thaa bahut be-dard lekin hausla detaa rahaa — Arsh Siddiqui

"yuun na koi tiri mahfil mein pareshaan ho jaae jaise aavaaz-e-sabaa dasht mein hairaan ho jaae muntazir hain miri aahaT ki balaaein kitni ek mushkil to nahin hai ki jo aasaan ho jaae chaak-e-daaman hi zamaane se nahin hotaa rafu aur agar siina kabhi chaak-e-garebaan ho jaae pech-dar-pech hai yuun silsila-e-zulf-e-hayaat haath lagte hi jo kuchh aur bhi pechaan ho jaae daagh-e-dil jalne lage bujh gai har sham-e-tarab yuun hai to yuun hi sahi ghar mein charaaghaan ho jaae mujh pe qadghan hai ki main bazm mein khaamosh rahun aur khamoshi hi jo rusvaai kaa saamaan ho jaae nashtar-e-shauq ke haathon gul-e-sad-barg hai dil khuub ho ab jo ye nazr-e-dam-e-tufaan ho jaae kyuun na phir jalne lagein rashk se viraana-o-dasth shahr jab dil ki nigaahon mein bayaabaan ho jaae dil ko saudaa hai rahe rang-e-shafaq pesh-e-nazar gham ko ik taur to bahlaane kaa saamaan ho jaae raushni shaam ki sun paae na aavaaza-e-shab mohr-e-zartaab kaa aafaaq se paimaan ho jaae baat is aankh mein poshida hai vo 'arsh' ki jo lab se nikle to mire siine pe paikaan ho jaae"

"itni havaa na vaaiz-e-din-daar baandhiye izzat sanbaaliye sar-e-dastaar baandhiye gum kijiye havaas ko tafsir-e-hosh mein daanish ko jahl jahl ko pindaar baandhiye mahrum-e-hosh soiye par diije daad-e-hosh gul ko giyaah dasht ko gulzaar baandhiye bu chhiniye gulon se ki dete hain zauq-e-fan yuun khush-navaa tuyur ki chahkaar baandhiye ab juz havaa nahin hai girah mein hamaari khaak sau baar kholiye use sau baar baandhiye bhaDki hai aag 'arsh' khayaabaan-e-bazm mein hadd-e-jalaal-e-shoala-e-guftaar baandhiye"

"bas ek hi kaifiyyat-e-dil subh-o-masaa hai har lamha miri 'umr kaa zanjir-ba-paa hai main shahr ko kahtaa hon bayaabaan ki yahaan bhi saaya tiri divaar kaa kab sar pe paDaa hai hai vaqt ki kahtaa hai rukungaa na main ik pal tu hai ki abhi baat miri tol rahaa hai main bazm se khaakistar-e-dil le ke chalaa huun aur saamne tanhaai ke sahraa ki havaa hai aavaaz kaa tesha hai na khaamosh takallum taalaa jo zabaan par thaa vo ab dil pe paDaa hai main saath liye phirtaa huun saamaan-e-halaakat rag rag mein miri zahr-e-vafaa dauD rahaa hai kyaa kyaa hain tamannaaein dil-e-khaak-basar mein ye qaafila viraane mein kyuun Thahraa huaa hai"

"didani ab safar-e-zist kaa manzar hogaa jis ne luuTaa sar-e-baazaar vo rahbar hogaa haal-e-dil kah ke hue aur giraftaar-e-alam ham na kahte the ki yuun dard fuzun-tar hogaa jite-ji ham se kabhi harf-e-vafaa kah Daalo phir ye hogaa bhi jo ehsaan to kis par hogaa tu miri jurat-e-guftaar pe hairaan kyuun hai ye tamaashaa tiri sarkaar mein aksar hogaa un ki aankhon mein chamakte hue taare dekhe ab to naaseh bhi pashemaan baraabar hogaa ham bhi ab 'arsh' nayaa baab-e-vafaa kholeinge shahpar-e-shauq mah-o-mehr kaa ham-sar hogaa"

"phir usi shahr kaa fasaana chheD mutriba tarz-e-aashiqaana chheD saaz-e-dil se uThaa thaa jo ik baar phir vahi raag vaalihaana chheD ghar hai taarik yurish-e-gham se aaj ik aatishin taraana chheD phir jahaan dilkashi se hai mahrum zulf-e-hasti ko misl-e-shaana chheD bazm khauf-e-fanaa se hai be-dam kuchh ba-andaaz-e-jaavedaana chheD aaj har shai se bad-gumaan hain ham mat hamein ai gham-e-zamaana chheD ai gham-e-yaar ham hain khaakistar aur mat ai rafiq-e-khaana chheD 'arsh' thi har sukun ki jo rahzan us qayaamat kaa phir fasaana chheD"

"vo jis ki daastaan phaili dil-e-divaana meraa thaa zabaanein dushmanon ki thiin magar afsaana meraa thaa taDaptaa huun ki ik saaghar kisi haatim se mil jaae zavaal-e-aasmaan dekho kabhi mai-khaana meraa thaa balaa ki khaamushi taari thi har-su teri haibat se sar-e-mahfil jo gunjaa naara-e-mastaana meraa thaa kaTe yuun to hazaaron sar vafaa ki karbalaaon mein tire neze pe jo ubhraa sar-e-shaahaana meraa thaa faqih-e-shahr ko samjho ki ham pakDe gae naahaq sharaabein sab usi ki thiin bas ik paimaana meraa thaa banaa hai 'arsh' vo munsif to phir ye bhi kabhi dekhe huaa hai band jo mujh par vahi viraana meraa thaa"

"raftagaan ki sadaa nahin main huun ye tiraa vaahima nahin main huun tere maazi ke saath dafn kahin meraa ik vaaqi'a nahin main huun kyaa milaa intihaa-pasandi se kyaa main tere sivaa nahin main huun ek muddat mein jaa ke mujh pe khulaa chaand hasrat-zada nahin main huun us ne mujh ko muhaal jaan liyaa main ye kahtaa rahaa nahin main huun main hi 'ujlat mein aa gayaa thaa idhar ye zamaana nayaa nahin main huun meri vahshat se Dar gae shaayad yaar baad-e-fanaa nahin main huun main tire saath rah gayaa huun kahin vaqt Thahraa huaa nahin main huun gaahe gaahe sukhan zaruri hai saamne aaina nahin main huun sarsari kyuun guzartaa hai mujh se ye miraa maajraa nahin main huun us ne puchhaa kahaan gayaa vo shakhs kyaa bataataa ki thaa nahin main huun ye kise dekhtaa hai mujh se udhar tere aage khalaa nahin main huun"

"phir khuun mein vahshat raqsaan hai tajdid sitam karne ke liye ik taaza zakhm ki khvaahish hai ik sadma kam karne ke liye ham din-bhar duniyaa-daari mein hans hans ke baatein karte hain phir saari raat pighalte hain ik ashk raqam karne ke liye vo vasl ki jis ne ham donon ko yaksar be-buniyaad kiyaa ab fursat hai aa mil baiThein us vasl kaa gham karne ke liye ik kaari zakhm ki chaahat ne kyaa kyaa na hamein gulzaar kiyaa ham kis kis se mansub hue ik hijr baham karne ke liye insaan ke jiine marne ke majburi ke mukhtaari ke ye saare khel zaruri hain taamir adam karne ke liye"

"khel duniyaa-e-'aarzi kaa huun ek kirdaar zindagi kaa huun mujh ko rakkhaa gayaa andhere mein main bhi haqdaar raushni kaa huun intihaa ke qarib hai duniyaa aadmi aakhiri sadi kaa huun dil ko ehsaas ho gayaa teraa mo'tarif teri dosti kaa huun main ne ghurbat mein 'ilm sikhaa hai main to maqruz muflisi kaa huun pur na hogaa jo mere baa'd kabhi ek aisaa khalaa kami kaa huun meraa dushman nahin 'khayaali' koi dost bhi main kisi kisi kaa huun"

"nahin piitaa main par navaazish hui hai baDi mausamon ki sifaarish hui hai bahut din se sahraa ke jaisaa ye dil hai na baadal ghire hain na baarish hui hai yahaan hai bulandi jo kirdaar ki to vahaan khaal-o-khad ki numaaish hui hai tiri jhiil jaisi jo dekhi hain aankhein miri Duub jaane ki khvaahish hui hai chhalaktaa nahin khuun zakhmon se aise kahin naakhunon ki bhi kaavish hui hai hamein 'ishq mein mubtalaa kar rahe hain nazar aur dil mein ye saazish hui hai vahaan dushmanon ki baDi yaad aai jahaan doston ki navaazish hui hai vafaa-daariyon kaa sila mil rahaa hai hamaari sadaa aazmaaish hui hai pareshaaniyon mein jo ham mubtalaa hain yaqinan koi ham se laghzish hui hai vahin apni aankhon ko ham chhoD aae jahaan manzaron ki numaaish hui hai raqibon ko hai chhuT mahfil mein un ki mire aane jaane pe bandish hui hai ghazal kahnaa 'faaruq' main chhoD dungaa isi baat par un se ranjish hui hai"

"jab se aayaa huun tere gaanv mein rang hi rang hain fazaaon mein aa ki dukh sukh ki koi baat karein baiTh kar shishamon ki chhaanv mein main bhi kartaa huun zabt ki koshish to bhi takhfif kar adaaon mein vo tiraa dafatan bichhaD jaanaa vo miraa dekhnaa khalaaon mein ho agar koi gosh-bar-aavaaz ik khamoshi bhi hai sadaaon mein yahi mere liye ghanimat hai saans le luun khuli fazaaon mein"

"bas ki ik lams ki ummid pe vaare hue hain so tire saamne ye khaak pasaare hue hain jaane kab un ko bujhaa baiThe koi baad-e-alam sar-e-mizhgaan-e-tamannaa jo sitaare hue hain zindagi tu bhi hamein vaise hi ik roz guzaar jis tarah ham tujhe barson se guzaare hue hain nit-nae naqsh karein us pe aziyyat ke raqam aa ki ham takhti-e-dil apni pachaare hue hain kab kuchal jaaein kisi paanv se ham barg-e-vajud vaqt ki dhuup mein vaise hi karaare hue hain jaante hain ki tu hi ishq-badan ko hai libaas ham tiraa ruup jo aashuftagi dhaare hue hain apni jurat ki sataaish ho ki ham chob-mizaaj rabt rakhte hain sadaa un se jo aare hue hain"