hijr-e-paiham hai kyaa kiyaa jaae — Ejaz Haidar

"ajiib tarah kaa ik gham hai jaan se lipTaa huaa bagulaa jaise koi baadbaan se lipTaa huaa main likhne baiThun to kaaghaz hi bhiig jaataa hai vo shakhs yuun hai miri daastaan se lipTaa huaa talab sukun mein kartaa huun be-sukuni se ki meraa suud hai mere ziyaan se lipTaa huaa main niind mein huun magar khvaab kis tarah dekhun miraa shuur hai mere gumaan se lipTaa huaa agarche niind mujhe ab bhi aa hi jaati hai magar vo niind ki sotaa thaa maan se lipTaa huaa baghair puchhe mujhe raasta bataataa hai koi to hai ki mire kaarvaan se lipTaa huaa"

"vahin pe gham hai jahaan par khushi paDi hui hai aur un ke biich mein bhi dushmani paDi hui hai nimaT luun us se to sochungaa apne baare mein abhi to mere gale zindagi paDi hui hai nigaah mujh pe karegaa zarur dasht-e-junun zaraa si khaak mire sar mein bhi paDi hui hai jo baat ho na saki us ki baat ki jaae vo baat jo ki abhi an-kahi paDi hui hai main is liye bhi nahin kholtaa vo almaari puraane kapDon mein divaangi paDi hui hai"

"taaj mein ho bhi saktaa hai hiiraa kho bhi saktaa hai jaage bhaag to maan na kar bakht hai so bhi saktaa hai aankh mein rahne vaale sun ashk Dubo bhi saktaa hai vo qahhaar bhi hai lekin banda ro bhi saktaa hai jis mein kaaTne kaa dam ho vo hi bo bhi saktaa hai kaun kisi kaa hai 'ejaaz' kyaa koi ho bhi saktaa hai"

"baat jhuTi asar khayaali hai sarfaroshi kaa sar khayaali hai kaT gai khvaab TuTne mein umr yaani saaraa safar khayaali hai bhaai-chaara khulus aashti amn hai sabhi kuchh magar khayaali hai jalte rahnaa charaagh-e-shab mire saath hijr bhaari sahar khayaali hai aate jaate rahaa karo is par dil mein ik rahguzar khayaali hai nange paaon koi nahin aataa ab to har dopahar khayaali hai"

"khushi ki baat thi lekin mujhe rulaa gai hai kahaan se baat chali thi kahaan tak aa gai hai miraa khudaa to yaqinan bharam rakhegaa miraa main jaantaa huun ki us tak miri duaa gai hai main aam taur pe chaltaa huun us se aage magar kahin kahin mire aage miri anaa gai hai main apne naam ki takhti nahin lagaataa kahin miraa pata miri be-maaegi bataa gai hai sanbhal ke baiTh tu masnad pe saahib-e-mansab kisi ki jaan kisi ki yahaan qabaa gai hai tujhe ye zoam faqat tu thaa raunaq-e-mahfil jaras ki guunj tire baad jaa-ba-jaa gai hai"

"hijr kuchh is tarah guzaaraa hai vasl kah kar use pukaaraa hai ek tanhaai thi miri apni is pe bhi us kaa hi ijaara hai umr itni abhi hui to nahin jitnaa main ne use guzaaraa hai faisla ho nahin sakaa ab tak kaun se gham ne mujh ko maaraa hai zindagi phir bhi mere jaisi rahi main ne to is ko hi sanvaaraa hai meri jaanib hai aap ki ungli par kisi aur kaa ishaara hai"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"tirgi shama bani raahguzar mein aai saaat ik aisi bhi kal apne safar mein aai jis jagah chehra hi meyaar-e-vafaa Thahraa hai khaak hi khaak vahaan dast-e-hunar mein aai teri nazron mein thi duniyaa to yahi kyaa kam thaa hashr ye hai ki tu duniyaa ki nazar mein aai baar-haa yaaron ne saahil se kahaa thaa ham hain baar-haa naav magar apni bhanvar mein aai zindagi samjhun ise yaa ki ise maut kahun vo jo mehmaan ki surat mire ghar mein aai yuun bhi taarikh ki taarikh raqam hoti hai nikli taarikh mahal se to khanDar mein aai khvaab hi khvaab ki taabir huaa to jaanaa zindagi kyuun kisi aankhon ke asar mein aai shama jalte hi bujhi aur dhuaan aisaa uThaa lazzat-e-shaam yahaan khvaab-e-sahar mein aai zindagi kuchh hai 'ataa' sher-o-adab hai kuchh aur ye do-rangi ki vabaa kaisi hunar mein aai"

"jaagte hi nazar akhbaar mein kho jaati hai zindagi dard ke ambaar mein kho jaati hai naa-khudaa aql ke patvaar uThaataa hai ki jab kashti-e-dil miri manjdhaar mein kho jaati hai be-sabab sochne vaale kabhi sochaa tu ne aagahi kasrat-e-afkaar mein kho jaati hai uDte rahte hain khayaalaat ke jugnu phir bhi baat kyuun parda-e-izhaar mein kho jaati hai us ke kaamon kaa hai rangin khushaamad pe madaar aur mehnat miri isaar mein kho jaati hai hurmat-e-parda zaruri hai 'ataa-ji' varna chiiz jaisi bhi ho baazaar mein kho jaati hai"

"khaamushi ke batn se ye guftani paidaa hui main ba-zaahir chup huaa aur shaaeri paidaa hui is tarah saabit huaa gham aur khushi kaa imtizaaj hanste hanste us ki aankhon mein nami paidaa hui jurm ki paadaash mein ham khaak par pheinke gae so yahaan par intiqaaman zindagi paidaa hui khauf ne hi maslahat ki raah bhi ijaad ki main andheron se Daraa aur raushni paidaa hui dil mein kab utri kisi ke be-maaani guftugu baat karne se to bas aavaaz hi paidaa hui"

"jis din se meraa khvaab suhaanaa badal gayaa us din se zindagi kaa fasaana badal gayaa sunne lagaa huun jab se nasihat baDon ki main jaari thaa jo labon pe taraana badal gayaa pahchaan kaa havaala bhi baaqi nahin rahaa chehre ke saath aaina-khaana badal gayaa uThti nahin hai aankh bhi ab aasmaan ki samt jab se gali kaa chaand puraanaa badal gayaa tahzib jin ke ghar ki 'alaamat thi kal talak afsos aaj un kaa gharaanaa badal gayaa 'azmat kaa taaj sar pe hai 'akhilesh' ke sajaa aisi havaa chali ki zamaana badal gayaa itni sharaafaton mein kami aa gai hai aaj pahle thaa jo libaas puraanaa badal gayaa ahl-e-vafaa ne jis ki thi taarikh ki raqam 'faaruq' 'ishq kaa vo fasaana badal gayaa"

"bahut khajil hain ki ham raaegaan bhi zinda rahe jahaan pe tu bhi nahin thaa vahaan bhi zinda rahe ajiib shart hai is be-yaqin mizaaj ki bhi ki tu bhi paas ho teraa gumaan bhi zinda rahe tujhe pe zid hai magar is tarah nahin hotaa ki tu bhi zinda rahe daastaan bhi zinda rahe vo kaun log the jin kaa vajud jism se thaa ye kaun hain jo pas-e-jism-o-jaan bhi zinda rahe jo ye na ho to sukhan kaa koi javaaz nahin zamir zinda rahe to zabaan bhi zinda rahe ye kaaenaat faqat manfaat kaa naam nahin koi yahaan pe baraae ziyaan bhi zinda rahe adam mein jo bhi nahin thaa vo sab vajud mein thaa ye ham hi the jo kahin darmiyaan bhi zinda rahe"