Ghazal

"jaane kyaa phir ji mein aai chal paDe ham ne ik cigarette jalaai chal paDe ghaib se aai thi ham ko ik sadaa chhoD kar saari khudaai chal paDe is se pahle rokte divaar-o-dar aag khud ghar ko lagaai chal paDe aaj jaane kaa kahin dil to na thaa bas kisi ki yaad aai chal paDe is qadar thi rahguzar se nisbatein jab safar ki baat aai chal paDe shab gae aavaaz ik aai hamein ham ne bhi himmat juTaai chal paDe jaante the aakhirat kaa hai safar aa gai shaam-e-judaai chal paDe"

"roz shaam hote hi shama kaa vo jal jaanaa rafta rafta phir mujh mein mom kaa pighal jaanaa mutmain nahin kartaa chaahe mere haq mein ho Thokarein binaa khaae yuun miraa sanbhal jaanaa bhuul ek lamhe ki umr bhar pashemaani chhuT kar kamaan se yuun tiir kaa vo chal jaanaa darmiyaan donon ke hain tamaam andeshe haadse kaa ho jaanaa haadse kaa Tal jaanaa mahfilon ki vo raunaq qahqahon ki vo gunjein aur phir achaanak hi vaqt kaa badal jaanaa kis qadar tilismi thaa cigarettein sulagte hi us tamaam manzar kaa ik dhuein mein Dhal jaanaa is talab ko kyaa kahiye is junun kaa kyaa kiije ik khayaal ke pichhe yuun miraa nikal jaanaa"

"main kahaan thi kahaan se kahaan ho gai aakhirash ye huaa main dhuaan ho gai dil mein jazba thaa jo vo fanaa ho gayaa ik mohabbat thi jo daastaan ho gai saare armaan mere dhare rah gae saari koshish miri raaegaan ho gai mujh ko dekhaa to dene lagi gaaliyaan meri tanhaai kyaa bad-zabaan ho gai tajraba ye nayaa is safar mein huaa dhuup mein tap ke main saaebaan ho gai ek chehra nigaahon se guzraa hi thaa ek tasvir dil mein nihaan ho gai raakh hotaa gayaa rafta-rafta badan zindagi cigaretton kaa dhuaan ho gai"

"ho na paaeinge yaqin to ik gumaan ho jaaeinge ye kabhi mat sochnaa ham raaegaan ho jaaeinge ham abhi to chup hain lekin bolne par aae to jitne bhi ahl-e-zabaan hain be-zabaan ho jaaeinge sab se achchhaa hai ki apnaa raaz khud ham khol dein varna sab ke saamne ik din ayaan ho jaaeinge gar yuun hi chalti rahi paiham khayaalon ki uDaan uDte uDte ek din ham aasmaan ho jaaeinge itni jaldi to koi bhi moajiza hotaa nahin itni jaldi ham havaa mein gum kahaan ho jaaeinge piine vaalon ke liye to chand pal kaa thaa sukun khauf mein thi cigarettein ab ham dhuaan ho jaaeinge"

"kaun hai mujh mein jo martaa hi chalaa jaataa hai ruuh tak dard utartaa hi chalaa jaataa hai koi manhus havaa hai mire ghar ke andar jo sameTun vo bikhartaa hi chalaa jaataa hai marne vaale hain ki jiite hi chale jaate hain jiine vaalaa hai ki martaa hi chalaa jaataa hai zakhm sahme hue chup-chaap paDe rahte hain dard be-khauf ubhartaa hi chalaa jaataa hai main ne koshish to kai baar ki rokun us ko phir bhi ye vaqt guzartaa hi chalaa jaataa hai jis ke bharne se main be-rang hui jaati huun mujh mein kyon rang vo bhartaa hi chalaa jaataa hai kaisaa paagal hai miraa dil ki samajhtaa hi nahin ishq kartaa hai to kartaa hi chalaa jaataa hai"

"paagal huun puuri ki puuri jhakki huun is se baDh kar kyaa batlaaun kaisi huun teri khaatir kyaa kyaa sochaa thaa main ne teri khaatir kyaa kyaa sochaa karti huun raas aataa hai guDiyon kaa ye khel mujhe andar se shaayad main ab bhi bachchi huun behtar hogaa apni anaa par qaabu rakh varna main bhi apni zid ki pakki huun aisaa lagtaa hai mujh ko pi jaaegaa ye jo gahre paani se main Darti huun jab bhi mujh ko khvaab safar kaa aataa hai uTh kar phir main niind mein chalne lagti huun ek dhuein kaa chhallaa teri cigarette kaa main apni ungli mein pahnaa rakhti huun"

"ye jitne shikve gile hain inhein miTaa kar jaa tu jaanaa chaahtaa hai to gale lagaa kar jaa main bhuul jaaun tujhe yaa main intizaar karun tu apne jaane se pahle mujhe bataa kar jaa ye mere paas rahe to main ji na paaungi tu mere saamne apne ye khat jalaa kar jaa main tere baad kabhi DhunDh hi na paaun tujhe yuun apne aap ko mujh mein kahin chhupaa kar jaa hamaare biich kaa ye faasla mukammal ho abhi talak ki sabhi qurbatein miTaa kar jaa bache-khuche ye charaaghon ko bhi bujhaa de ab ki meri shab ke andheron ko tu baDhaa kar jaa main tujh ko khvaab mein bhi ab kabhi nahin dekhun tu jaa rahaa hai to nindein miri uDaa kar jaa"

"tumhaari yaad ki cigarette jalaa ke roi thi dhuein ke siine pe sar rakh ke raat soi thi tamaam chaand sitaare miri talaash mein the main kis khayaal ki duniyaa mein raat khoi thi use ujaaD diyaa aansuon ke mausam ne khushi ki fasl jo aankhon mein main ne boi thi bahut dinon mein jo khud par nazar paDi to khulaa main apne jaisi nahin thi main aur koi thi bataa rahe the mujhe meri aankh ke aansu vo koi qimti shai thi jo main ne khoi thi"

"tere chehre ko be-naqaab karein zindagi chal tiraa hisaab karein ham pe kaisi hai ye sanak haavi jo banaayaa hai vo kharaab karein is se ham baa'd mein kareinge vuzu pahle is aab ko sharaab karein sab kaa apnaa maqaam hotaa hai kyon charaaghon ko aaftaab karein ham kahaan hain hamein nahin maalum kis tarah khud ko dastiyaab karein koi shikva na dil mein rah jaae aao baiTho chalo hisaab karein kho chuke hain kai varaq apne khud ko ham kis tarah kitaab karein"