baat jhuTi asar khayaali hai — Ejaz Haidar

"ajiib tarah kaa ik gham hai jaan se lipTaa huaa bagulaa jaise koi baadbaan se lipTaa huaa main likhne baiThun to kaaghaz hi bhiig jaataa hai vo shakhs yuun hai miri daastaan se lipTaa huaa talab sukun mein kartaa huun be-sukuni se ki meraa suud hai mere ziyaan se lipTaa huaa main niind mein huun magar khvaab kis tarah dekhun miraa shuur hai mere gumaan se lipTaa huaa agarche niind mujhe ab bhi aa hi jaati hai magar vo niind ki sotaa thaa maan se lipTaa huaa baghair puchhe mujhe raasta bataataa hai koi to hai ki mire kaarvaan se lipTaa huaa"

"vahin pe gham hai jahaan par khushi paDi hui hai aur un ke biich mein bhi dushmani paDi hui hai nimaT luun us se to sochungaa apne baare mein abhi to mere gale zindagi paDi hui hai nigaah mujh pe karegaa zarur dasht-e-junun zaraa si khaak mire sar mein bhi paDi hui hai jo baat ho na saki us ki baat ki jaae vo baat jo ki abhi an-kahi paDi hui hai main is liye bhi nahin kholtaa vo almaari puraane kapDon mein divaangi paDi hui hai"

"taaj mein ho bhi saktaa hai hiiraa kho bhi saktaa hai jaage bhaag to maan na kar bakht hai so bhi saktaa hai aankh mein rahne vaale sun ashk Dubo bhi saktaa hai vo qahhaar bhi hai lekin banda ro bhi saktaa hai jis mein kaaTne kaa dam ho vo hi bo bhi saktaa hai kaun kisi kaa hai 'ejaaz' kyaa koi ho bhi saktaa hai"

"hijr-e-paiham hai kyaa kiyaa jaae mustaqil gham hai kyaa kiyaa jaae ek tasvir saamne hai magar aankh pur-nam hai kyaa kiyaa jaae us ki aadat hai der kar denaa zindagi kam hai kyaa kiyaa jaae saunp detaa havaa ko khaak apni par abhi nam hai kyaa kiyaa jaae kaisaa jhagDaa hai mere andar ye shor har dam hai kyaa kiyaa jaae main huun tanhaa aur aap ke haq mein ek aalam hai kyaa kiyaa jaae jhuuT kaa aur adl kaa 'haidar' rabt-e-baaham hai kyaa kiyaa jaae"

"khushi ki baat thi lekin mujhe rulaa gai hai kahaan se baat chali thi kahaan tak aa gai hai miraa khudaa to yaqinan bharam rakhegaa miraa main jaantaa huun ki us tak miri duaa gai hai main aam taur pe chaltaa huun us se aage magar kahin kahin mire aage miri anaa gai hai main apne naam ki takhti nahin lagaataa kahin miraa pata miri be-maaegi bataa gai hai sanbhal ke baiTh tu masnad pe saahib-e-mansab kisi ki jaan kisi ki yahaan qabaa gai hai tujhe ye zoam faqat tu thaa raunaq-e-mahfil jaras ki guunj tire baad jaa-ba-jaa gai hai"

"hijr kuchh is tarah guzaaraa hai vasl kah kar use pukaaraa hai ek tanhaai thi miri apni is pe bhi us kaa hi ijaara hai umr itni abhi hui to nahin jitnaa main ne use guzaaraa hai faisla ho nahin sakaa ab tak kaun se gham ne mujh ko maaraa hai zindagi phir bhi mere jaisi rahi main ne to is ko hi sanvaaraa hai meri jaanib hai aap ki ungli par kisi aur kaa ishaara hai"

"is ishq-e-junun-khez mein kyaa kyaa nahin hotaa divaana hai jo qais se lailaa nahin hotaa kuchh hashr lahad par abhi barpaa nahin hotaa aae ho to Thahro koi zinda nahin hotaa kyuun kar ye kahun husn kaa nashsha nahin hotaa hotaa to bahut hai magar itnaa nahin hotaa kuchh kahiye to sharmaa ke jhukaa lete hain gardan bhule se bhi ab vaada-e-fardaa nahin hotaa milte hain vo dil surkh hui jaati hai chuTki naazuk hain bahut khun-e-tamannaa nahin hotaa deti hai mazaa mai kaa hamein talkhi-e-tauba jab haath mein paimaana-e-sahbaa nahin hotaa vo hashr ke din kushte ko Thukraa chuke sau-baar kuchh jaan si paD jaati hai zinda nahin hotaa boli ye tamannaa jo ruke vo dar-e-dil par ghar aap kaa hai aap se pardaa nahin hotaa tiron ko jagah dete hain jo siine mein apne un logon ke ai jaan kaleja nahin hotaa sahraa se qadam ghar ki taraf khaak uThaaun kaanTe se judaa paanv kaa chhaalaa nahin hotaa baiThe nazar aate hain vahi teri gali mein jin kaa kahin duniyaa mein Thikaanaa nahin hotaa furqat mein hai kyuun nazaa ki taklif gavaaraa mar jaaein 'riyaaz' aap se itnaa nahin hotaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"

"tere tasavvuraat se aage nahin gayaa ye dil tavahhumaat se aage nahin gayaa jo biich raah chhoD gayaa shukr hai vo shakhs meri tavaqqu'aat se aage nahin gayaa shaayad use pasand thiin jhuTi numaaishein lekin main dil ki baat se aage nahin gayaa jazbaat-e-dil ko vo bhi na kuchh Dhang de sakaa main bhi takallufaat se aage nahin gayaa tohfa bhi us ke vaaste kangan liyaa 'zarim' vallah main us ke haath se aage nahin gayaa"

"na koi dost ho meraa na ho adu meraa tum apne munh se agar kah do mujh ko tu meraa fasurdagi mein junun-e-havaa-e-gul yaani khizaan ke daur mein saudaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa jo tum nahin to bahaar-e-jinaan mein khaak nahin bahut vasia hai daamaan-e-aarzu meraa nibhegi ai dil-e-aavaara ab na tujh se miri bas aaj se na main teraa huun aur na tu meraa banaa rahe hain vo jalve ki apne tasvirein dikhaa dikhaa ke tamaashaa-e-rang-o-bu meraa kisi ki zulf-e-siyah kah rahi hai khul khul kar ghaTaa ne rang uDaayaa hai hu-ba-hu meraa mah-e-siyaam kaa aur intizaam kyaa karte janaab-e-shaikh uDaa le gae subu meraa jafaa kaa rang judaa hai vafaa kaa rang judaa malo na dast-e-hinaai mein tum lahu meraa taDap rahi hai jo abr-e-siyaah mein bijli firaaq mein yahi naqsha thaa hu-ba-hu meraa suhaani raat hai chhiTki hai chaandni 'muztar' miri nigaah mein phirtaa hai maah-ru meraa"