zindagi se hasin udaasi hai — Bano Saima

"kyuun aankh se surkhi ab chhalki hui lagti hai ye niind ki raani bhi ruThi hui lagti hai yaadon kaa tasalsul hai ghanghor judaai hai saavan ki tarah ye bhi chhaai hui lagti hai sujhe na mudaavaa kyuun khud mere masihaa ko zakhmon ki tarah chaahat risti hui lagti hai aavaaz ye kis ne di phir yaad ye kaun aayaa be-taabi-e-dil kuchh kuchh sambhali hui lagti hai guzri hai gulaabon ko daaman mein khizaan bhar ke har shaakh-e-chaman lekin mahki hui lagti hai baazaar-e-mohabbat ke taajir hain sitam-pesha ai 'baano' tiri qimat lagti hui lagti hai"

"khamir meraa uThaa vafaa se vajud meraa faqat hayaa se kuchh aur bojhal huaa miraa dil ghuTi hui dard ki fazaa se baras paDe hasraton ke baadal nazar pe chhaai hui ghaTaa se hai vahshaton kaa safar musalsal baDhaa junun hijr ki sazaa se hatheliyon par na rach saki vo jo naam likkhaa tiraa hinaa se banaa gai tum ko aur chanchal jhuki jo meri nazar hayaa se gulon pe ik be-khudi si chhaai chaman mein bahki hui sabaa se hai vajd kyuun shaakh-e-gul pe taari lipaT ke jhumi vo kyuun havaa se mahak ki kirnein chaman mein raqsaan gulaab ki reshmi qabaa se kali ko chumaa gulon ko nochaa kisi ne simaab si adaa se hai to masihaa to kar mudaavaa hai soch zakhmi tiri jafaa se vahi adaa be-niyaaziyon ki to kaam kab tak na luun anaa se yaqin kaise karun main 'baano' sukun kyaa de sakein dilaase"

"khabar hai ki aayaa gulaabon kaa mausam gulon ke badan par hai kaanTon kaa mausam khudaa jaane is rut mein kyaa gul khilaae gulistaan kaa joban ye kaliyon kaa mausam labon ki sharaarat nazar se ishaarat dam-e-vasl kaisaa hayaaon kaa mausam ye daur-e-mohabbat bhi kaisaa ajab hai huun aankhon mein baatein ishaaron kaa mausam havaae judaai ye kaisi chali phir ghamon ki fazaa mein azaabon kaa mausam jo pyaase hain 'baano' tum un ko sadaa do ki sahraa mein utraa hai chashmon kaa mausam"

"vo mere qalb-o-ruh ko shaadaab kar gayaa phir is tarah gayaa mujhe betaab kar gayaa kaajal bhi niind kaa miri aankhon se le uDaa khvaabon mein aa ke vo mujhe be-khvaab kar gayaa us ne to iztiraab ke maani sujhaa diye aisi nigaah ki mujhe betaab kar gayaa jins-e-giraan samajh ke nahin dekhtaa koi mujh ko vo ek jauhar-e-naayaab kar gayaa jauf-e-sadaf samajh ke paDi abr ki nazar thi sath-e-aab par vo tah-e-aab kar gayaa baaqi rahe na baam-o-dariche na hi fasil kyaa haal mere dil kaa ye sailaab kar gayaa saahir thaa devtaa thaa koi but-taraash thaa patthar thi ek 'baano' vo simaab kar gayaa"

"chaahaa hai ajab Dhang se chaahat bhi ajab hai mahbub ajab hai ye mohabbat bhi ajab hai pallu miraa thaamaa hai kai baar khirad ne par in dinon jazbon ki baghaavat bhi ajab hai jakDaa hai tiri yaad ne afkaar ko mere hamdam tire jazbaat mein shiddat bhi ajab hai qurbat ke hasin phuul miri ruuh pe vaare kyaa khuub sakhi hai ye sakhaavat bhi ajab hai ik aariz-e-gul par jamaa shabnam saa vo qatra kirnon se zaraa qabl rifaaqat bhi ajab hai lahja tiraa dahkaa huaa lagtaa hai ghazab kaa ghusse-bhare lahje mein haraarat bhi ajab hai chehra tiraa taptaa huaa dikhtaa hai tapish se masti-bhare nainon mein sharaarat bhi ajab hai baazi kabhi haari nahin zaalim ne anaa ki chaalein bhi ajab us ki siyaasat bhi ajab hai khud qaid-e-vafaa kaaT ke di us ko rihaai 'baano' ye tire dil ki adaalat bhi ajab hai"

"aankhon mein jo basaa thaa vo kaajal kahaan gayaa thaa zabt jis ke dam se vo baadal kahaan gayaa ham jis ke saath shauq se nikle the sair ko vo ham-safar kahaan hai vo jangal kahaan gayaa kartaa thaa shahr mein jo mohabbat se guftugu maalum hai kisi ko vo paagal kahaan gayaa maujein bhi us ke paas uThin nazm-o-zabt se saahil ki jaan thaa jo vo dibal kahaan gayaa phaili hui thi jis ke taqaddus ki raushni aankhein talaash mein hain vo aanchal kahaan gayaa 'baano' jo gham milaa mujhe qismat se ab vahi le kar kisi ki yaad-e-musalsal kahaan gayaa"

"vo mujhe zindagi bataataa hai phir bhalaa kyon nazar churaataa hai main usi ko uThaa rahaa thaa par vo mujhe hi faqat giraataa hai yaad us ko kiyaa yahaan main ne par mujhe vo vahaan bhulaataa hai raaz saare bataa diye main ne kyon magar raaz vo chhupaataa hai log masruf hain mohabbat mein aur vo dil miraa dukhaataa hai"

"jis din se meraa khvaab suhaanaa badal gayaa us din se zindagi kaa fasaana badal gayaa sunne lagaa huun jab se nasihat baDon ki main jaari thaa jo labon pe taraana badal gayaa pahchaan kaa havaala bhi baaqi nahin rahaa chehre ke saath aaina-khaana badal gayaa uThti nahin hai aankh bhi ab aasmaan ki samt jab se gali kaa chaand puraanaa badal gayaa tahzib jin ke ghar ki 'alaamat thi kal talak afsos aaj un kaa gharaanaa badal gayaa 'azmat kaa taaj sar pe hai 'akhilesh' ke sajaa aisi havaa chali ki zamaana badal gayaa itni sharaafaton mein kami aa gai hai aaj pahle thaa jo libaas puraanaa badal gayaa ahl-e-vafaa ne jis ki thi taarikh ki raqam 'faaruq' 'ishq kaa vo fasaana badal gayaa"

"tirgi shama bani raahguzar mein aai saaat ik aisi bhi kal apne safar mein aai jis jagah chehra hi meyaar-e-vafaa Thahraa hai khaak hi khaak vahaan dast-e-hunar mein aai teri nazron mein thi duniyaa to yahi kyaa kam thaa hashr ye hai ki tu duniyaa ki nazar mein aai baar-haa yaaron ne saahil se kahaa thaa ham hain baar-haa naav magar apni bhanvar mein aai zindagi samjhun ise yaa ki ise maut kahun vo jo mehmaan ki surat mire ghar mein aai yuun bhi taarikh ki taarikh raqam hoti hai nikli taarikh mahal se to khanDar mein aai khvaab hi khvaab ki taabir huaa to jaanaa zindagi kyuun kisi aankhon ke asar mein aai shama jalte hi bujhi aur dhuaan aisaa uThaa lazzat-e-shaam yahaan khvaab-e-sahar mein aai zindagi kuchh hai 'ataa' sher-o-adab hai kuchh aur ye do-rangi ki vabaa kaisi hunar mein aai"

"khaamushi ke batn se ye guftani paidaa hui main ba-zaahir chup huaa aur shaaeri paidaa hui is tarah saabit huaa gham aur khushi kaa imtizaaj hanste hanste us ki aankhon mein nami paidaa hui jurm ki paadaash mein ham khaak par pheinke gae so yahaan par intiqaaman zindagi paidaa hui khauf ne hi maslahat ki raah bhi ijaad ki main andheron se Daraa aur raushni paidaa hui dil mein kab utri kisi ke be-maaani guftugu baat karne se to bas aavaaz hi paidaa hui"

"shab ki taarik raahdaari hai aur miraa khauf iztiraari hai sabz khvaabon ki kam se kam qimat zindagi bhar ki ashk-baari hai ik musallat-shuda tamaddun ko ye na kahiye ki ikhtiyaari hai shash-jihaati mushaahida hai miyaan tajrabon ki sanad pe bhaari hai shukriya aap ki mohabbat kaa dil kaa maqsum sogvaari hai tajziye sun ke muskuraa denaa apni itni hi zimmedaari hai"

"ye hai mai-kada yahaan rind hain yahaan sab kaa saaqi imaam hai ye haram nahin hai ai shaikh ji yahaan paarsaai haraam hai jo zaraa si pi ke bahak gayaa use mai-kade se nikaal do yahaan tang-nazar kaa guzar nahin yahaan ahl-e-zarf kaa kaam hai koi mast hai koi tishna-lab to kisi ke haath mein jaam hai magar is pe koi kare bhi kyaa ye to mai-kade kaa nizaam hai ye janaab-e-shaikh kaa falsafa hai 'ajib saare jahaan se jo vahaan piyo to halaal hai jo yahaan piyo to haraam hai tujhe apne husn kaa vaasta mere shauq-e-did pa rahm khaa zaraa muskuraa ke naqaab uThaa ki nazar ko shauq-e-salaam hai na sunnaa to huur o qusur ki ye hikaayatein mujhe vaa'izaa koi baat kar dar-e-yaar ki dar-e-yaar hi se to kaam hai na to e'tikaaf se kuchh gharaz na savaab-o-zuhd se vaasta tiri diid aisi namaaz hai na sujud hai na qayaam hai ye durust ki 'aib hai mai-kashi ye ba-jaa ki baada haraam hai magar ab savaal ye aa paDaa ki tumhaare haath mein jaam hai jo uThi to subh-e-davaam thi jo jhuki to shaam hi shaam thi tiri chashm-e-mast mein saaqiyaa miri zindagi kaa nizaam hai miraa farz hai ki paDaa rahun tiri baargaah mein saaqiyaa koi tishna-lab hai ki sair hai yahi dekhnaa tiraa kaam hai isi kaaenaat mein ai 'jigar' koi inqalaab uThegaa phir ki buland ho ke bhi aadmi abhi khvaahishon kaa ghulaam hai"