taaj mein ho bhi saktaa hai — Ejaz Haidar

"ajiib tarah kaa ik gham hai jaan se lipTaa huaa bagulaa jaise koi baadbaan se lipTaa huaa main likhne baiThun to kaaghaz hi bhiig jaataa hai vo shakhs yuun hai miri daastaan se lipTaa huaa talab sukun mein kartaa huun be-sukuni se ki meraa suud hai mere ziyaan se lipTaa huaa main niind mein huun magar khvaab kis tarah dekhun miraa shuur hai mere gumaan se lipTaa huaa agarche niind mujhe ab bhi aa hi jaati hai magar vo niind ki sotaa thaa maan se lipTaa huaa baghair puchhe mujhe raasta bataataa hai koi to hai ki mire kaarvaan se lipTaa huaa"

"vahin pe gham hai jahaan par khushi paDi hui hai aur un ke biich mein bhi dushmani paDi hui hai nimaT luun us se to sochungaa apne baare mein abhi to mere gale zindagi paDi hui hai nigaah mujh pe karegaa zarur dasht-e-junun zaraa si khaak mire sar mein bhi paDi hui hai jo baat ho na saki us ki baat ki jaae vo baat jo ki abhi an-kahi paDi hui hai main is liye bhi nahin kholtaa vo almaari puraane kapDon mein divaangi paDi hui hai"

"baat jhuTi asar khayaali hai sarfaroshi kaa sar khayaali hai kaT gai khvaab TuTne mein umr yaani saaraa safar khayaali hai bhaai-chaara khulus aashti amn hai sabhi kuchh magar khayaali hai jalte rahnaa charaagh-e-shab mire saath hijr bhaari sahar khayaali hai aate jaate rahaa karo is par dil mein ik rahguzar khayaali hai nange paaon koi nahin aataa ab to har dopahar khayaali hai"

"hijr-e-paiham hai kyaa kiyaa jaae mustaqil gham hai kyaa kiyaa jaae ek tasvir saamne hai magar aankh pur-nam hai kyaa kiyaa jaae us ki aadat hai der kar denaa zindagi kam hai kyaa kiyaa jaae saunp detaa havaa ko khaak apni par abhi nam hai kyaa kiyaa jaae kaisaa jhagDaa hai mere andar ye shor har dam hai kyaa kiyaa jaae main huun tanhaa aur aap ke haq mein ek aalam hai kyaa kiyaa jaae jhuuT kaa aur adl kaa 'haidar' rabt-e-baaham hai kyaa kiyaa jaae"

"khushi ki baat thi lekin mujhe rulaa gai hai kahaan se baat chali thi kahaan tak aa gai hai miraa khudaa to yaqinan bharam rakhegaa miraa main jaantaa huun ki us tak miri duaa gai hai main aam taur pe chaltaa huun us se aage magar kahin kahin mire aage miri anaa gai hai main apne naam ki takhti nahin lagaataa kahin miraa pata miri be-maaegi bataa gai hai sanbhal ke baiTh tu masnad pe saahib-e-mansab kisi ki jaan kisi ki yahaan qabaa gai hai tujhe ye zoam faqat tu thaa raunaq-e-mahfil jaras ki guunj tire baad jaa-ba-jaa gai hai"

"hijr kuchh is tarah guzaaraa hai vasl kah kar use pukaaraa hai ek tanhaai thi miri apni is pe bhi us kaa hi ijaara hai umr itni abhi hui to nahin jitnaa main ne use guzaaraa hai faisla ho nahin sakaa ab tak kaun se gham ne mujh ko maaraa hai zindagi phir bhi mere jaisi rahi main ne to is ko hi sanvaaraa hai meri jaanib hai aap ki ungli par kisi aur kaa ishaara hai"

"is ishq-e-junun-khez mein kyaa kyaa nahin hotaa divaana hai jo qais se lailaa nahin hotaa kuchh hashr lahad par abhi barpaa nahin hotaa aae ho to Thahro koi zinda nahin hotaa kyuun kar ye kahun husn kaa nashsha nahin hotaa hotaa to bahut hai magar itnaa nahin hotaa kuchh kahiye to sharmaa ke jhukaa lete hain gardan bhule se bhi ab vaada-e-fardaa nahin hotaa milte hain vo dil surkh hui jaati hai chuTki naazuk hain bahut khun-e-tamannaa nahin hotaa deti hai mazaa mai kaa hamein talkhi-e-tauba jab haath mein paimaana-e-sahbaa nahin hotaa vo hashr ke din kushte ko Thukraa chuke sau-baar kuchh jaan si paD jaati hai zinda nahin hotaa boli ye tamannaa jo ruke vo dar-e-dil par ghar aap kaa hai aap se pardaa nahin hotaa tiron ko jagah dete hain jo siine mein apne un logon ke ai jaan kaleja nahin hotaa sahraa se qadam ghar ki taraf khaak uThaaun kaanTe se judaa paanv kaa chhaalaa nahin hotaa baiThe nazar aate hain vahi teri gali mein jin kaa kahin duniyaa mein Thikaanaa nahin hotaa furqat mein hai kyuun nazaa ki taklif gavaaraa mar jaaein 'riyaaz' aap se itnaa nahin hotaa"

"hai jo ik maa'raka faisal nahin hone detaa jin vo ho ke mujhe botal nahin hone detaa qatl ik roz hi kartaa huun isi goshe mein aur saabit ise maqtal nahin hone detaa zid hai us ki ki har ik shaakh ho phir sabz hi sabz garche paidaa koi konpal nahin hone detaa raushni apne khayaalon hi se karni hogi koi raushan kahin mash'al nahin hone detaa chun-ki miTTi ki bhi ek apni alag khushbu hai main kahin bhi ise sandal nahin hone detaa ik parinda ki jo sahtaa hai havaaon kaa dabaao aur parvaaz ko paidal nahin hone detaa Dar hai us ko nazar aae na kahin zehn kaa 'aks vo miraa aaina saiqal nahin hone detaa tiraa qaanun hai jangal kaa ghanimat hai ki tu mire is shahr ko jangal nahin hone detaa chalo baat us ki sunein ek 'ajab mantiq se jo kisi baat ko muhmal nahin hone detaa"

"muzhda ai zauq-e-asiri ki nazar aataa hai daam-e-khaali qafas-e-murgh-e-giraftaar ke paas jigar-e-tishna-e-aazaar tasalli na huaa ju-e-khun ham ne bahaai bun-e-har khaar ke paas mund gaiin kholte hi kholte aankhein hai hai khuub vaqt aae tum is 'aashiq-e-bimaar ke paas main bhi ruk ruk ke na martaa jo zabaan ke badle dashna ik tez saa hotaa mire gham-khvaar ke paas dahan-e-sher mein jaa baiThe lekin ai dil na khaDe ho jiye khubaan-e-dil-aazaar ke paas dekh kar tujh ko chaman bas-ki numu kartaa hai khud-ba-khud pahunche hai gul gosha-e-dastaar ke paas mar gayaa phoD ke sar 'ghaalib'-e-vahshi hai hai baiThnaa us kaa vo aa kar tiri divaar ke paas kab faqiron ko rasaai bu-e-mai-khvaar ke paas to bane bu dijiye maikhaane ki divaar ke paas"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"kahe detaa huun go hai to nahin ye baat kahne ki tiri khvaahish nahin dil mein ziyaada der rahne ki bachaa kar dil guzartaa jaa rahaa huun har ta’alluq se kahaan us aable ko taab hai ab choT sahne ki rag-o-pai mein na hangaama kare to kyaa kare aakhir ijaazat jab nahin is ranj ko aankhon se bahne ki bas apni apni tarjihaat apni apni khvaahish hai tujhe shohrat kamaane ki mujhe ik she'r kahne ki jahaan kaa huun vahin ki raas aaegi fazaa mujh ko ye duniyaa bhi bhalaa koi jagah hai mere rahne ki jo kal 'irfaan' par guzri sunaa kuchh us ke baare mein khabar tum ne suni tufaan mein dariyaa ke bahne ki"