaaron daf'a us ne ki bevafaai mujhe bevafaa kyon bataayaa gayaa hai mujhe khud nikalnaa paDaa apne ghar se ye mat sochnaa ki bhagaayaa gayaa hai khabar ye mili hai ki mere hi ghar mein kisi ghair ko ab basaayaa gayaa hai mujhe hi sataa kar mujhe hi rulaa kar ye ilzaam mujh par lagaayaa gayaa hai tumhein kyaa bataaun mohabbat mein 'raavat' mujhe kis qadar aazmaayaa gayaa hai"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"