qissa-e-zist mukhtasar karte — Fani Badayuni

"vaa-e-naadaani ye hasrat thi ki hotaa dar khulaa ham qafas raaz-e-asiri kyaa kahein kyunkar khulaa fursat-e-ranj-e-asiri di na un dhaDkon ne haae ab chhuri sayyaad ne li ab qafas kaa dar khulaa allaah allaah ik duaa-e-marg ke do do asar vaan khulaa baab-e-ijaabat yaan qafas kaa dar khulaa uf is aazaadi-e-be-hangaam ki majburiyaan main qafas ke paas yuun baiThaa hi rahtaa par khulaa ujlat-e-parvaaz jab milne bhi de raah-e-gurez yuun to khulne ko qafas kaa dar khulaa aksar khulaa band hai baab-e-qafas ho sar to paTke jaaiye ham ne dekhaa hai qafas ki tiliyon mein dar khulaa kam to kyaa sayyaad be-taabi sivaa ho jaaegi tu ne naahaq tiliyon mein rakh diyaa khanjar khulaa aasmaan garam-e-talaafi chaahiye kaisaa qafas bijliyon ke ik ishaare mein qafas kaa dar khulaa likh chuke ham jaa chukaa khat gar yahi haalat rahi haath mein aayaa qalam aur shauq kaa daftar khulaa dil mein zakhm ashkon mein khuun surat ba-bin-aalam-mapras vo nigah uf vo mizha naavak chhupaa nashtar khulaa dam-ba-khud sakte kaa aalam murdani chhaai hui rang meri zindagi kaa meri mayyat par khulaa dil mein teraa dhyaan ik muddat rahaa begaana-vaar khulte hi khulte khulaa aur kyaa hi sharmaa kar khulaa dekhiye kyaa gul khilaati hai bahaar ab ke baras khvaab mein 'faani' ne dekhaa hai qafas kaa dar khulaa"

"mizaaj-e-dahr mein un kaa ishaara paae jaa jo ho sake to bahar-haal muskuraae jaa bahaar-e-sad-chamanistaan-e-aarzu ban kar mire khayaal ki ranginiyon mein aae jaa khirad-navaaz nigaahon ki aaD mein rah kar fazaa-e-aalam-e-divaangi pe chhaae jaa pilaae jaa ki abhi hosh-e-be-khudi hai mujhe pilaae jaa mujhe saaqi abhi pilaae jaa dil o jigar pe guzar jaaegi jo guzregi tiri nazar se jo fitne uThein uThaae jaa zaraa Thahr ki ab anjaam-e-soz-e-gham hai qarib charaagh-e-zist bhaDakne ko hai bujhaae jaa sukut-e-mayyat-e-'faani' hai ik fasaana-e-shauq lab-e-khamosh se har muddaaa ko paae jaa"

"ziist kaa haasil banaayaa dil jo goyaa kuchh na thaa gham ne dil ko dil banaayaa varna kyaa thaa kuchh na thaa vo to mere saamne the dekhne ki der thi main ne aankhein band kar liin varna pardaa kuchh na thaa yaa alam-koshi rahi yaa khud-faraamoshi rahi dil kisi din dil na thaa yaa dard thaa yaa kuchh na thaa kuchh samajh kar khud hi ham ne jaan de di dil ke saath un ki nazron kaa abhi aisaa taqaazaa kuchh na thaa aap kaa divaana thaa ye iddaaa baatil sahi 'faani'-e-divaana divaana bhi thaa yaa kuchh na thaa"

"kuchh kam to huaa ranj-e-faraavaan-e-tamannaa aaghaaz-e-junun go nahin paayaan-e-tamannaa phir yaas ne rakkhaa hai qadam khaana-e-dil mein yaani hai ab allaah nigahbaan-e-tamannaa go chaak huaa dil magar armaan na nikle be-faaeda kholaa dar-e-zindaan-e-tamannaa afsaana miraa khvaab-e-zulekhaa-e-mohabbat jalva hai tiraa yusuf-e-kanaan-e-tamannaa juz vaada-e-baatil nahin buniyaad kuchh us ki dil kaanp uThaa dekh ke aivaan-e-tamannaa ik jaan hai vo khair se vaarafta-e-gham hai ik dil hai so hai sokhta-saamaan-e-tamannaa 'faani' kaa dam ik din tire qadmon pe nikal jaae dil ki ye tamannaa hai ab ai jaan-e-tamannaa"

"ibtidaa-e-ishq hai lutf-e-shabaab aane ko hai sabr rukhsat ho rahaa hai iztiraab aane ko hai qabr par kis shaan se vo be-naqaab aane ko hai aaftaab-e-subh-e-mahshar ham-rikaab aane ko hai mujh tak us mahfil mein phir jaam-e-sharaab aane ko hai umr-e-rafta palTi aati hai shabaab aane ko hai haae kaisi kashmakash hai yaas bhi hai aas bhi dam nikal jaane ko hai khat kaa javaab aane ko hai khat ke purze naama-bar ki laash ke hamraah hain kis DhiTaai se mire khat kaa javaab aane ko hai naa-umidi maut se kahti hai apnaa kaam kar aas kahti hai Thahar khat kaa javaab aane ko hai ruuh ghabraai hui phirti hai meri laash par kyaa janaaze par mere khat kaa javaab aane ko hai bhar ke saaqi jaam-e-mai ik aur laa aur jald laa un nashili ankhDiyon mein phir hijaab aane ko hai khaana-e-tasvir mein aane ko hai tasvir-e-yaar aaine mein qad-e-aadam aaftaab aane ko hai phir hinaai hone vaale hain mire qaatil ke haath phir zabaan-e-tegh par rang-e-shahaab aane ko hai gudgudaataa hai tasavvur chuTkiyaan letaa hai dard kyaa kisi be-khvaab ki aankhon mein khvaab aane ko hai dekhiye maut aae 'faani' yaa koi fitna uThe mere qaabu mein dil-e-be-sabr-o-taab aane ko hai"

"justuju-e-nashaat-e-mubham kyaa dil mayassar hai lazzat-e-gham kyaa masti-e-hosh ke fasaane hain jashn-e-parvez o ishrat-e-jam kyaa ek aalam ko dekhtaa huun main ye tiraa dhyaan hai mujassam kyaa izn hangaama-e-nigaah na de kyaa hamaari bisaat aur ham kyaa nang-e-rahmat hai ehtiyaaj-e-duaa intizaar-e-gadaa-e-mubram kyaa meri fitrat hai gosh bar aavaaz sun rahaa huun navaa-e-mehram kyaa miT gayaa naam-e-aashiqi ab aur chaahtaa hai vo husn-e-barham kyaa kaash puchho to kuchh bataaein ham haasil-e-shikva haae baaham kyaa dil kamaal-e-hayaat hai 'faani' dil ke maare huon kaa maatam kyaa"

"is ishq-e-junun-khez mein kyaa kyaa nahin hotaa divaana hai jo qais se lailaa nahin hotaa kuchh hashr lahad par abhi barpaa nahin hotaa aae ho to Thahro koi zinda nahin hotaa kyuun kar ye kahun husn kaa nashsha nahin hotaa hotaa to bahut hai magar itnaa nahin hotaa kuchh kahiye to sharmaa ke jhukaa lete hain gardan bhule se bhi ab vaada-e-fardaa nahin hotaa milte hain vo dil surkh hui jaati hai chuTki naazuk hain bahut khun-e-tamannaa nahin hotaa deti hai mazaa mai kaa hamein talkhi-e-tauba jab haath mein paimaana-e-sahbaa nahin hotaa vo hashr ke din kushte ko Thukraa chuke sau-baar kuchh jaan si paD jaati hai zinda nahin hotaa boli ye tamannaa jo ruke vo dar-e-dil par ghar aap kaa hai aap se pardaa nahin hotaa tiron ko jagah dete hain jo siine mein apne un logon ke ai jaan kaleja nahin hotaa sahraa se qadam ghar ki taraf khaak uThaaun kaanTe se judaa paanv kaa chhaalaa nahin hotaa baiThe nazar aate hain vahi teri gali mein jin kaa kahin duniyaa mein Thikaanaa nahin hotaa furqat mein hai kyuun nazaa ki taklif gavaaraa mar jaaein 'riyaaz' aap se itnaa nahin hotaa"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"kyaa apne shahr mein koi aisaa makaan hai samjhun jise ki asl mein vo ik jahaan hai DhunDo haqiqat is mein na afsaana hi koi is kaa bayaan kuchh nahin us kaa bayaan hai apnaa shi'aar ab hai faqat amn-dushmani ye aur baat faakhta apnaa nishaan hai likhne ko ek harf na kahne ko ek lafz yuun to qalam hai haath mein munh mein zabaan hai vo lams jis ke baa'd zamaane guzar gae vo lams ab bhi taaza hai ab bhi javaan hai ho jaaegaa yaqin sabhon kaa hi kal jo aaj meraa yaqin aur sabhon kaa gumaan hai shatranj ki bisaat ki thi apni mez par shatranj ki bisaat ki saaraa jahaan hai"

"charaaghon se kuchh to churaayaa gayaa hai jo thi aag us ko bujhaayaa gayaa hai likhaa thaa jinhein sirf apne lahu se mire un khaton ko jalaayaa gayaa hai hazaaron daf'a us ne ki bevafaai mujhe bevafaa kyon bataayaa gayaa hai mujhe khud nikalnaa paDaa apne ghar se ye mat sochnaa ki bhagaayaa gayaa hai khabar ye mili hai ki mere hi ghar mein kisi ghair ko ab basaayaa gayaa hai mujhe hi sataa kar mujhe hi rulaa kar ye ilzaam mujh par lagaayaa gayaa hai tumhein kyaa bataaun mohabbat mein 'raavat' mujhe kis qadar aazmaayaa gayaa hai"

"bahr-e-rang-e-daastaan rahne diyaa ik tajassus darmiyaan rahne diyaa ab zamin ban kar bichhaa jaataa hai vo main ne jis ko aasmaan rahne diyaa raushni aur khvaab saare hech the apni aankhon mein dhuaan rahne diyaa vo jagah raushan nahin hogi kabhi is mohabbat ko jahaan rahne diyaa maan ne maathaa chuum kar rukhsat kiyaa maamtaa kaa saaebaan rahne diyaa kul milaa ke ye hai raaz-e-tishnagi ham ne dil ko sargiraan rahne diyaa khud hami paamaal Thahre shauq se khush-gumaan ko khush-gumaan rahne diyaa"