itni saari shaamon mein ek shaam kar lenaa — Anjum Irfani

"ab is saada kahaani ko nayaa ik moD denaa thaa zaraa si baat par ahd-e-vafaa hi toD denaa thaa mahaktaa thaa badan har vaqt jis ke lams-e-khush-bu se vahi gul-dasta dahliz-e-khizaan par chhoD denaa thaa shikast-e-saaz-e-dil kaa umr bhar maatam bhi kyaa karte ki ik din hanste hanste saaz-e-jaan hi toD denaa thaa safar mein har qadam rah rah ke ye taklif hi dete bahar-surat hamein in aablon ko phoD denaa thaa ghalat-fahmi ke jhonkon se bikhar kar rah gae aakhir lahu ki aanch mein TuuTe dilon ko joD denaa thaa vo jis pe zikr hai qaul-o-qasam aur ahd-o-paimaan kaa kitaab-e-zindagi ke is varaq ko moD denaa thaa banaayaa hi nahin ham ne kabhi ye soch kar 'anjum' ki gautam ki tarah ik din hamein ghar chhoD denaa thaa"

"tesha-ba-kaf ko aaina-gar kah diyaa gayaa jo aib thaa use bhi hunar kah diyaa gayaa saaya hai pyaar kaa na mohabbat ki dhuup hai divaar ke hisaar ko ghar kah diyaa gayaa in ke har ek goshe mein sadiyaan muqim hain TuuTi imaaraton ko khanDar kah diyaa gayaa khuddaari-e-anaa hai na pindaar-e-zist hai shaanon ke saare bojh ko sar kah diyaa gayaa aangan mein har makaan ke andheron kaa raaj hai mahlon ki raushni ko sahar kah diyaa gayaa kuchh khauf-e-jaan hai aur na kuchh fikr-e-hijr-e-yaar khush-gaamiyon ko ranj-e-safar kah diyaa gayaa hairat darogh maslahat-aamez par ho kyaa be-barg jhaaDiyon ko shajar kah diyaa gayaa dekhaa kahaan hai aag ke dariyaaon kaa safar jugnu uDe to raqs-e-sharar kah diyaa gayaa kuchh ehtiraam-o-husn-e-aqidat ke josh mein har naqsh aab-e-naqsh-e-hajar kah diyaa gayaa khul jaaegaa bharam tiri mizaan-e-adl kaa do ek harf-e-jurm agar kah diyaa gayaa naa-aashnaa-e-naqsh-e-kaf-e-paa-e-aam hai vo raasta bhi raahguzar kah diyaa gayaa yuun khush hain jaise vaaqiatan ho gae khudaa majburiyon ke zer-e-asar kah diyaa gayaa 'anjum' yahaan tak aane mein kyaa kyaa guzar gai mohr-e-sar-e-mizha bhi guhar kah diyaa gayaa"

"is ne dekhaa hai sar-e-bazm sitamgar ki tarah phuul pheinkaa bhi miri samt to patthar ki tarah us ke lab ko mire lab rah gae chhute chhute main bhi naakaam chalaa aayaa sikandar ki tarah rang suraj kaa sar-e-shaam huaa jaataa hai zard us kaa bhi ghar na ho viraan mire ghar ki tarah dard us ahd ki miraas hai Darnaa kaisaa dard ko oDh liyaa karte hain chaadar ki tarah log har lamha badalte hain nazariye apne zehn-e-insaan bhi tavaaif ke hai bistar ki tarah ab ki yurish mein kahin gir hi na jaae ye fasil shor rahtaa hai mire dil mein samundar ki tarah kaisaa is ahd mein paimaan-e-vafaa log ab to dost har saal badalte hain calender ki tarah lafz aate hi mire lab pe laraz jaate hain haal-e-dil sunte hain ab vo kisi afsar ki tarah vahi paabandi-e-auqaat vahi maamulaat zindagi ghar mein basar hoti hai daftar ki tarah ho gayaa khaak-nashin par ye jhukaae na jhukaa kisi sar mein bhi na saudaa ho mire sar ki tarah 'anjum' is ahd mein TuuTe hue dil ke rishte joDne par bhi hain udhDe hue collar ki tarah"

"ab kisi andhe safar ke liye tayyaar huaa chaahtaa hai ik zaraa der mein rukhsat tiraa bimaar huaa chaahtaa hai aakhiri qist bhi saanson ki chukaa degaa chukaane vaalaa zindagi qarz se tere vo subuk-baar huaa chaahtaa hai raaz-e-sar-basta samajhte rahe ab tak jise ahl-e-daanish munkashif aaj vahi raaz sar-e-daar huaa chaahtaa hai dil-e-vahshi ke bahalne kaa nahin ek bhi saamaan yahaan mahfil-e-zohd-e-mizaajaan se ye bezaar huaa chaahtaa hai dekh leni thi tujhe sina-e-aafat-zadagaan ki sakhti teraa har tir-e-hadaf-kaar hi bekaar huaa chaahtaa hai phailte shahron ke jangal mein ye ghaaron ki tarah tang makaan khuun mein vahshi-e-khvaabida bhi bedaar huaa chaahtaa hai dard-e-dil baanTtaa aayaa hai zamaane ko jo ab tak 'anjum' kuchh huaa yuun ki vahi dard se do-chaar huaa chaahtaa hai"

"fasil-e-jism pe shab-khun sharaartein teri zaraa si bhi nahin badli hain aadatein teri ye zakhm zakhm badan aur lahu lahu ye khvaab kitaab-e-jism pe utri hain aayatein teri hisaar-e-aatish-e-namrud mein ghiraa huun main ab itni sust qadam kyuun hain rahmatein teri charaag chaand shafaq shaam phuul jhiil sabaa churaain sab ne hi kuchh kuchh shabaahatein teri ye mauj mauj lahu mein tire badan kaa nasha talaash kartaa hai har lamha qurbatein teri ai rashk-e-sarv-o-sanobar-qadaan khiraam-e-naaz ki raah dekh rahi hain qayaamatein teri miri havas ke samundar mein madd-o-jazr nahin pe-zavaal na hon chaand-chaahatein teri ukhaDne vaali thi jis dam tanaab saanson ki dar aaiin khema-e-dil mein bashaaratein teri ise sambhaal, huaa jaa rahaa hai zer-o-zabar ki dil pe laai hui sab hain aafatein teri adaa huaa na kabhi mujh se ek sajda-e-shukr main kis zabaan se karungaa shikaayatein teri vo aankhon aankhon mein raaton kaa kaaTnaa teraa vo baaton baaton mein 'anjum' ibaadatein teri"

"aur kuchh yaad nahin ab se na tab se puchho meri aankhon se lahu bahtaa hai kab se puchho lamhe lamhe mein huaa jaataa huun reza reza vajh kuchh mujh se na puchho mire rab se puchho vo to suraj hai har ik baat kaa shoala hai javaab ru-ba-ru aa ke kaho yaa ki aqab se puchho yaad hai qissa-e-gham kaa mujhe har lafz abhi haal jis dard kaa jis ranj kaa jab se puchho tai havaa kaise andheron ke samundar kaa safar ghaaza-e-subh se kyaa chaadar-e-shab se puchho zakhm dekho mire talvon ke na chehre kaa ghubaar mujh pe kyaa guzri hai ye raah-e-talab se puchho kitne sahraa ki simaT aae hain siine mein mire tishnagi meri na sukhe hue lab se puchho yuun na har chehre pe ab Daalo savaali nazrein us ke kuche kaa pata tum to na sab se puchho mujh se kyaa puchhte ho saare hi lamhon kaa hisaab mil ke jis moD se ham bichhDe hain tab se puchho harf-e-haq kahne mein kyaa kyaa na hue ham pe sitam puchhnaa hi hai to bu-jahl o lahb se puchho jumbish-e-lab ki tumhein bhi hai ijaazat 'anjum' baat jo puchho bahar-haal adab se puchho"

"is ishq-e-junun-khez mein kyaa kyaa nahin hotaa divaana hai jo qais se lailaa nahin hotaa kuchh hashr lahad par abhi barpaa nahin hotaa aae ho to Thahro koi zinda nahin hotaa kyuun kar ye kahun husn kaa nashsha nahin hotaa hotaa to bahut hai magar itnaa nahin hotaa kuchh kahiye to sharmaa ke jhukaa lete hain gardan bhule se bhi ab vaada-e-fardaa nahin hotaa milte hain vo dil surkh hui jaati hai chuTki naazuk hain bahut khun-e-tamannaa nahin hotaa deti hai mazaa mai kaa hamein talkhi-e-tauba jab haath mein paimaana-e-sahbaa nahin hotaa vo hashr ke din kushte ko Thukraa chuke sau-baar kuchh jaan si paD jaati hai zinda nahin hotaa boli ye tamannaa jo ruke vo dar-e-dil par ghar aap kaa hai aap se pardaa nahin hotaa tiron ko jagah dete hain jo siine mein apne un logon ke ai jaan kaleja nahin hotaa sahraa se qadam ghar ki taraf khaak uThaaun kaanTe se judaa paanv kaa chhaalaa nahin hotaa baiThe nazar aate hain vahi teri gali mein jin kaa kahin duniyaa mein Thikaanaa nahin hotaa furqat mein hai kyuun nazaa ki taklif gavaaraa mar jaaein 'riyaaz' aap se itnaa nahin hotaa"

"hai jo ik maa'raka faisal nahin hone detaa jin vo ho ke mujhe botal nahin hone detaa qatl ik roz hi kartaa huun isi goshe mein aur saabit ise maqtal nahin hone detaa zid hai us ki ki har ik shaakh ho phir sabz hi sabz garche paidaa koi konpal nahin hone detaa raushni apne khayaalon hi se karni hogi koi raushan kahin mash'al nahin hone detaa chun-ki miTTi ki bhi ek apni alag khushbu hai main kahin bhi ise sandal nahin hone detaa ik parinda ki jo sahtaa hai havaaon kaa dabaao aur parvaaz ko paidal nahin hone detaa Dar hai us ko nazar aae na kahin zehn kaa 'aks vo miraa aaina saiqal nahin hone detaa tiraa qaanun hai jangal kaa ghanimat hai ki tu mire is shahr ko jangal nahin hone detaa chalo baat us ki sunein ek 'ajab mantiq se jo kisi baat ko muhmal nahin hone detaa"

"muzhda ai zauq-e-asiri ki nazar aataa hai daam-e-khaali qafas-e-murgh-e-giraftaar ke paas jigar-e-tishna-e-aazaar tasalli na huaa ju-e-khun ham ne bahaai bun-e-har khaar ke paas mund gaiin kholte hi kholte aankhein hai hai khuub vaqt aae tum is 'aashiq-e-bimaar ke paas main bhi ruk ruk ke na martaa jo zabaan ke badle dashna ik tez saa hotaa mire gham-khvaar ke paas dahan-e-sher mein jaa baiThe lekin ai dil na khaDe ho jiye khubaan-e-dil-aazaar ke paas dekh kar tujh ko chaman bas-ki numu kartaa hai khud-ba-khud pahunche hai gul gosha-e-dastaar ke paas mar gayaa phoD ke sar 'ghaalib'-e-vahshi hai hai baiThnaa us kaa vo aa kar tiri divaar ke paas kab faqiron ko rasaai bu-e-mai-khvaar ke paas to bane bu dijiye maikhaane ki divaar ke paas"

"ajab mushkil ki dil kaa haal aisaa ho gayaa hai sabhi ab puchhte hain mujh se ye kyaa ho gayaa hai main ye samjhaa ki gham kaa ab mudaavaa ho gayaa hai kuredaa zakhm to ye aur taaza ho gayaa hai kabhi fursat mile to khud se main baatein karungaa mujhe khud se mile bhi to zamaana ho gayaa hai magar ab sochtaa huun toD duun saare maraasim magar dil bhi tire gham se shanaasaa ho gayaa hai miri barbaad hasti kaa nazaara dekhne ko vo aae aur gham mein phir izaafa ho gayaa hai isi dariyaa mein ab khud ko Dubonaa chaahtaa huun ki is dil kaa talaatum mein kinaare ho gayaa hai chalo bhi 'qalb' ab tum dusraa dekho Thikaanaa ki is basti mein apnaa sab paraayaa ho gayaa hai"

"dil shaad nahin karte aabaad nahin karte mahsus ye hotaa hai vo yaad nahin karte naashaad zamaane ke dil shaad nahin karte kam-aql parindon ko aazaad nahin karte mohtaaj-e-karam aksar rahte hain gharibon ke jo log gharibon ki imdaad nahin karte kuchh log shikaayat ko haq apnaa samajhte hain kuchh log kabhi tum se fariyaad nahin karte ham apne iraadon mein rakhte hain tavaanaai ham daad ke taalib ko bedaad nahin karte jo aap ki niyyat kaa kuchh ilm hamein hotaa ham apni mohabbat ko barbaad nahin karte is daur-e-siyaasat mein 'mahmud' qayaamat hai ahbaab jo karte hain jallaad nahin karte"

"kahe detaa huun go hai to nahin ye baat kahne ki tiri khvaahish nahin dil mein ziyaada der rahne ki bachaa kar dil guzartaa jaa rahaa huun har ta’alluq se kahaan us aable ko taab hai ab choT sahne ki rag-o-pai mein na hangaama kare to kyaa kare aakhir ijaazat jab nahin is ranj ko aankhon se bahne ki bas apni apni tarjihaat apni apni khvaahish hai tujhe shohrat kamaane ki mujhe ik she'r kahne ki jahaan kaa huun vahin ki raas aaegi fazaa mujh ko ye duniyaa bhi bhalaa koi jagah hai mere rahne ki jo kal 'irfaan' par guzri sunaa kuchh us ke baare mein khabar tum ne suni tufaan mein dariyaa ke bahne ki"